Hey Sierra how have you been doing? I completely and utterly agree that we are ALL unique, so so unique infact. I know people in the world - normal people lol - try and be nice and supportive and think giving advice is needed, but it is hard to explain to a non acne sufferer about how diet, hormones, stress etc can ALSO contribute to this isn't it? I just need to bite my tongue and not say a word. My real friends are the ones who support what Im doing and wish the best for me and don't try to tell my what to do.
I totally agree with you to stick to a cleansing regime - Ive been doing what Im doing literally for about a month and a bit now. I just wash my face late afternoon (once a day) and let it dry for an hour and apply tea tree oil or apple cider vinegar if it is dry. I haven't used a topical in about 2 months, I gave them up and relaised ..well thought my acne would heal itself without it once I fix inside my body and when it is balanced, however I am considering a good exfoliating regime, so Im still looking into that. I also take supplements (3000iu vit D - I have slowly upped to this - 24mg Zinc, and cod liver oil every other day) I was looking into L-carnite or something? Apparantly it is meant to be good for healing your digestive system.
Did you find you got an IB on the HQRA? The only retinoid I have tried is Differin, but even by taking a pea sized amount it burned my face over time, and I had these burns on my skin for a good few weeks...that's when I decided to stop ALL topicals and just focus on tea tree oil. Good to hear you were having an okay skin day the other day. I am today! Woo. Hope your night out went well.
I have been reading your blog from the beginning Sierra and I must say it is amazing. I try to read a bit when I get time, Ive managed to read all posts of the Dec 2012. You are actually a little like me, I like to call myself a hippie and love the holistic approach to life. I have never read "the power of now" but it sounds like something I'd be interested in. I like the idea of being in the present moment, it is ahrd to do though with all the mind chatter that runs through your head, do you ever meditate?
There is a book that I read on and off and it is called "Your life was never meant to be a struggle" by Roy E Klienwachter, I think you would like it, he is very interested in the idea that we are here in this life to learn things and we chose our parents accordingly before birth to make sure we live our lfie purpose through the life lessons that they teach us. This book also refers to "manifesting" - a subject I love dearly - and how when we focus positively and BELIEVE and KNOW that we will have something, we will.
I know it is very hard to be un-perfect so-to-speak but sometimes we need to show the world our vulnrability and rely on others for a time to make us feel better. We can't always have a braze face and expect everything to go as plan, life isn't like that, its forever changing, it likes to keep us on our toes! I like to say "Happiness is fleeting" - I totally believe this, we need to change this though and attempt to stay happier for longer and if this means opening up to someone who we trust and effectively understands, they can keep encouraging us to 'keep on keeping on'. Then hopefully we will feel so relieved and even happy to have opened up in the first place some people in the world like to know things, and maybe by telling people our own stories they can then be inspired to share their own and maybe even help others out. Im glad your sisteris supporting you really, so happy you spoke to her about your PCOS.
Hi Stacey! It's really great hearing about your natural approach. I've been taking zinc with digestive enzymes and rose hip oil. I have heard about L-Carnitine on this site actually. I don't know much about it...
I don't know if I got an initial breakout on HQRA...I started it around the time that I started spiro and I was getting my initial breakout from spiro. If HQRA did cause an IB, it didn't last long. Every time I use it my skin improves. It's little by little, but it's noticeable.
What I did get when I started HQRA was incredibly red, dry itchy skin. I started it when my skin was already super dry from self-treatments of benzoyl peroxide. I should have let my skin heal first before I tried the HQRA. But that has been resolved pretty easily. I laid off all topicals for a few days and poured on the moisturizer. Then I started HQRA again, but every other night instead of every night. Now I am up to two nights in a row with one night of just moisturizer. My skin is still a bit red and dry, but nothing terrible.
Sorry to hear about your experience with Differin. It is different from HQRA, so maybe you would have more luck?
Thank you for reading my blog!! I thought only the spammers hung out there I actually got The Power of Now as an audiobook. I throw it on in the car and it reminds me to relax and consider life in a new way. I used to meditate every day and then I just sort of petered off. Now it's once a week or whenever I'm super uptight. I do meditative yoga which I prefer best. It is definitely hard to stop the chatter... One of the basic principles in The Power of Now is just to observe the chatter. Don't let it define you because your mind isn't you. It's been programmed with the same chatter (often negative for us who are struggling with acne). Just listening to my own thoughts has been a real awakening.
I will definitely check out the book you recommended! I'm kind of a self help junkie
I really appreciate all your kind words and support and especially liked hearing you were having a good skin day!! Hoooray!!
Day 9 of 25mg
Ive felt a little discouraged today. I hate how days can be so juxtaposed...one day your amazing, the next your low.
Thankfully Im not experiencing major side effects Im just hating on my skin today, I kinda caught my face in a small mirror at college (BAD lighting, you know that bright florescent one - doesn't help that the walls and everything else is white.) and I noticed that there are actually so many bumps all over my forehead, like skin coloured but all frigging over. It just looks so disgusting to me and I hate knowing that its on my face like that.
I also went to the bathroom at college, and just about as I was leaving three girls walked in, they were from a Beauty therapy class so they had all their hair and make-up done perrrrfectly. And there was me. Infront of them trying to get past. I heard them giggling alot after I walked away...I KNOW they may probably not have been giggling at my skin or whatever but it just seemed to heighten my total HATE for my skin today. Acht.
I used a clay mask again today, I mix Bentonite Clay with apple cider vinegar, I do actually like it and probably only use it once/twice a week max. I like feeling it pulsating and imagining it cleaning my skin. Im actually considering getting some sort of facial or something, maybe to try and extract all these bumps or something, I dunno, I shall look into it!
And another thing I wanted to mention I noticed on my Spiro the brand name is Actavist, I am guessing that this is a generic brand? I hope it doesn't mean it is less effective than Aldactone.
Just sending a quick digi-hug to you. I totally hear you about the ups and downs. One day I feel great and the next is a disaster. I don't really have advice except to tell you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and always keep that in mind.
I know your skin is going to clear and you are doing everything right. Hang in there!