I first had acne when I was 15. I am now 21, and after a long battle through trial and error, and probably just genetics, my severe acne has disapeared. I'm left with a sensitive and damaged skin, (over applied retin-a for over a year- wasn't thinking straight because of the hysteria severe acne can have on someones physche).
I am now only using very minimalistic methods of skin care. Gentle milk cleanser in the shower, rosewater toner and a homemade moisturizer. I just recently switched to a new moisturizer recipe (jojoba, hemp oil, tamanu oil and a few essential oils) and stopped using glycerin with the rosewater because I saw articles saying that glycerin may actually dry the skin from the inside(not to sure about it though- I'm just really paranoid on doing anymore permanent longterm damage).
So anyway, today I had a freakout that reminded me of my teenage years For awhile now I have felt great and free from all of this bull, but I just moved into a place that has nothing but fluroescent lighting. When I look in the mirror I feel pretty damn bad. I used to have lighting that made my skin seem fine, which helped me break my obsession with the mirror. But now I look like a monster up close, and somewhat decent 5 feet away.
I feel as if Im back to square one. I have scattered enlarged pores all over my cheeks and ice pick scars on my right cheek. Its really depressing to think I'm only 21 and my skin looks this bad.
I'm pretty sure my misuse of retin-a contributed to my current situation. Its just so demoralizing, as I have literally spent hours and hours working towards this problem.






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