Okay. I know some of you might say "you don't even have anything to complain about!", or "I WISH I had your acne", but I seriously am to the point where I'm questioning if I want to go on in life if this problem persists.
I've always had acne since I could remember (pretty sure I had it as a fetus). From age 18-20 were markably the BEST years of my life, because I was put on Doxycycline and moved down to FL to go to school, and my skin was always bronzed and for the better part, pretty dayumn clear. I was diagnosed with Lyme disease last year, and was put on Ampicillin and alternating rounds of Minocycline and Azithromycin. Since I was taken off Doxy, my acne came back with a vengeance. That part, I'm okay with. But now EVERY G.D. zit leaves a mark, whether I pick at it or not. I used to be completely resilient to scarring, but now I have a couple new scars every WEEK.
Most of them are shallow pore scars, but then they connect and can create some rolling scars. My face is so oily (always has been) that I go through two of those 60-sheet oil blotting pad packs a week. Within 30 minutes my face is slick city...literally looks like the Exxon Valdez had an oil spill on my face. It's intolerable...but in combination with my huge pores and scarring, socially crippling and debilitating to my self esteem. All my friends have perfect skin. All but me. I can't see past my imperfections to see anything I like about myself anymore.
I know this is a sob story that's been told over and over, but I'm at the end of my rope. If I can't stop myself from scarring, I'm not sure I want to continue living.
Pic without makeup (very blurry, makes my skin look decent compared to what it really is):
I don't know what to do anymore...I'm 22 years old and the pores/scarring are getting so large they're starting to form distinct lines on my face.