I haven't posted here in a while. My skin was almost 100% clear for years until I went off birth control. A few months being off Nuvaring and my skin EXPLODED. The most severe acne I've ever had or ever SEEN. I woke up with several new HUGE, excruciatingly painful pimples every morning, and it just kept getting worse and worse and worse. It was awful and I was the most depressed I've ever been. During that time I tried EVERYTHING short of Accutane, and nothing worked. I was on Accutane as a teenager and I refuse to go on it again. Anyway, long story long, I went back on birth control a few months ago. Almost immediately, really within days, my skin started improving. It's still not great, but it's mostly old pimples and scars now, and much easier covered with makeup. There is no more swelling or pain and I rarely wake up with a new pimple. I feel significantly better about myself and I'm confident that I'll be able to get my skin back to "normal" on the pill, and perhaps with the help of a peel or scar treatment. It's getting better every day and I'm really thankful for that.
But I'm really terribly disappointed that I had to go back on birth control. I think it's possible that my problem might be that I've been on birth control for so long (11 years now) that my body doesn't know how to regulate itself and that's why my skin was so bad when I stopped regulating it with the hormones I was taking. I talked to someone recently who said she went of birth control after being on it for more than a decade and that it took TWO YEARS for her body to get back to normal. I couldn't have given it two years at this point in my life. But I'm still just so upset that this was the only solution. There are so many terrible side effects of birth control, both short term (like mood swings and migraines for me) and long term (like increased cancer risk) and I feel terrible that my body can't function properly without it. It makes me feel unhealthy. I feel like a failure for not being able to fix my skin in a natural and healthy way, though not for lack of trying. I also can't be on birth control forever. In addition to the risks, I probably want to have children someday. Even without that, what am I going to do, be on birth control until I reach menopause, and then have to be on some other kind of hormone controlling substance after that since my body still won't be able to function on its own? My only hope is that someday when I have health insurance again I can go to a doctor or doctors who can help me get my body back to normal and wean off the hormones somehow, without such a drastic reaction in my skin. Who knows if that's even possible though. I don't know if I'm making any sense. Basically, I don't want to be on birth control but have no other choice right now, and am disappointed about that and constantly worried about what's going to happen when I inevitably have to go off it again. I guess I'm not really even asking for advice, but if anyone understands how I feel I'd appreciate the support.
Edited by mammasay, 25 January 2013 - 12:31 PM.