Hello Miss Stacey!
I'm just checking in. How are you today?
I wanted to tell you that it's now mid week 9 on spiro and I have noticed a change in my acne. My pimples are going away faster, they seem smaller and less inflamed. Exciting stuff, right?
I also wanted to tell you (and anyone else who reads) about something I did that really helped me emotionally this week. First, I wrote a letter to that part of me who is always critical, telling me I'm ugly and unworthy and that my skin will never improve. It's telling me "f--- it!" Just give up, eat a bunch of sugar, don't exercise, don't hang out with your friends, and don't strive for happiness in general. I know, sounds harsh, but that's how I talk to myself and even worse sometimes.
So I wrote basically a piece of hate mail to this voice inside that is always bringing me down. I just let it ALL out. I wrote things like "How dare you rob me of my God given right to happiness?!" And "You have no right to say the things to me that you do. You are a bully!" Etc. There was a lot of CAPS and "!!!" involved... Then I read it, took a match, burned it, and flushed it down the toilet. I immediately felt hugely relieved! I didn't realize how much anger and resentment I had for this person, who really is just a part of me. But getting it all out took a lot of weight off my shoulders. I also plan on writing to that same critical voice again, this time sending it a love letter.
The next day I took myself to Sephora and the beauty expert there helped me find a really great concealer and foundation. She spent a long time finding the perfect makeup for me and we got to talking about acne. Her skin actually looked a lot like mine and we got into this deep conversation about all things acne related. It was honestly fantastic to meet someone who genuinely understood exactly what I was going through and to finally just have an open conversation about it.
And, the makeup is great! It doesn't seem to clog my pores, and it covers really well. I'm not flawless or anything, but it's the best I've looked in months! I feel more self confident and actually take pride in dressing up again. It's something I realize that I had sort of given up, but taking back my feminine beauty through great makeup has been really significant for me.
Anyway, I'm longwinded as usual, but I really wanted to share that story. Don't forget to treat yourself to beautiful things and go ahead and get dressed up! You don't have to wait until your skin is perfect.
Sending lots of support your way!
Hi Sierra Ive not been feeling very great the past couple days. My skin just seems really really irritated with something, I used a facemask a couple days ago and I awoke to a worsening of my acne, a bad worsening. But I never usually have this reaction. My skin is just not at all great atm and it is very hard to keep a brave face you know.
My forehead especially is extremely congested and it seems I have clogged pores on every pore if you know what I mean? I just wonder if it is the Spiro. Sadly, and I hate to say this but, I had my first few doubts in my mind about it working. Im trying not to think like this but it is very very hard.
Im soooooooo happy to hear you are feeling better about yourself and have even foung a good foundation to match your skin type. It must feel amazing to walk about without the thought of someone making an eye at the acne marks and things. I never wear make-up only mascara so mines is ALWAYS on show, but I just don't like the idea of wearing make-up and there is always that fear I have about it maybe making it worse.
I think I'm also gonna write a little note to that evil part of me too thankyou for sharing that Sierra.
Hope you are keeping well x
Hmmm thats interesting to me because your skin trouble began more after you started your period. Hormones are so complex. I guess even that slight elevation of testosterone when you're menstruating can brew trouble down to the skin level.
From what I read, exercising, even with weights, shouldn't increase your testosterone really! The only circumstances would be like if you were a professional athlete, and even then, probably not that much, or a weightlifter. If anything exercise helps hormones by putting insulin/blood sugar to use, revving your metabolism, etc. so maybe even if you had continued to exercise you would have started menstruating anyway, it's just that you had the injury and it seemed to happen as a result. The whole time I exercised I had a regular period, when I stopped bcp, and became inactive, it stopped. Did your doctor have a theory on why your period came so late?
My regimen: Morning, wash with water or black soap. Sometimes i'm not quite ready for the black soap in the morning so I wait till the afternoon. It's kind of intense! Either way I wash with it twice a day, and on my back too, where there's some acne (fun!). I also use salycilic acid pads once or twice a day on my face (2%) depending if I feel my skin is too irritated or not. the black soap has a very slight burn to it, but not scary like from a chemical. its made from burnt leaves so i guess its just burning plants. I use a little shae butter sometimes because that was recommended with the black soap, it's pretty greasy but I don't think it exacerbates acne at all. mostly around my eyes.
Ah so you've done no dairy before? I'm still doing it, its not quite as hard as I expected. Eating less fruit and chocolate is harder than no dairy. oh and your skin might be gurgling from the probiotics in yogurt if its not doing it from other dairy. which, if from the probiotics is a good or at least harmless thing . unless it hurts bad.
ps-never done spiro. the gynocologist was adamant i try bcps before anything else. seems spiro is kind of just "extra" bcps. even some birth control has higher hormones than spiro from what I thought I saw on wiki
Hey-- agh im sorry for the shitty day...I know the feeling...esp when you have a few shit days in a row, not cool. the red marks and bumps are very surface level so look like they will not leave marks. just keep positive and try to keep anything harsh away from them since they are still in the healing phase. what antidepressant are you on? Because that can really be a big factor in this. I actually just went back on a low dose of one I was on previously, prozac. I was not enamored with the decision cuz i'd rather be on nothing, but after 10 months being off of it I had to be honest that I was not doing well with anxiety and depression. But if you find a good one for you, at the right dose, it can help a lot, esp with things like sleep. if you want to talk about that at all, i'm kind of like a non-expert expert, a lot of ppl in my family have been on them.
"Isn't Spiro ment to help regulate hormones? Or is that if you take it alongside a BCP?" it seems spiro should do some regulating of hormones...i just read about it on wiki and along with anti androgene properties, it has weak progesterone and indirect estrogen effects. sucks that its taking this long tho. r u not wanting to do bc again?
I really think black soap might help you. I know you've probably heard of like 1000 things that "might help you" but yeah, it really takes control of those pores and dries them up. theres a great link of a thread on here i should post.http://www.acne.org/...ack-soap-works/
im gonna post some recipes of good things to eat when you're craving sugar cuz i have a lot of time on my hands right now..
one cup coconut milk/flax milk/soy milk (I use unsweetened cuz you don't need as much sugar with banana)
one yellow banana or 1/2 banana
1/2 cup raspberries
three tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder
one or two tablespoons soy creamer or coconut cream (can get in can from grocery store)..this makes it creamier
one or two teaspoons chia seeds or finely chopped nuts to put on top for crunch
...i make that smoothie a lot and the cocoa powder provides a little caffeine. theres lots of variations of it you can make too
mashed yellow banana
earth balance (soy butter)
blend the egg and mashed banana together. cook like a normal pancake in some earth balance. when finished put more earth balance and nuts on top.
Sigh..hope everyone is having a good day.
Hey Kelseylee hope you are well today. Thankyou for the smoothie recipe and the pancake recipe! I have never made a pancake with a banana before. I have done the no dairy before but I am going to start it again, I think it could maybe help although it never helped too much when I first did it and noticed that when I encorporated milk back in it never made any difference for better or for worse.
I will have a look at that black soap link, funnily enough I bought a Black Soap from boots, it is called "Dead Sea black mud Soap" Im thinking of trying it on my body first, I am pretty anxioud about putting creams and soaps and things on my face you know?
You are right too, hormones are extremely complex AND very pernickity - it seems to be hard to grasp them sometimes. When my period stopped I was recovering from anorexia, and my doctor actually told me that that was what probably caused the amenhorrea (absence of period). So would you say the BCP's helped your skin then?