Reading along the lines and having lurked upon these forums for a while I realize that im not alone in what im about to desribe how im feeling in this moment in time! Anyway im going vent a bit and I hope I get some postive advice and feedback off you guys. Were all this thing together I guess. Anyway ive suffered from acne since I was the age of 18 im now 27 years old. My acne has ranged from severe as in I got lots of cysts on my forehead when it first appeared,Moderate and mild in this time with a period in 2009 when it had appeared to have completely gone away. Currently it appears to be mild/moderate with legions appearing in mostly the same areas of the lower part of my left and right cheecks daily. Im currently quite clear on my forehead clear on my temples and clear on my chin. I do use a bit of male talored foundation and conclear to hide the numerous red marks on my face. My skin is also quite red as in irratated in patches. Anyway ive been breaking out much more than usual which is really concerning me, this depsite starting an expensive skin care regime and trying my best to eat well under the guidance of an acne expert.Since tuesday I havent left the house and have been lying in bed etc missing uni and work. Im currently on a masters course in social work which has been my goal and ambition for a long while but ive felt so replused by my self that this week ive bascially given up. Ive tried so so hard to be positive but I feeling ive lost all my stength with dealing with this. I guess its due to the long long time that ive dealt with it and never had a great deal of respite. Im realsitic to know that I may be living with this for most of my life time as I understand there not a cure but I just wish I would stop breaking out so much. The positive aspects of my personality such as my sense of humour,being caring towards others, being sociable have been eroded terribly im single and am consigned to be on my own for a long while. I know that if I carry on this way ill lose my place on the course and ill get the sack. Im also losing my enthusiasm for my running im a more than capable 5,10k and marathon runner. Im meant to be moving out of home again (i lived away from home for 6 years then came back for a new job and this course) but I feel as far away from this than ever. I hate to feel like im whineing I guess ive tried to be strong for soo long and I carnt shake myself out of this rut. Im going post a seprate post in the adult acne section, but im wondering if you guys could provide me with some tips in avoiding looking at mirrors for long periods of time,touching my face and picking spots,being conifdent and maintianing eye contact with others even if youre feeling real shit about youre skin (all bad I know but my mental state is so hard I canrt think rationally and control myself). I hope that I will get back to being myself soon and believe me I can be of real benefit to people on here when im in a good frame of mind. Thanks for reading. Rob.