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not really sure how to start..

im 20 and suffered acne since i was 13.

right now i finished 4 month of taking accutane and im starting my 5th month.. i think that after that ill stop taking it cuz i cant stand the side effects and i dont want any long term health damage..

before taking the accutane i had acne on my back, chest, shoulders.. and of course the face.

i have used all sorts of stuff like tropicals and creams and antibiotics that didnt really work.

for the 3-2 years before taking the accutane i used the tropical called benzamcyne (i might have spelled it wrong) which was not bad but not that affective, defenetly not in the long run...

so the reason i decided to start taking accutane is that even though my acne on the face wasnt that bad at all kept getting from time to time really deep whiteheads that left scars no matter what, also had acne on places other than my face that i couldnt really take care.. and thought to myself that if i kept like that i will keep getting more and more scars.. and for how long will i use these damn creams that burn me in the sun and prevent me from sleeping? i wanted a real solution.

the one thing i truly regret the most in my life is not taking accutane when i was like 14-15, that might've saved my life.. i didnt take it then because all of what ive heard of the side effects and i was naive to think the acne will go away at some point..but now its to late.

today, i almost regret taking accutane but its too soon for me to know, cuz i still get acne on my face just like before almost as if it really didnt do anything. also like 2-1 month ago i had like alot of white stuff coming out which i wasnt sure if its just dyness or wtf.. but it left alot of scars in my nose and cheeks in addition to what i already had.. and of course theres all these nasty side effects and a risk for a serious health problem.

the only way this is gonna be worth it is if im gonna stop having acne in my face and extremly greasy skin , and then i can take care of the scars.

all the scars that i have grant me really shitty texture to my skin its always sicken me to see the difference between my cheeks and the small area around the eyes which is basicly perfect compared to it..

basiclly my cheecks and nose are fucked up, the forehead and sides are fucked but much less, and the chin is near perfect..

so to be honest im always depressed and thinking of suicide alot. the only thing that is keeping me is that i might rid myself of acne with the accutane and could do something bout the scars after, but if thats not gonna work and i could never get a chance to be happy with myself i might as well just end it.

right now im studying at the university, im on my 2nd year studying physics. i got really good grades ( my average is 95 ) even though im starting to lose interest in it as in everything else.. whats the point in any of this if ill never be happy because my face is fucked up...i can bet i would do even alot better if i didnt have so much shit on me and didnt spend half my time depressed.

i really basicly have no friends. theres poeple i see and talk to, but i defently consider none of them as my friends.

in highschool even though i had nasty acne i still was pretty popular and alot of poeple liked me, but i didnt have any "real friends" since i cant really develop a real connection with anyone when i kept refusing poeple's offer to go to places like partys and stuff untill they all stopped asking me...i never wanted to go anywhere when my face was shit and also not wash it after several hours it will get so extremly greasy and cause more acne.. i always tried to take the best care for my skin and didnt drink alchohol at all.

now i think the worst part of this social crippling of mine are the girls. when my face wasnt so bad around age 15 i actually had some girls into me, but at that time i was kinda stupid and didnt show much of an interest.. so nothing really happened with anyone. i really regret that as it was a great time to start..

now i find myself at 20 years of age, never had any gf and a virgin, and probally none of that in a near future.

whenever people start talking about relationships i always starting to feel bad. whenever anyone ask me about mine i make up some lame shit.

also as u might guess, theres barely any girls studying physics (maybe 5% females where i study) so theres not really much for me to do. all the lack of my experience doesnt help at all either, and its only gonna get worse..

one more thing is there was a time (a few years ago) i was training in the gym thinking that atleast i can get a good body, but guess what? i trained hard for like 2 years and even though i lifted really heavy weights i developed alot less muscle than i thought i would (i mean that on average i lifted like x 2 heavier than people that had more muscle than me, which means i have shitty genes , i did eat good and all) and gotten really nasty strech marks thats gonna stay forever in the hands and waist. this made me quit training forever.

to sum things up, i changed from a naive nice funny caring kid (say before i was 13), to a sad bitter cold empty and depressed flooded with negativity.

heres my view on life: everything is luck.

ur genes determined by luck.

who raises u and how rich are they is determine by luck.

what country ur born into and where u are raised is determined by luck.

so basiclly EVERYTHING thats gonna determine what a person is gonna be is determined by luck.

justice, fairness, equallity=bullshit that doesnt exist in this world.

god? an imaginary friend.

btw im not from the us and my native language isnt english, so u will have to exuse me about any mistakes. or not.

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That's a bad way to look at life, think of your parents and those who love you. It helps me to know that we're not the only one in this, suffering from acne.


You waited for the right time but time does not wait for you. So think before you do it, and do it before it's too late.


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not really sure how to start..

im 20 and suffered acne since i was 13.

right now i finished 4 month of taking accutane and im starting my 5th month.. i think that after that ill stop taking it cuz i cant stand the side effects and i dont want any long term health damage..

before taking the accutane i had acne on my back, chest, shoulders.. and of course the face.

i have used all sorts of stuff like tropicals and creams and antibiotics that didnt really work.

for the 3-2 years before taking the accutane i used the tropical called benzamcyne (i might have spelled it wrong) which was not bad but not that affective, defenetly not in the long run...

so the reason i decided to start taking accutane is that even though my acne on the face wasnt that bad at all kept getting from time to time really deep whiteheads that left scars no matter what, also had acne on places other than my face that i couldnt really take care.. and thought to myself that if i kept like that i will keep getting more and more scars.. and for how long will i use these damn creams that burn me in the sun and prevent me from sleeping? i wanted a real solution.

the one thing i truly regret the most in my life is not taking accutane when i was like 14-15, that might've saved my life.. i didnt take it then because all of what ive heard of the side effects and i was naive to think the acne will go away at some point..but now its to late.

today, i almost regret taking accutane but its too soon for me to know, cuz i still get acne on my face just like before almost as if it really didnt do anything. also like 2-1 month ago i had like alot of white stuff coming out which i wasnt sure if its just dyness or wtf.. but it left alot of scars in my nose and cheeks in addition to what i already had.. and of course theres all these nasty side effects and a risk for a serious health problem.

the only way this is gonna be worth it is if im gonna stop having acne in my face and extremly greasy skin , and then i can take care of the scars.

all the scars that i have grant me really shitty texture to my skin its always sicken me to see the difference between my cheeks and the small area around the eyes which is basicly perfect compared to it..

basiclly my cheecks and nose are fucked up, the forehead and sides are fucked but much less, and the chin is near perfect..

so to be honest im always depressed and thinking of suicide alot. the only thing that is keeping me is that i might rid myself of acne with the accutane and could do something bout the scars after, but if thats not gonna work and i could never get a chance to be happy with myself i might as well just end it.

right now im studying at the university, im on my 2nd year studying physics. i got really good grades ( my average is 95 ) even though im starting to lose interest in it as in everything else.. whats the point in any of this if ill never be happy because my face is fucked up...i can bet i would do even alot better if i didnt have so much shit on me and didnt spend half my time depressed.

i really basicly have no friends. theres poeple i see and talk to, but i defently consider none of them as my friends.

in highschool even though i had nasty acne i still was pretty popular and alot of poeple liked me, but i didnt have any "real friends" since i cant really develop a real connection with anyone when i kept refusing poeple's offer to go to places like partys and stuff untill they all stopped asking me...i never wanted to go anywhere when my face was shit and also not wash it after several hours it will get so extremly greasy and cause more acne.. i always tried to take the best care for my skin and didnt drink alchohol at all.

now i think the worst part of this social crippling of mine are the girls. when my face wasnt so bad around age 15 i actually had some girls into me, but at that time i was kinda stupid and didnt show much of an interest.. so nothing really happened with anyone. i really regret that as it was a great time to start..

now i find myself at 20 years of age, never had any gf and a virgin, and probally none of that in a near future.

whenever people start talking about relationships i always starting to feel bad. whenever anyone ask me about mine i make up some lame shit.

also as u might guess, theres barely any girls studying physics (maybe 5% females where i study) so theres not really much for me to do. all the lack of my experience doesnt help at all either, and its only gonna get worse..

one more thing is there was a time (a few years ago) i was training in the gym thinking that atleast i can get a good body, but guess what? i trained hard for like 2 years and even though i lifted really heavy weights i developed alot less muscle than i thought i would (i mean that on average i lifted like x 2 heavier than people that had more muscle than me, which means i have shitty genes , i did eat good and all) and gotten really nasty strech marks thats gonna stay forever in the hands and waist. this made me quit training forever.

to sum things up, i changed from a naive nice funny caring kid (say before i was 13), to a sad bitter cold empty and depressed flooded with negativity.

heres my view on life: everything is luck.

ur genes determined by luck.

who raises u and how rich are they is determine by luck.

what country ur born into and where u are raised is determined by luck.

so basiclly EVERYTHING thats gonna determine what a person is gonna be is determined by luck.

justice, fairness, equallity=bullshit that doesnt exist in this world.

god? an imaginary friend.

btw im not from the us and my native language isnt english, so u will have to exuse me about any mistakes. or not.

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Think of the things you should be grateful for. Do you have access to water? Well some in 3rd world countries have to treck miles in order to gain access to water. Do you have a roof over your head? Do you have a bed to sleep in? Get some gratitude up yaaaaaa woooo

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That's a bad way to look at life, think of your parents and those who love you. It helps me to know that we're not the only one in this, suffering from acne.

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not really sure how to start..

im 20 and suffered acne since i was 13.

right now i finished 4 month of taking accutane and im starting my 5th month.. i think that after that ill stop taking it cuz i cant stand the side effects and i dont want any long term health damage..

before taking the accutane i had acne on my back, chest, shoulders.. and of course the face.

i have used all sorts of stuff like tropicals and creams and antibiotics that didnt really work.

for the 3-2 years before taking the accutane i used the tropical called benzamcyne (i might have spelled it wrong) which was not bad but not that affective, defenetly not in the long run...

so the reason i decided to start taking accutane is that even though my acne on the face wasnt that bad at all kept getting from time to time really deep whiteheads that left scars no matter what, also had acne on places other than my face that i couldnt really take care.. and thought to myself that if i kept like that i will keep getting more and more scars.. and for how long will i use these damn creams that burn me in the sun and prevent me from sleeping? i wanted a real solution.

the one thing i truly regret the most in my life is not taking accutane when i was like 14-15, that might've saved my life.. i didnt take it then because all of what ive heard of the side effects and i was naive to think the acne will go away at some point..but now its to late.

today, i almost regret taking accutane but its too soon for me to know, cuz i still get acne on my face just like before almost as if it really didnt do anything. also like 2-1 month ago i had like alot of white stuff coming out which i wasnt sure if its just dyness or wtf.. but it left alot of scars in my nose and cheeks in addition to what i already had.. and of course theres all these nasty side effects and a risk for a serious health problem.

the only way this is gonna be worth it is if im gonna stop having acne in my face and extremly greasy skin , and then i can take care of the scars.

all the scars that i have grant me really shitty texture to my skin its always sicken me to see the difference between my cheeks and the small area around the eyes which is basicly perfect compared to it..

basiclly my cheecks and nose are fucked up, the forehead and sides are fucked but much less, and the chin is near perfect..

so to be honest im always depressed and thinking of suicide alot. the only thing that is keeping me is that i might rid myself of acne with the accutane and could do something bout the scars after, but if thats not gonna work and i could never get a chance to be happy with myself i might as well just end it.

right now im studying at the university, im on my 2nd year studying physics. i got really good grades ( my average is 95 ) even though im starting to lose interest in it as in everything else.. whats the point in any of this if ill never be happy because my face is fucked up...i can bet i would do even alot better if i didnt have so much shit on me and didnt spend half my time depressed.

i really basicly have no friends. theres poeple i see and talk to, but i defently consider none of them as my friends.

in highschool even though i had nasty acne i still was pretty popular and alot of poeple liked me, but i didnt have any "real friends" since i cant really develop a real connection with anyone when i kept refusing poeple's offer to go to places like partys and stuff untill they all stopped asking me...i never wanted to go anywhere when my face was shit and also not wash it after several hours it will get so extremly greasy and cause more acne.. i always tried to take the best care for my skin and didnt drink alchohol at all.

now i think the worst part of this social crippling of mine are the girls. when my face wasnt so bad around age 15 i actually had some girls into me, but at that time i was kinda stupid and didnt show much of an interest.. so nothing really happened with anyone. i really regret that as it was a great time to start..

now i find myself at 20 years of age, never had any gf and a virgin, and probally none of that in a near future.

whenever people start talking about relationships i always starting to feel bad. whenever anyone ask me about mine i make up some lame shit.

also as u might guess, theres barely any girls studying physics (maybe 5% females where i study) so theres not really much for me to do. all the lack of my experience doesnt help at all either, and its only gonna get worse..

one more thing is there was a time (a few years ago) i was training in the gym thinking that atleast i can get a good body, but guess what? i trained hard for like 2 years and even though i lifted really heavy weights i developed alot less muscle than i thought i would (i mean that on average i lifted like x 2 heavier than people that had more muscle than me, which means i have shitty genes , i did eat good and all) and gotten really nasty strech marks thats gonna stay forever in the hands and waist. this made me quit training forever.

to sum things up, i changed from a naive nice funny caring kid (say before i was 13), to a sad bitter cold empty and depressed flooded with negativity.

heres my view on life: everything is luck.

ur genes determined by luck.

who raises u and how rich are they is determine by luck.

what country ur born into and where u are raised is determined by luck.

so basiclly EVERYTHING thats gonna determine what a person is gonna be is determined by luck.

justice, fairness, equallity=bullshit that doesnt exist in this world.

god? an imaginary friend.

btw im not from the us and my native language isnt english, so u will have to exuse me about any mistakes. or not.

Yes we have acne and many of us have scars too, we can sympathize but you know what, your life could be a lot worse and in the end the only person that will feel sorry for you is yourself. You have the ability to control your life. I have acne but guys still like me, confidence in yourself I believe is much more important than perfect skin. You want to know something to feel bad about? I know a girl who was born with a genetic skin disorder where her skin just falls off, so she in a wheelchair and has to keep her skin wrapped in bandages 24/7. She's always in pain and at 17 she only has a year to live. You're only 20, you're still very young and you have to remember that it is only acne, your life could be a lot worse, so you should try to make the best of it, because clear skin probably won't be the cure-all for your happiness.


Morning skin care routine:

- Cetaphil gentle cleanser

- Panoxyl B.P

- Cetaphil daily moisturizer (applied generously)

Night time skin care routine:

- Cetaphil gentle cleanser

- Panoxyl B.P

- Cetaphil daily moisturizer (applied generously)


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That's a bad way to look at life, think of your parents and those who love you. It helps me to know that we're not the only one in this, suffering from acne.

i know its not healthy but i cant help it no matter what i cant ever be positive. and also what ive said its completly true. its the ugly true about the world.

"..parents and those who love you.." - i honestly dont feel like anyone love me, and i dont love them at all.

in fact they keep giving me reasons to hate them all the time, if only i could i wouldnt live under thier roof, but i live in a lame country where u earn on average about 1/4 to 1/3 the sallarys u get in the us, but guess what? houses, cars, gas - cost like 3-2 times more on average than in the us.

my parents are old, they are 60 and still paying for thier only house. and they both work and always have worked and earn more than average.

i wish i had money so i would take off and never look back.

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not really sure how to start..

im 20 and suffered acne since i was 13.

right now i finished 4 month of taking accutane and im starting my 5th month.. i think that after that ill stop taking it cuz i cant stand the side effects and i dont want any long term health damage..

before taking the accutane i had acne on my back, chest, shoulders.. and of course the face.

i have used all sorts of stuff like tropicals and creams and antibiotics that didnt really work.

for the 3-2 years before taking the accutane i used the tropical called benzamcyne (i might have spelled it wrong) which was not bad but not that affective, defenetly not in the long run...

so the reason i decided to start taking accutane is that even though my acne on the face wasnt that bad at all kept getting from time to time really deep whiteheads that left scars no matter what, also had acne on places other than my face that i couldnt really take care.. and thought to myself that if i kept like that i will keep getting more and more scars.. and for how long will i use these damn creams that burn me in the sun and prevent me from sleeping? i wanted a real solution.

the one thing i truly regret the most in my life is not taking accutane when i was like 14-15, that might've saved my life.. i didnt take it then because all of what ive heard of the side effects and i was naive to think the acne will go away at some point..but now its to late.

today, i almost regret taking accutane but its too soon for me to know, cuz i still get acne on my face just like before almost as if it really didnt do anything. also like 2-1 month ago i had like alot of white stuff coming out which i wasnt sure if its just dyness or wtf.. but it left alot of scars in my nose and cheeks in addition to what i already had.. and of course theres all these nasty side effects and a risk for a serious health problem.

the only way this is gonna be worth it is if im gonna stop having acne in my face and extremly greasy skin , and then i can take care of the scars.

all the scars that i have grant me really shitty texture to my skin its always sicken me to see the difference between my cheeks and the small area around the eyes which is basicly perfect compared to it..

basiclly my cheecks and nose are fucked up, the forehead and sides are fucked but much less, and the chin is near perfect..

so to be honest im always depressed and thinking of suicide alot. the only thing that is keeping me is that i might rid myself of acne with the accutane and could do something bout the scars after, but if thats not gonna work and i could never get a chance to be happy with myself i might as well just end it.

right now im studying at the university, im on my 2nd year studying physics. i got really good grades ( my average is 95 ) even though im starting to lose interest in it as in everything else.. whats the point in any of this if ill never be happy because my face is fucked up...i can bet i would do even alot better if i didnt have so much shit on me and didnt spend half my time depressed.

i really basicly have no friends. theres poeple i see and talk to, but i defently consider none of them as my friends.

in highschool even though i had nasty acne i still was pretty popular and alot of poeple liked me, but i didnt have any "real friends" since i cant really develop a real connection with anyone when i kept refusing poeple's offer to go to places like partys and stuff untill they all stopped asking me...i never wanted to go anywhere when my face was shit and also not wash it after several hours it will get so extremly greasy and cause more acne.. i always tried to take the best care for my skin and didnt drink alchohol at all.

now i think the worst part of this social crippling of mine are the girls. when my face wasnt so bad around age 15 i actually had some girls into me, but at that time i was kinda stupid and didnt show much of an interest.. so nothing really happened with anyone. i really regret that as it was a great time to start..

now i find myself at 20 years of age, never had any gf and a virgin, and probally none of that in a near future.

whenever people start talking about relationships i always starting to feel bad. whenever anyone ask me about mine i make up some lame shit.

also as u might guess, theres barely any girls studying physics (maybe 5% females where i study) so theres not really much for me to do. all the lack of my experience doesnt help at all either, and its only gonna get worse..

one more thing is there was a time (a few years ago) i was training in the gym thinking that atleast i can get a good body, but guess what? i trained hard for like 2 years and even though i lifted really heavy weights i developed alot less muscle than i thought i would (i mean that on average i lifted like x 2 heavier than people that had more muscle than me, which means i have shitty genes , i did eat good and all) and gotten really nasty strech marks thats gonna stay forever in the hands and waist. this made me quit training forever.

to sum things up, i changed from a naive nice funny caring kid (say before i was 13), to a sad bitter cold empty and depressed flooded with negativity.

heres my view on life: everything is luck.

ur genes determined by luck.

who raises u and how rich are they is determine by luck.

what country ur born into and where u are raised is determined by luck.

so basiclly EVERYTHING thats gonna determine what a person is gonna be is determined by luck.

justice, fairness, equallity=bullshit that doesnt exist in this world.

god? an imaginary friend.

btw im not from the us and my native language isnt english, so u will have to exuse me about any mistakes. or not.

Yes we have acne and many of us have scars too, we can sympathize but you know what, your life could be a lot worse and in the end the only person that will feel sorry for you is yourself. You have the ability to control your life. I have acne but guys still like me, confidence in yourself I believe is much more important than perfect skin. You want to know something to feel bad about? I know a girl who was born with a genetic skin disorder where her skin just falls off, so she in a wheelchair and has to keep her skin wrapped in bandages 24/7. She's always in pain and at 17 she only has a year to live. You're only 20, you're still very young and you have to remember that it is only acne, your life could be a lot worse, so you should try to make the best of it, because clear skin probably won't be the cure-all for your happiness.

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That's a bad way to look at life, think of your parents and those who love you. It helps me to know that we're not the only one in this, suffering from acne.

i know its not healthy but i cant help it no matter what i cant ever be positive. and also what ive said its completly true. its the ugly true about the world.

"..parents and those who love you.." - i honestly dont feel like anyone love me, and i dont love them at all.

in fact they keep giving me reasons to hate them all the time, if only i could i wouldnt live under thier roof, but i live in a lame country where u earn on average about 1/4 to 1/3 the sallarys u get in the us, but guess what? houses, cars, gas - cost like 3-2 times more on average than in the us.

my parents are old, they are 60 and still paying for thier only house. and they both work and always have worked and earn more than average.

i wish i had money so i would take off and never look back.

>>>

not really sure how to start..

im 20 and suffered acne since i was 13.

right now i finished 4 month of taking accutane and im starting my 5th month.. i think that after that ill stop taking it cuz i cant stand the side effects and i dont want any long term health damage..

before taking the accutane i had acne on my back, chest, shoulders.. and of course the face.

i have used all sorts of stuff like tropicals and creams and antibiotics that didnt really work.

for the 3-2 years before taking the accutane i used the tropical called benzamcyne (i might have spelled it wrong) which was not bad but not that affective, defenetly not in the long run...

so the reason i decided to start taking accutane is that even though my acne on the face wasnt that bad at all kept getting from time to time really deep whiteheads that left scars no matter what, also had acne on places other than my face that i couldnt really take care.. and thought to myself that if i kept like that i will keep getting more and more scars.. and for how long will i use these damn creams that burn me in the sun and prevent me from sleeping? i wanted a real solution.

the one thing i truly regret the most in my life is not taking accutane when i was like 14-15, that might've saved my life.. i didnt take it then because all of what ive heard of the side effects and i was naive to think the acne will go away at some point..but now its to late.

today, i almost regret taking accutane but its too soon for me to know, cuz i still get acne on my face just like before almost as if it really didnt do anything. also like 2-1 month ago i had like alot of white stuff coming out which i wasnt sure if its just dyness or wtf.. but it left alot of scars in my nose and cheeks in addition to what i already had.. and of course theres all these nasty side effects and a risk for a serious health problem.

the only way this is gonna be worth it is if im gonna stop having acne in my face and extremly greasy skin , and then i can take care of the scars.

all the scars that i have grant me really shitty texture to my skin its always sicken me to see the difference between my cheeks and the small area around the eyes which is basicly perfect compared to it..

basiclly my cheecks and nose are fucked up, the forehead and sides are fucked but much less, and the chin is near perfect..

so to be honest im always depressed and thinking of suicide alot. the only thing that is keeping me is that i might rid myself of acne with the accutane and could do something bout the scars after, but if thats not gonna work and i could never get a chance to be happy with myself i might as well just end it.

right now im studying at the university, im on my 2nd year studying physics. i got really good grades ( my average is 95 ) even though im starting to lose interest in it as in everything else.. whats the point in any of this if ill never be happy because my face is fucked up...i can bet i would do even alot better if i didnt have so much shit on me and didnt spend half my time depressed.

i really basicly have no friends. theres poeple i see and talk to, but i defently consider none of them as my friends.

in highschool even though i had nasty acne i still was pretty popular and alot of poeple liked me, but i didnt have any "real friends" since i cant really develop a real connection with anyone when i kept refusing poeple's offer to go to places like partys and stuff untill they all stopped asking me...i never wanted to go anywhere when my face was shit and also not wash it after several hours it will get so extremly greasy and cause more acne.. i always tried to take the best care for my skin and didnt drink alchohol at all.

now i think the worst part of this social crippling of mine are the girls. when my face wasnt so bad around age 15 i actually had some girls into me, but at that time i was kinda stupid and didnt show much of an interest.. so nothing really happened with anyone. i really regret that as it was a great time to start..

now i find myself at 20 years of age, never had any gf and a virgin, and probally none of that in a near future.

whenever people start talking about relationships i always starting to feel bad. whenever anyone ask me about mine i make up some lame shit.

also as u might guess, theres barely any girls studying physics (maybe 5% females where i study) so theres not really much for me to do. all the lack of my experience doesnt help at all either, and its only gonna get worse..

one more thing is there was a time (a few years ago) i was training in the gym thinking that atleast i can get a good body, but guess what? i trained hard for like 2 years and even though i lifted really heavy weights i developed alot less muscle than i thought i would (i mean that on average i lifted like x 2 heavier than people that had more muscle than me, which means i have shitty genes , i did eat good and all) and gotten really nasty strech marks thats gonna stay forever in the hands and waist. this made me quit training forever.

to sum things up, i changed from a naive nice funny caring kid (say before i was 13), to a sad bitter cold empty and depressed flooded with negativity.

heres my view on life: everything is luck.

ur genes determined by luck.

who raises u and how rich are they is determine by luck.

what country ur born into and where u are raised is determined by luck.

so basiclly EVERYTHING thats gonna determine what a person is gonna be is determined by luck.

justice, fairness, equallity=bullshit that doesnt exist in this world.

god? an imaginary friend.

btw im not from the us and my native language isnt english, so u will have to exuse me about any mistakes. or not.

Yes we have acne and many of us have scars too, we can sympathize but you know what, your life could be a lot worse and in the end the only person that will feel sorry for you is yourself. You have the ability to control your life. I have acne but guys still like me, confidence in yourself I believe is much more important than perfect skin. You want to know something to feel bad about? I know a girl who was born with a genetic skin disorder where her skin just falls off, so she in a wheelchair and has to keep her skin wrapped in bandages 24/7. She's always in pain and at 17 she only has a year to live. You're only 20, you're still very young and you have to remember that it is only acne, your life could be a lot worse, so you should try to make the best of it, because clear skin probably won't be the cure-all for your happiness.

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WTF? lol Brad Pitt never had severe acne, even in his early roles his skin looked like every other celebrities; smooth and flawless. The point is irrelevant regardless.

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Nonsense.


Morning skin care routine:

- Cetaphil gentle cleanser

- Panoxyl B.P

- Cetaphil daily moisturizer (applied generously)

Night time skin care routine:

- Cetaphil gentle cleanser

- Panoxyl B.P

- Cetaphil daily moisturizer (applied generously)


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WTF? lol Brad Pitt never had severe acne, even in his early roles his skin looked like every other celebrities; smooth and flawless. The point is irrelevant regardless.

Brad%20Pitt%20Hair.jpg

Nonsense.

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Melmel is/was only trying to help. Don't be rude.

I think the whole "there are people who have it worse" thing is really about becoming more aware and subsequently perhaps more appreciative of what you do have. Many people focus on what they don't have all the time, becoming depressed just because they don't have a perfect life. But if you take a step back and look at your life in the context of the big picture you'd see that it's a lottery and you might be luckier than you think.

That said you are right when you say that regardless it remains painful to realize that the quality of your life has been lowered and certain options are not available to you. But it is also true I think that things could improve a lot still if you tackle the "emotional problems". If you find a degree of acceptance for instance you can be more open and more relaxed whilst being in social situations which will have a genuinely positive effect. And so forth.

I will also say that there are many people with physical issues greater than yours who are living full lives. So you shouldn't assume too soon that you will always be rejected by people just because of your acne scarring as it's just not true. You see? That's for instance one of the misconceptions that can be in people's minds making them depressed (which is understandable) while, like I said, they are wrong in thinking this.

I think if you were to try to give more people the benefit of the doubt you'd be pleasantly surprised. It all doesn't hinge on not having scarring. In certain circles it may but certainly not everywhere.

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not really sure how to start..

im 20 and suffered acne since i was 13.

right now i finished 4 month of taking accutane and im starting my 5th month.. i think that after that ill stop taking it cuz i cant stand the side effects and i dont want any long term health damage..

before taking the accutane i had acne on my back, chest, shoulders.. and of course the face.

i have used all sorts of stuff like tropicals and creams and antibiotics that didnt really work.

for the 3-2 years before taking the accutane i used the tropical called benzamcyne (i might have spelled it wrong) which was not bad but not that affective, defenetly not in the long run...

so the reason i decided to start taking accutane is that even though my acne on the face wasnt that bad at all kept getting from time to time really deep whiteheads that left scars no matter what, also had acne on places other than my face that i couldnt really take care.. and thought to myself that if i kept like that i will keep getting more and more scars.. and for how long will i use these damn creams that burn me in the sun and prevent me from sleeping? i wanted a real solution.

the one thing i truly regret the most in my life is not taking accutane when i was like 14-15, that might've saved my life.. i didnt take it then because all of what ive heard of the side effects and i was naive to think the acne will go away at some point..but now its to late.

today, i almost regret taking accutane but its too soon for me to know, cuz i still get acne on my face just like before almost as if it really didnt do anything. also like 2-1 month ago i had like alot of white stuff coming out which i wasnt sure if its just dyness or wtf.. but it left alot of scars in my nose and cheeks in addition to what i already had.. and of course theres all these nasty side effects and a risk for a serious health problem.

the only way this is gonna be worth it is if im gonna stop having acne in my face and extremly greasy skin , and then i can take care of the scars.

all the scars that i have grant me really shitty texture to my skin its always sicken me to see the difference between my cheeks and the small area around the eyes which is basicly perfect compared to it..

basiclly my cheecks and nose are fucked up, the forehead and sides are fucked but much less, and the chin is near perfect..

so to be honest im always depressed and thinking of suicide alot. the only thing that is keeping me is that i might rid myself of acne with the accutane and could do something bout the scars after, but if thats not gonna work and i could never get a chance to be happy with myself i might as well just end it.

right now im studying at the university, im on my 2nd year studying physics. i got really good grades ( my average is 95 ) even though im starting to lose interest in it as in everything else.. whats the point in any of this if ill never be happy because my face is fucked up...i can bet i would do even alot better if i didnt have so much shit on me and didnt spend half my time depressed.

i really basicly have no friends. theres poeple i see and talk to, but i defently consider none of them as my friends.

in highschool even though i had nasty acne i still was pretty popular and alot of poeple liked me, but i didnt have any "real friends" since i cant really develop a real connection with anyone when i kept refusing poeple's offer to go to places like partys and stuff untill they all stopped asking me...i never wanted to go anywhere when my face was shit and also not wash it after several hours it will get so extremly greasy and cause more acne.. i always tried to take the best care for my skin and didnt drink alchohol at all.

now i think the worst part of this social crippling of mine are the girls. when my face wasnt so bad around age 15 i actually had some girls into me, but at that time i was kinda stupid and didnt show much of an interest.. so nothing really happened with anyone. i really regret that as it was a great time to start..

now i find myself at 20 years of age, never had any gf and a virgin, and probally none of that in a near future.

whenever people start talking about relationships i always starting to feel bad. whenever anyone ask me about mine i make up some lame shit.

also as u might guess, theres barely any girls studying physics (maybe 5% females where i study) so theres not really much for me to do. all the lack of my experience doesnt help at all either, and its only gonna get worse..

one more thing is there was a time (a few years ago) i was training in the gym thinking that atleast i can get a good body, but guess what? i trained hard for like 2 years and even though i lifted really heavy weights i developed alot less muscle than i thought i would (i mean that on average i lifted like x 2 heavier than people that had more muscle than me, which means i have shitty genes , i did eat good and all) and gotten really nasty strech marks thats gonna stay forever in the hands and waist. this made me quit training forever.

to sum things up, i changed from a naive nice funny caring kid (say before i was 13), to a sad bitter cold empty and depressed flooded with negativity.

heres my view on life: everything is luck.

ur genes determined by luck.

who raises u and how rich are they is determine by luck.

what country ur born into and where u are raised is determined by luck.

so basiclly EVERYTHING thats gonna determine what a person is gonna be is determined by luck.

justice, fairness, equallity=bullshit that doesnt exist in this world.

god? an imaginary friend.

btw im not from the us and my native language isnt english, so u will have to exuse me about any mistakes. or not.

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I saw a lot of myself in the op. From having only a few girls in my engineering classes to lifting more than people, yet still being smaller than them. You shouldn't just give up though. Yes, luck determines the situation we are born into, but you decide what you do in that situation. I don't know how or why they do it, but some people are just driven to accomplish things, like they are internally motivated. This made me think of Arnold Schwarzenegger. We shouldn't really want to be like him, but he was a man who got what he wanted. He was born kind of poor and living in Austria, but he took his situation and became a champion bodybuilder, famous actor, and governor of California. And there's plenty of other people who are born into poor circumstances, yet end up doing very well in life. So it's not all luck. You can have some influence on your life too.

About the accutane, how well is it working and what are your side effects? I'm taking 40mg right now and I look decent, and I don't have many side effects. Maybe instead of quitting, you can just lower the dosage. A lot of people who quit too early because of side effects have their acne come back right away, and you wouldn't want that.


How I Stay Clear:

  • Accutane 5mg/day
  • Probiotics 25 billion organisms/day
  • Cetaphil gentle skin cleanser 2x/day

Low Dose Accutane Log


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WTF? lol Brad Pitt never had severe acne, even in his early roles his skin looked like every other celebrities; smooth and flawless. The point is irrelevant regardless.

Brad%20Pitt%20Hair.jpg

Nonsense.

lol..

melmel wanna explain urself...?

or its not to far fetched to assume everything u say is pure horseshit..

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Melmel is/was only trying to help. Don't be rude.

I think the whole "there are people who have it worse" thing is really about becoming more aware and subsequently perhaps more appreciative of what you do have. Many people focus on what they don't have all the time, becoming depressed just because they don't have a perfect life. But if you take a step back and look at your life in the context of the big picture you'd see that it's a lottery and you might be luckier than you think.

That said you are right when you say that regardless it remains painful to realize that the quality of your life has been lowered and certain options are not available to you. But it is also true I think that things could improve a lot still if you tackle the "emotional problems". If you find a degree of acceptance for instance you can be more open and more relaxed whilst being in social situations which will have a genuinely positive effect. And so forth.

I will also say that there are many people with physical issues greater than yours who are living full lives. So you shouldn't assume too soon that you will always be rejected by people just because of your acne scarring as it's just not true. You see? That's for instance one of the misconceptions that can be in people's minds making them depressed (which is understandable) while, like I said, they are wrong in thinking this.

I think if you were to try to give more people the benefit of the doubt you'd be pleasantly surprised. It all doesn't hinge on not having scarring. In certain circles it may but certainly not everywhere.

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If your not willing to accept peoples opinions and want to bash everyones post, then idk what your looking for by posting on here. So to do you a favor and save you the trouble this will be my last post on this topic. I think what makes a person stronger is the ability to be able to win their own personal battles. Acne man FUCK ACNE. And yeah posting up pictures of good looking celebrities does not make people with acne feel better, I mean he's successful now but I'm not gonna make him my role model just cause he has flawless skin and feel better about myself HA!. I honestly wouldn't give two shits about him besides his sometimes great acting.

As for your acne is still there yes, but you can do something about and it's more than just coming on forums and posting that theirs no hope, because it already shows everyone that you gave up. But never mind what other people think how about you? Do you honestly really wanna give up on your acne when it affects you so much? Make some money, think about the future get laser surgery for your scars cause that's what I am planning to do if I ever had the money. You can do it man. Don't give up. Your a young boy 20 years old, there is so much potential left in your life. You have acne and yes it hurts but what hurts yourself more is by giving up, having a positive outlook helps because its the only thing you can have.

I mean what do you do at home you play any games on the computer? Maybe we share some interest, I find that keeping my mind off acne helps me because I'm not thinking about how much torment it causes me. Because beating acne it's not gonna happen overnight thats for dam ass sure, and all we can do is keep trying to fight it and thats how I live my life to the fullest against acne.

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Having nasty scars all over your face is going to fuck you up with the opposite sex. It is a fact that's not going to change.

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Ok no example is perfect, but the point is people who are motivated to achieve will do so. Your life isn't determined just by your genes and class when you are born. I'm sure plenty of other people had genes just as good as Arnold, but they didn't accomplish nearly as much as he did. The difference between those people and Arnold is that he had a lot of determination and willpower. If someone has the best genes ever, but all they do is sit on the couch wishing their life was better, they would still have a pretty bad life. Your attitude and determination have a huge effect on your life; it's not just luck.

i dont think arnold is a good example at all, im not sure he was born poor, and also the main thing is he got so successful because of his awesome genes. he wouldnt get anywhere in bodybuilding and be famous if he had shitty genes.

i have taken it for about 120 days already, i think ill quit after 5 month. thats not too soon i think.

also whats crappy is that theres alot of sun where i live and i cant avoid being exposed when i need to go anywhere.


How I Stay Clear:

  • Accutane 5mg/day
  • Probiotics 25 billion organisms/day
  • Cetaphil gentle skin cleanser 2x/day

Low Dose Accutane Log


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