So, how do I start? I've never ever written anything on this page, although I've spent lots and lots of hours browsing through the message boards here, searching for comfort and help. In one way, it feels kinda good that someone else is going through the same as me, just so I know I'm not alone.
But anyways, I'll try not to make this post too long. I am a fifteen year old girl from Norway (so sorry about any grammar mistakes), and I've already been on two accutane courses. I know a lot of you will say "woah, that's bad for your body, you shouldn't do that". But the truth is, accutane has actually helped me a lot. The first time i was on it was when I was about thirteen, and my acne had been bad and pretty severe for a long time. I had of course been put on antibiotics and topical creams first, and the dermatologist/skin doctor was in no doubt that I would be needing accutane. When I first started this medicine, my skin wasn't that bad because of the antibiotics which I had just been on. I did not really notice any inital breakout either, and the side effects were annoying throughout the cycle, but not horrible. About six months later the acne was coming back, and I really freaked out. It broke my heart, and I felt devastated that these months of struggeling trough accutane had done nothing at all. It felt so wasted. The weird part was, this time i broke out in my forehead with acne under my skin, while the first time around, the acne was mainly in my cheeks. They did not really hurt either, they were just bumps that would stay underneath the skin for weeks. I got so depressed, and my self-esteem became so low, that we really had no choice. (When I say we, I mean myself and my family, whom have been very supportive throughout this "experience". My mother also went on accutane two times, so she pretty much knows hoe it is.) I went on another course of accutane, and this time it took much longer until i cleared up. As I recall, I wasn't totally clear until maybe 3 or 4 months into the cycle.
Anyways, I've been clear for about 4-5 months now, but again, my acne is coming back. It's not nearly as bad as it was before my first cycle, and it's not yet as bad as it was before my second. But I guess my question is, do you think I can/should go on a thirds cycle? Maybe I could go on a longer cycle, or have a higher dosage? I don't know. I just want this nightmare to be over. I'm sure you can understand how horrible it is, and that it is like a horrible curse you just want to get rid of. Thanks for any help!