This is the current state of my skin:
It's kind of super up-close and I tried to turn on my lamp so I could get better pictures...so I apologise for the orangey-ness.
My main acne spots are my cheeks. I have clear skin on my "T-zone" for the most part...except for some blackheads on my nose sometimes, but compared to my cheeks I hardly even notice it. I have a LOT of acne scarring - sad to say this is actually a lot better than what my acne used to be like a few years ago. I've tried a bunch of different topical treatments and nothing has really worked all that well for me. I've been using BP for years now with different cleansers and I find that it keeps my acne under control, but definitely doesn't clear anything up. I occasionally use the mud masks from Borghese which I find help to clear some acne spots.
I have had acne for about 10 years (I'm 22 now) and I have never taken any sort of drug treatment for acne. My mom never let me go see the doctor until I was about 16 but then my mom stopped bringing me because she said that the prescribed topical stuff was too expensive and not worth it . Since then I haven't really been able to find any products that work for me. I'm too afraid to go outside without any makeup on now, which I know is awful for my skin, but I have become so dependent on concealer that I will get panic attacks if I'm not wearing at least a little in public. I want to try to go to the dermatologist but i'm not sure how to get to their office with a naked face......I know it's pathetic.
I just finished week 3 of the Regimen and I've been trying to follow the instructions as much as possible. I do tend to pick a lot but I've really kept my hands occupied at all times to make sure they don't just end up on my face again. I feel like I'm in the phase of "getting worse before it gets better" because halfway through week 2 I started breaking out a lot thus all the angry red marks on my cheek.
But I don't know if I should hope that it will actually get better? Or is this "hormonal acne" which I'm not sure how to identify. Also, despite having acne for so long I don't know if this is cystic acne? I just miss having clear skin!