Alright so my name's Joaquin, Senior in high school, and I'm 17 years of age. I have suffered from acne ever since I was 11 years old. It's always been a struggle of mine for years. Especially during all the times in attending school. By Junior year of high school I started seeing a dermatologist for a while and he would give me pills/medications to take for my acne, but It just wouldn't do it, until I went on a light cycle of Accutane for about 5 months. I still was getting breakouts so I had to go on another cycle for 6 months, but this time I was taking much stronger doses, 100mg per day. By the time I got done I was mainly clear of acne/zits, but I was still was left with scarring.
I finished my cycle sometime between June and July of last year. So it's been about 6 months since I've been off Acctuane. By now my face is a lot better than from what it used to be, but I still get breakouts, blackheads, whiteheads, scarring, and my nose seems to have large pores. I've been washing my face with a Cetaphil Gentle Cleanser for a while now, morning and night, and applying Proactive Oil-Free Moisturizer after every time I wash my face. It's been going alright so far, but the only thing is that I still have scarring, darkspots, small breakouts on my cheeks/neck and it's something that really frustrates me because even though my skin is better than it was before, it's still not what I would want it to look like, and it makes me feel really bad sometimes because I just wish I could have been born with perfect skin, instead of having to deal with these emotional and psychological effects because my face isn't what I want it to look like....
It also has been a problem too with me trying to find a girl friend. For instance, some girls may find me cute or attractive but yet I still don't find myself too attractive when I really look into the mirror and see all my scars and small zits. My self confidence goes from high to low occasionally. Most of the time I may feel very confident in the way I look, but other times, like today, I look into a mirror, and think to myself, "how could anyone think I'm cute or date me with a face with all these flaws?", and it makes me feel very bad. I want to know what I should do, or what do you guys think of my skin? I was planning on seeing a dermatologist again to see if I should look into another cycle of Accutane, would that help my scarring any further?, or should I consider some type of surgery? Please comment on what you think. I would gladly appreciate it. Below I have attached recent pictures of me, no filters, just me in the light showing all the flaws I truly have. P.S. I have a scar on my nose which I hate, and which has been there for years now:( and I have dark spots all around my neck area/jaw line. Plese comment if you would want more pictures.






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