I know these type of posts are not in short supply, but I feel like if I put it out here to the world, it will really help me to not pick.
I've had acne troubles only on my chin since I was 16-17, and I'm now 23. The short version is that I am so insanely close to having clear skin. Through some big diet changes and going all natural on the topical front, I rarely get big, under the skin spots that hang around for a long time anymore. My only real issues are small whiteheads as my closed comedones purge themselves and hyperpigmentation/red marks left behind which I'm fine with. If my skin is flat but still a little red, it doesn't bother me.
I still have the fear that those big, stubborn pimples will start to pop back up, which is probably why I always scrutinize my face so hard. Those are the ones that really make me feel powerless.
For a week and a half I've had a soft lump under my skin on my left chin area, but it wasn't visible on the surface. I'd done a great job just leaving it alone and hoping to let it run its course. Then, for no real reason, yesterday evening I just attacked my face in the mirror. A few tiny whiteheads I'd been trying to leave alone and that under the skin bump. I got some gunk out of it for sure, but today I'm left with a nasty, bright red spot where yesterday there was clear, normal skin (on the surface at least). I was so pissed at myself and worried it might cause my spots to pop up around it. Let's hope not, but we'll see.
Anyhow, I have several big events coming up, one in two weeks, and then a wedding at the end of March. I'm also moving in with my boyfriend in March. I really think that I'm at the point where my skin would be 95% clear if I could just stop messing with it. My goal is to stop picking/scratching/prodding/etc to work towards having clear skin for my upcoming events so that I can enjoy them and stop worrying about my skin.
Wish me luck!
Edited by Vada, 03 February 2013 - 09:49 AM.