I've had acne for 5 years now and I'm mid-teens, its always been bad but last year I went to a dermatologist and they told me I had severe acne...I was absolutely crushed, I knew it was bad and all but to know its 'severe' was just heart breaking. I've never been on a forum thing before so thought I would try. But I feel so on my own... everywhere I look I see people with nice clear skin and think to myself "you dont know how lucky you are" I'm so embarrassed and so ashamed of my skin I could speak to people directly or anything and I've been bullied for it for years, just snide comments that you pretend to not hear.
I'm 15 and my acne has given me depression and has caused other me problems that I wont go into. But I generally do know what I have ever done to suffer like this? i cant go to sleepovers with my friends because im too ashamed to take my make up off and I cant risk leaving it on and im terrified to meet new people.
No one else in my family suffers, and they really are the best and support and help me, but I dont think they see what it does to me inside? ... and I wouldn't want them too. I hate people feeling sorry for me, thats not what I want... I need to speak to someone who knows what I'm going through because I'm so alone. Im on daily tablets for then next year or something stupid and some cream, my mum wont let me take accutane as she has read about some teenagers who committed suicide whilst on this drug.. so I understand her worry and things. Sometimes Im just devastated and horrified to see what I look like underneath the layers of foundation... my acne is killed my social and its killing me inside, I just want someone to speak to