ok so i've had acne since i was 13, i'm almost 19 now. acne was a problem in high school as it was mild-moderate and it really did bother me. i tried to eat healthy plenty of times. like eating veggies, chicken, fruits everyday. however, i always end up quitting in a week or two because i always feel the need to eat something different such as biscuits or sushi from the shops. (i never eat chips, chocolate, lollies, basically the really bad, unhealthy food). whenever i eat the sushi, biscuits etc, i feel that my acne will come back again and this makes me regret eating and then sometimes some pimple do form. i feel they form because i regret eating them and i have a feeling that a pimple will form so it might - a psychological effect. i can't help but think this way because ive read too much about eating healthy etc and how eating a snack that isnt too healthy once in awhile will make me get acne again. this cycle has been repeating for 2 years lol i feel that i am not strong willed enough and that makes me quite depressed.
everywhere i go, 95% off the time, everyone has clear skin, like literally or they just wear makeup. either way this makes me quite sad about myself. i keep thinking why me? of all the ppl in the world i had to be the unlucky one to get acne etc. anyway i keep rambling on, sorry about that, i just want to express how i feel.
i tried antibiotics and they did nothing for me. i hated going to the doctors as my parents had a bad health history so they go to the hospital etc a lot. i wasted a lot of money on supplements but the only one that is helpful is zinc. i take 30mg of it a day and it helps a bit. normally, i would eat a lot of fruits, veggies and maybe some type of meat like chicken. i always take 2 tbl of coconut oil and drink freshly squeezed lemon with stevia power in the morning. when i crave for something salty i'd eat some biscuits but when i do id feel guilty etc lol also i eat rice in the evenings, im a horrible cook so i reply on my parents to cook me meals - most of what they cook are veggies but they do like adding quite a bit of sauces so thats a bit unhealthy.
ANYWAY, around 6 weeks ago i tried accutane. i took it for a week before i realised the horrible side effects. i stopped taking it as i knew i have a very very high chance of catching them as my parents had a bad health history - kidney failure, mental illness....3 weeks ago, skin was the clearest it has been and now my face looks disgusting. used to have prob 10 pimples max on face, now i have over 30. i think its because i took acctuane and 3 weeks ago, most of the oil decreased from face etc but now its back. i wish i never took acctuane but at the same time i wish i continued! i dont know what to do anymore, feeling down atm and birthday is in a weeks' time.