Thanks guys! I do know that I look a lot better and I feel a lot better than at any time since this all started. There are only 2 real bad bumps at the moment and they are ones that have given me a rough time since the start. All the others are starting to heal, are much smaller than before, or if they are new, they are not as cystic. I think its just gonna have to take some time for some of the old ones to completely go down since they were so massive before. Only 1 is really noticeably bad with makeup on, another is somewhat noticeable and the others are not as bad unless out in direct sunlight, lol. Getting very dry all around the areas that have acne and the drier I get, the flatter they seem to get in that area, though very, very slowly. This medicine definitely requires patience and its more of a tortoise than a hare, haha!
Ugggh, I agree that looking at old pics help since the current result is not what our overall goal is. Keep your head up about the scarring, I see where I think I do have some scarring on my face (texture changes/indents) but it is minor in my eyes compared to the acne that was there before and my derm told me that some people do see the scars go away in time still. She said she's been very surprised by some really bad cases in the past and that there are options (laser) in 6 months if there is significant scarring (though it costs more since insurance doesn't cover it). The raised spots of mine still drain occasionally and are semi-active (used to drain daily now its like once every 3-4 weeks and they are smaller so less stuff, gross, I know). My face is still not at an acceptable state for me either, and I could never go out without makeup and concealer all over my face and feel comfortable, but if it all just gets flat soon I will be very happy. I know the red spots are going to take me forever cause even when I had mild acne they did, months...
Sasch, thanks for the encouragement as usual! At first I didn't want to believe it would take me several months to clear but you were definitely right! Its good to be gradually seeing improvement though and keeps me positive! I'm slowly getting my confidence back and doing more outside the house without worrying about it. I know you said you were on accutane more than once, was your acne ever cystic? Did it clear each time you took it and if so, when it came back was it less or more severe than before? How long did it take you to clear the last time you took it? Sorry for so many questions, I'm just ever curious about this whole skin thing and what to expect and what I can do to help it along.
Good luck to you both and also to add an update to my log, my cholesterol was a little high and my HDL was a little low last visit, but I haven't been eating very healthy lately. Going to add some coconut oil to my diet and see if that makes a difference!