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#1 michi31

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Posted 23 November 2012 - 07:47 PM

So I'm 31 years old and have a four month old daughter. I've had acne around my chin for years and started noticing skin changes (bumpiness, loss of collagen) a couple years ago. Then when I got pregnant I had my first bout of cystic acne and ended up with rolling scars on one side of my chin. Anyway, I've been so devastated each and every day for at least the past six months since it hit me that I have acne scarring. As bad as I felt when my acne was bad, this is the worst. One of the worst things for me is thinking about how my daughter will feel about me when she is older. I think of what her friends will say. I think how will it be possible for me to be an active and positive person in her life when all I do is think about my skin and worry about what lighting I'm in. I think of how scars get worse as you age. I am going to seek out treatment, but I understand what a challenge it is. I cry most days. My husband has no idea how much this has impacted me - every moment of every day. So I guess I'm wondering if anyone is in the same boat, or has experience going through this with kids. As much as I love her, sometimes I feel that it was a mistake to get pregnant - not just because it caused scarring, but because I don't know how I can be the best mom I can be living like this and it's not fair to her.

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Posted 23 November 2012 - 08:37 PM

I do not have children, but I am 31. Being an adult sufferer carries with it such an incredibly hard stigma. Acne is seen as a young person's problem, and so to be an adult with it - everyone wants to blame you. It's awful. Reading your story.....I really wish I could run up to you and give you a big hug. A really great, big hug.

I'm so sorry that you are going through this, especially with the fear and worry of how your daughter is going to feel about you. Something that affects our own self-esteem this severely will make us fear that we won't be able to set a positive example for our loved ones, and that's terrifying. It's also perfectly human and I want to tell you that the fear does not make you a bad person. It doesn't make you a bad mom. It doesn't mean you shouldn't have had your daughter.

It makes you a person who is connected with who she is, what scares her, and who has the honesty and bravery to recognize that. That's so important. You are in the right place. You are among friends.

Please, please, please keep talking. We are listening.
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Posted 23 November 2012 - 08:57 PM

I am 37 and have a seven year old and honestly, even though he see my skin problems and see the various products and things I go through with my skin to try to fix my scars, he still says I am beautiful and I think he really believes it! Posted Image Part of it is probably flattery to get what he wants, but he tells me it so much that it really makes me smile sometimes. I think you will get to a better point eventually with your scars, maybe you are grieving now for the fact that these are fairly new, but it won't be like this forever, you will get a point I'm sure where you will feel better and be a great mom. Just hang in there!

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Posted 24 November 2012 - 02:10 PM

Hi guys. I just turned 30 this year and I II don't have kids but I know what you mean about being older and suffering with acne. Everyone expects teens to suffer with it. But I never had acne as a teen! I had a lot of other terrible skin problems due to my food intolerances and autoimmune issues (hives, psoriasis etc) but began to develop acne as an adult, probably because I further destroyed my gut with alcohol, drugs and other things. I'm on the gut-healing regimen now and it seems to he helping, but that's another topic.

I suffer really badly with body dysmorphic issues and severe anxiety relating to my acne, and honestly my age does play a role. On the one hand I am pretty lucky because people always say I look young. But when people do know that I'm in my thirties I become extremely humiliated due to my skin. I wonder what people think of me. I feel like they probably think that no thirty year old should have acne as bad as mine so there must be something disgusting about me, like I never wash my face or I live in bad hygeine conditions. No one really says anything to me about it because they are polite, but I have all sorts of anxiety surrounding how terrible I look. Especially when I go to work, because I'm a maid and I clean houses and that often means bathrooms--and mirrors. Cleaning mirrors the most dreaded part of my job. I've had more than a few panic attacks while hidden inside a client's bathroom, praying that they won't come in and see me crying and hyperventilating. Ugh it just sucks.,

Sorry, I didn't mean to ramble on about my problems. But I wanted to say that growing up, my mother had similar anxiety and self-loathing over how she looked and the funny thing is, she didn't have any skin problems. She just thought she was ugly. I remember being a tiny child and listening to her talk about how ugly she was. I'm sure that affected me as a woman, having that around me early on. So I encourage you to begin a healing path NOW so that your child can grow up around a woman who loves herself and is a strong role model. Your daughter is still a baby and you have time to begin working on these issues and leaning to love yourself.

You can work on improving your skin at the same time of course, but be careful not to become obsessed. I've spent years being completely obsessed with healing my skin, down to the point of controlling every single aspect of my diet and lifestyle and skin care regimen. I've only recently begun to see how badly I've neglected my heart and mind. If we don't love ourselves first, our skin will never heal.

Good luck and congratulations on becoming a mom.

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Posted 26 November 2012 - 12:52 PM

Thank you for the responses. It helps to have people relate and listen.

Tricia - it's so good to hear that your son doesn't care. I think in some ways we just accept our parents as they are, and I hope she just accepts me for how I am. It gave me a little relief to read your response.

Dejaclairevoyant - I was wondering about the gut relationship too. I would like to embark on a special diet of some sort, but it's soo variable and may not be the cause at all so I don't know what to do. My current acne isn't that active , but when I do get small bumps it's still in that area and I can't get scar treatment until it's resolved. You make a good point about your mom influencing you in that way. I will try hard not to let this negatively impact her. I know what you mean about mirrors - I definitely avoid them unless I know they are in good lighting conditions.

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Posted 26 November 2012 - 02:44 PM

daughter here. :D my mom says she used to have horrible acne and that it was way worse than mine, but she went to the derm and followed their instructions exactly and it took about 3 years to clear up by the time she was around 21 or 22. I think (crossing fingers) my acnes run its course, my skins been pretty clear the last couple weeks (im 18 btw). Dont worry so much about what your daughter will think of you, of course it probably depends on her personality too. I personally dont really care, my moms still my mom, and its not like she could control that. Also i look at acne as kind of a character building experience haha. Ive seen a few posts on here where people were venting about how much they hated their mom or dad for "giving" them acne and said some pretty nasty things, but if your kid says things like that, at that point i would be more worried about how your kid has turned out more than them hating you for some zits. SO, my point is, think more about how youre going to raise your daughter and how you want her to be instead of worrying about whether shes going to hate you because of some superficial physical flaw that inspires narcissism. Good luck with your baby! Babies are so adorableeee ^_^

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Posted 26 November 2012 - 03:43 PM

Thanks Vanity! Congrats on your baby as well. I know they are so cute, I can hardly stand it:) Makes me want more, but with this issue I don't know that I will. I wish my problem was just active acne, but it's more the scarring that gets me down. Hopefully with time and the right treatments, it will be tolerable.

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Posted 27 November 2012 - 11:17 AM

michi, hi there. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time with this. Adult acne most certainly sucks!

I'm 35 with a 17 year old daughter. When The Evil Spawn was 8 she drew a picture of mommy. Mommy had spots all over her face. Ahh...bless the innocence of her young mind. :lol: Fast forward to the teenage years. I ended up having to resort to Accutane at 32. I also have bumpiness and rolling scars on my chin.

Know what? I'm a great mom. My kid could care less what I look like. Remember what it was like being a teenager? Were you focused on your mom's appearance or worried about your own? Your daughter is going to be self focused 'cause that's the way teenagers are.

Your daughter is going to love you unconditionally as long as you're a loving parent towards her. You're her mom! C'mon now! :)

As much as I love her, sometimes I feel that it was a mistake to get pregnant - not just because it caused scarring, but because I don't know how I can be the best mom I can be living like this and it's not fair to her.


Aside from the scarring, have you told your doctor this sentiment? It's worrysome. Perhaps you may be suffering from a bit of post partum depression. It may be possible and it's common. Please remind yourself that your scars do not hinder your ability to be a kick ass mom. *hug* Best of luck with the treatments you seek.

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Posted 27 November 2012 - 07:35 PM

Siava - Thanks for your comments. It really does make me feel better to hear of other moms whose acne/scarring hasn't impacted their relationships. Yeah, that comment about thinking I shouldn't have had her is pretty dramatic. I guess it does cross my mind though when I'm having my worst moments, which I was when I wrote that post. I don't think I have post-partum because I started having all this anxiety before I gave birth when I started noticing the scarring. Actually, I find taking care of my baby easier than I expected and I do enjoy it. It just sucks that this is robbing me of this happy time. I have my good days and my bad days, but when I think of the future it usually becomes a bad day because they say scarring only gets worse as you age. And because I always feel uncomfortable and self-conscious now, picturing myself around her and her friends at birthday parties, field trips...whatever, for the rest of my life, is very depressing. My husband has been really supportive and sweet and says he doesn't notice, but will support me in whatever treatments I want to pursue. I'm really lucky for that.

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Posted 27 November 2012 - 09:06 PM

I am 22 and a mother of a 8 month old and I know exactly how you feel it's like my acne has consumed my life and all I do is worry about it and get depressed and cry and I don't want my daughter to look up to someone who is insecure I want her to be proud of me someday! I hate that I don't ever want to go anywhere or do anything because of my acne :/ I want to meet new moms and new people do new things have my daughter make new friends and it's like I don't want to do any of that cause I'm so self concious and feel so ugly
Id just rather sit at home and feel sorry for myself but with a baby I don't want to do that to her I want us to go out and do things but I want to feel good about myself while doing them and I don't :/ so I know how you feel just be thankful you don't have it all over like me :/ keep your head up and stay strong momma your baby needs ya!

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Posted 27 November 2012 - 09:35 PM

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.

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Posted 28 November 2012 - 08:40 AM

Hey Keribee - I understand and worry about the same thing. I want to show my daughter everything and enjoy doing so many different things with her. There's so much fun to be had and so much to share. I hate to think that this will prevent me from doing that. I think we just have to push through for their sakes, and try to the extent we can to enjoy it. You are 22 and still have young skin. My acne was at its worst when I was your age. If I could go back in time I would have gone on Accutane. Because even though my acne let up in my late 20s I think most of the damage was done back then. Now I am seeing what seems like loss of fat and collagen in the chin area. I think it is like sun damage and shows up later as you age. Anyway I don't say this to scare you but only to say that if you haven't tried everything, I would go ahead and do it, because you don't want to be like me and live with regret every day. Even if it doesn't work at least you won't live with that regret. You sound like you are a great mom!

I am 22 and a mother of a 8 month old and I know exactly how you feel it's like my acne has consumed my life and all I do is worry about it and get depressed and cry and I don't want my daughter to look up to someone who is insecure I want her to be proud of me someday! I hate that I don't ever want to go anywhere or do anything because of my acne :/ I want to meet new moms and new people do new things have my daughter make new friends and it's like I don't want to do any of that cause I'm so self concious and feel so ugly
Id just rather sit at home and feel sorry for myself but with a baby I don't want to do that to her I want us to go out and do things but I want to feel good about myself while doing them and I don't :/ so I know how you feel just be thankful you don't have it all over like me :/ keep your head up and stay strong momma your baby needs ya!


Hey Tricia - I'm like you and still only get the occasional spot, which continues to freak me out. When will it stop for good? It is more the scarring also, it's a whole new level of freak out than acne alone. I think I saw that you tried saline injections. I'm going to give subcision a try for the rolling scars, and as for the bumpiness that's appearing with loss of collagen, I really don't know. I'm terrified of lasers. I am thinking maybe sculptra or something like that to give the whole area a boost. Anyway, it's so great to hear about the impact your son has had on your life. He sounds like a great kid. Does he ever point out your skin? I will say my daughter has been a positive distraction, and she's brought so much joy to my life and my family's life. Everyone is so excited about all the things we will do with her and I just want to join in on that excitement, but I'm so scared that by the time she is older I will be totally disfigured looking. It makes it hard to look forward to anything anymore. Do you think you will have more children? I would love a second, but I think the chances of that are getting slimmer and slimmer.

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.


Edited by michi31, 28 November 2012 - 08:41 AM.


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Posted 28 November 2012 - 09:26 AM

Hey Keribee - I understand and worry about the same thing. I want to show my daughter everything and enjoy doing so many different things with her. There's so much fun to be had and so much to share. I hate to think that this will prevent me from doing that. I think we just have to push through for their sakes, and try to the extent we can to enjoy it. You are 22 and still have young skin. My acne was at its worst when I was your age. If I could go back in time I would have gone on Accutane. Because even though my acne let up in my late 20s I think most of the damage was done back then. Now I am seeing what seems like loss of fat and collagen in the chin area. I think it is like sun damage and shows up later as you age. Anyway I don't say this to scare you but only to say that if you haven't tried everything, I would go ahead and do it, because you don't want to be like me and live with regret every day. Even if it doesn't work at least you won't live with that regret. You sound like you are a great mom!


I am 22 and a mother of a 8 month old and I know exactly how you feel it's like my acne has consumed my life and all I do is worry about it and get depressed and cry and I don't want my daughter to look up to someone who is insecure I want her to be proud of me someday! I hate that I don't ever want to go anywhere or do anything because of my acne :/ I want to meet new moms and new people do new things have my daughter make new friends and it's like I don't want to do any of that cause I'm so self concious and feel so ugly
Id just rather sit at home and feel sorry for myself but with a baby I don't want to do that to her I want us to go out and do things but I want to feel good about myself while doing them and I don't :/ so I know how you feel just be thankful you don't have it all over like me :/ keep your head up and stay strong momma your baby needs ya!


Hey Tricia - I'm like you and still only get the occasional spot, which continues to freak me out. When will it stop for good? It is more the scarring also, it's a whole new level of freak out than acne alone. I think I saw that you tried saline injections. I'm going to give subcision a try for the rolling scars, and as for the bumpiness that's appearing with loss of collagen, I really don't know. I'm terrified of lasers. I am thinking maybe sculptra or something like that to give the whole area a boost. Anyway, it's so great to hear about the impact your son has had on your life. He sounds like a great kid. Does he ever point out your skin? I will say my daughter has been a positive distraction, and she's brought so much joy to my life and my family's life. Everyone is so excited about all the things we will do with her and I just want to join in on that excitement, but I'm so scared that by the time she is older I will be totally disfigured looking. It makes it hard to look forward to anything anymore. Do you think you will have more children? I would love a second, but I think the chances of that are getting slimmer and slimmer.

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.



Hey, I think saline injections and sculptra sound like a good route for you. Sculptra is really expensive though and the results may not last too long or work at all, but that is the gamble you take. I actually tried silicone micro droplet after the saline and it didn't give me the results I wanted, but maybe I needed more. However, not really wanting to do it because of the risks. Also don't want laser because of the risks. If I had the money now I would go for laviv by fibrocell or maybe recell by Avita when it is approved next year in the US. You can search those two if you haven't read up on them. I understand about your anxieties about the future, but you just never now what treatments could bring you results and the future could be so much better than now. I probably won't have more kids due to a lot of things besides my skin, but you never know.

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Posted 28 November 2012 - 09:42 AM

Yeah that's what I'm worried about with Sculptra, but a lot of what I'm seeing won't respond to a traditional filler so I don't know. Recell would be done in conjuction with laser, no? I had a consultation with Dr. Rapaport and asked about Laviv and he said it wasn't a "starting point" because it's expensive and unpredictable, but isn't everything? I'd rather pay for the Laviv upfront then do 3 subcisions and then pay for Laviv anyway. Yeah I think with silicone it seems you may need many rounds before you see a difference...expensive.


Hey Keribee - I understand and worry about the same thing. I want to show my daughter everything and enjoy doing so many different things with her. There's so much fun to be had and so much to share. I hate to think that this will prevent me from doing that. I think we just have to push through for their sakes, and try to the extent we can to enjoy it. You are 22 and still have young skin. My acne was at its worst when I was your age. If I could go back in time I would have gone on Accutane. Because even though my acne let up in my late 20s I think most of the damage was done back then. Now I am seeing what seems like loss of fat and collagen in the chin area. I think it is like sun damage and shows up later as you age. Anyway I don't say this to scare you but only to say that if you haven't tried everything, I would go ahead and do it, because you don't want to be like me and live with regret every day. Even if it doesn't work at least you won't live with that regret. You sound like you are a great mom!


I am 22 and a mother of a 8 month old and I know exactly how you feel it's like my acne has consumed my life and all I do is worry about it and get depressed and cry and I don't want my daughter to look up to someone who is insecure I want her to be proud of me someday! I hate that I don't ever want to go anywhere or do anything because of my acne :/ I want to meet new moms and new people do new things have my daughter make new friends and it's like I don't want to do any of that cause I'm so self concious and feel so ugly
Id just rather sit at home and feel sorry for myself but with a baby I don't want to do that to her I want us to go out and do things but I want to feel good about myself while doing them and I don't :/ so I know how you feel just be thankful you don't have it all over like me :/ keep your head up and stay strong momma your baby needs ya!


Hey Tricia - I'm like you and still only get the occasional spot, which continues to freak me out. When will it stop for good? It is more the scarring also, it's a whole new level of freak out than acne alone. I think I saw that you tried saline injections. I'm going to give subcision a try for the rolling scars, and as for the bumpiness that's appearing with loss of collagen, I really don't know. I'm terrified of lasers. I am thinking maybe sculptra or something like that to give the whole area a boost. Anyway, it's so great to hear about the impact your son has had on your life. He sounds like a great kid. Does he ever point out your skin? I will say my daughter has been a positive distraction, and she's brought so much joy to my life and my family's life. Everyone is so excited about all the things we will do with her and I just want to join in on that excitement, but I'm so scared that by the time she is older I will be totally disfigured looking. It makes it hard to look forward to anything anymore. Do you think you will have more children? I would love a second, but I think the chances of that are getting slimmer and slimmer.

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.



Hey, I think saline injections and sculptra sound like a good route for you. Sculptra is really expensive though and the results may not last too long or work at all, but that is the gamble you take. I actually tried silicone micro droplet after the saline and it didn't give me the results I wanted, but maybe I needed more. However, not really wanting to do it because of the risks. Also don't want laser because of the risks. If I had the money now I would go for laviv by fibrocell or maybe recell by Avita when it is approved next year in the US. You can search those two if you haven't read up on them. I understand about your anxieties about the future, but you just never now what treatments could bring you results and the future could be so much better than now. I probably won't have more kids due to a lot of things besides my skin, but you never know.



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Posted 28 November 2012 - 10:42 AM

Yeah that's what I'm worried about with Sculptra, but a lot of what I'm seeing won't respond to a traditional filler so I don't know. Recell would be done in conjuction with laser, no? I had a consultation with Dr. Rapaport and asked about Laviv and he said it wasn't a "starting point" because it's expensive and unpredictable, but isn't everything? I'd rather pay for the Laviv upfront then do 3 subcisions and then pay for Laviv anyway. Yeah I think with silicone it seems you may need many rounds before you see a difference...expensive.



Hey Keribee - I understand and worry about the same thing. I want to show my daughter everything and enjoy doing so many different things with her. There's so much fun to be had and so much to share. I hate to think that this will prevent me from doing that. I think we just have to push through for their sakes, and try to the extent we can to enjoy it. You are 22 and still have young skin. My acne was at its worst when I was your age. If I could go back in time I would have gone on Accutane. Because even though my acne let up in my late 20s I think most of the damage was done back then. Now I am seeing what seems like loss of fat and collagen in the chin area. I think it is like sun damage and shows up later as you age. Anyway I don't say this to scare you but only to say that if you haven't tried everything, I would go ahead and do it, because you don't want to be like me and live with regret every day. Even if it doesn't work at least you won't live with that regret. You sound like you are a great mom!


I am 22 and a mother of a 8 month old and I know exactly how you feel it's like my acne has consumed my life and all I do is worry about it and get depressed and cry and I don't want my daughter to look up to someone who is insecure I want her to be proud of me someday! I hate that I don't ever want to go anywhere or do anything because of my acne :/ I want to meet new moms and new people do new things have my daughter make new friends and it's like I don't want to do any of that cause I'm so self concious and feel so ugly
Id just rather sit at home and feel sorry for myself but with a baby I don't want to do that to her I want us to go out and do things but I want to feel good about myself while doing them and I don't :/ so I know how you feel just be thankful you don't have it all over like me :/ keep your head up and stay strong momma your baby needs ya!


Hey Tricia - I'm like you and still only get the occasional spot, which continues to freak me out. When will it stop for good? It is more the scarring also, it's a whole new level of freak out than acne alone. I think I saw that you tried saline injections. I'm going to give subcision a try for the rolling scars, and as for the bumpiness that's appearing with loss of collagen, I really don't know. I'm terrified of lasers. I am thinking maybe sculptra or something like that to give the whole area a boost. Anyway, it's so great to hear about the impact your son has had on your life. He sounds like a great kid. Does he ever point out your skin? I will say my daughter has been a positive distraction, and she's brought so much joy to my life and my family's life. Everyone is so excited about all the things we will do with her and I just want to join in on that excitement, but I'm so scared that by the time she is older I will be totally disfigured looking. It makes it hard to look forward to anything anymore. Do you think you will have more children? I would love a second, but I think the chances of that are getting slimmer and slimmer.

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.



Hey, I think saline injections and sculptra sound like a good route for you. Sculptra is really expensive though and the results may not last too long or work at all, but that is the gamble you take. I actually tried silicone micro droplet after the saline and it didn't give me the results I wanted, but maybe I needed more. However, not really wanting to do it because of the risks. Also don't want laser because of the risks. If I had the money now I would go for laviv by fibrocell or maybe recell by Avita when it is approved next year in the US. You can search those two if you haven't read up on them. I understand about your anxieties about the future, but you just never now what treatments could bring you results and the future could be so much better than now. I probably won't have more kids due to a lot of things besides my skin, but you never know.


Actually recell can be done with dermabrasion, from what I have read it is more effective this way than with laser. Because you want the recell to really get into the dermis and it is hard to do that with a fractional laser because it is just pin point holes. However, the dermabrasion does not need to be deep and from what I have read people heal back pretty fast from it with recell with far less redness lasting shorter time. So, it sounds good, but the price may be too high for me. Also, I would want spot treatments and not all over, maybe just cheeks at most. Subcision may be a good first starting point for you like your doc said. Let me know how it goes!

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Posted 28 November 2012 - 11:31 AM

Oh that's interesting about dermabrasion. I guess the alternative would be to do a full ablative laser, like the old fashioned CO2, to avoid the pin pricks. But I like that with dermabrasion you avoid the thermal damage, and all the negative things people say about that...delayed fat loss etc. That's hopeful. I have the same issue, I would only want the chin area and I'm afraid of it looking different than the rest of the face, but maybe recell would help with that. Yes I'll let you know and let me know if you do anything else:)


Yeah that's what I'm worried about with Sculptra, but a lot of what I'm seeing won't respond to a traditional filler so I don't know. Recell would be done in conjuction with laser, no? I had a consultation with Dr. Rapaport and asked about Laviv and he said it wasn't a "starting point" because it's expensive and unpredictable, but isn't everything? I'd rather pay for the Laviv upfront then do 3 subcisions and then pay for Laviv anyway. Yeah I think with silicone it seems you may need many rounds before you see a difference...expensive.



Hey Keribee - I understand and worry about the same thing. I want to show my daughter everything and enjoy doing so many different things with her. There's so much fun to be had and so much to share. I hate to think that this will prevent me from doing that. I think we just have to push through for their sakes, and try to the extent we can to enjoy it. You are 22 and still have young skin. My acne was at its worst when I was your age. If I could go back in time I would have gone on Accutane. Because even though my acne let up in my late 20s I think most of the damage was done back then. Now I am seeing what seems like loss of fat and collagen in the chin area. I think it is like sun damage and shows up later as you age. Anyway I don't say this to scare you but only to say that if you haven't tried everything, I would go ahead and do it, because you don't want to be like me and live with regret every day. Even if it doesn't work at least you won't live with that regret. You sound like you are a great mom!


I am 22 and a mother of a 8 month old and I know exactly how you feel it's like my acne has consumed my life and all I do is worry about it and get depressed and cry and I don't want my daughter to look up to someone who is insecure I want her to be proud of me someday! I hate that I don't ever want to go anywhere or do anything because of my acne :/ I want to meet new moms and new people do new things have my daughter make new friends and it's like I don't want to do any of that cause I'm so self concious and feel so ugly
Id just rather sit at home and feel sorry for myself but with a baby I don't want to do that to her I want us to go out and do things but I want to feel good about myself while doing them and I don't :/ so I know how you feel just be thankful you don't have it all over like me :/ keep your head up and stay strong momma your baby needs ya!


Hey Tricia - I'm like you and still only get the occasional spot, which continues to freak me out. When will it stop for good? It is more the scarring also, it's a whole new level of freak out than acne alone. I think I saw that you tried saline injections. I'm going to give subcision a try for the rolling scars, and as for the bumpiness that's appearing with loss of collagen, I really don't know. I'm terrified of lasers. I am thinking maybe sculptra or something like that to give the whole area a boost. Anyway, it's so great to hear about the impact your son has had on your life. He sounds like a great kid. Does he ever point out your skin? I will say my daughter has been a positive distraction, and she's brought so much joy to my life and my family's life. Everyone is so excited about all the things we will do with her and I just want to join in on that excitement, but I'm so scared that by the time she is older I will be totally disfigured looking. It makes it hard to look forward to anything anymore. Do you think you will have more children? I would love a second, but I think the chances of that are getting slimmer and slimmer.

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.



Hey, I think saline injections and sculptra sound like a good route for you. Sculptra is really expensive though and the results may not last too long or work at all, but that is the gamble you take. I actually tried silicone micro droplet after the saline and it didn't give me the results I wanted, but maybe I needed more. However, not really wanting to do it because of the risks. Also don't want laser because of the risks. If I had the money now I would go for laviv by fibrocell or maybe recell by Avita when it is approved next year in the US. You can search those two if you haven't read up on them. I understand about your anxieties about the future, but you just never now what treatments could bring you results and the future could be so much better than now. I probably won't have more kids due to a lot of things besides my skin, but you never know.


Actually recell can be done with dermabrasion, from what I have read it is more effective this way than with laser. Because you want the recell to really get into the dermis and it is hard to do that with a fractional laser because it is just pin point holes. However, the dermabrasion does not need to be deep and from what I have read people heal back pretty fast from it with recell with far less redness lasting shorter time. So, it sounds good, but the price may be too high for me. Also, I would want spot treatments and not all over, maybe just cheeks at most. Subcision may be a good first starting point for you like your doc said. Let me know how it goes!



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Posted 08 December 2012 - 10:53 AM

I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.

I very much enjoyed reading this, your son sounds adorable. :)

Your post also explained well why I've felt like becoming a mother would be so good for me. I've been focusing on myself and my skin far too much, and it has got me down, made me very self-centred and held me back. Having a child could be the best thing for me, since I would then be forced to get over my scarring and issues and focus on other people and the important things instead. Of course it's not a proper reason for having children, but still I'm looking forward to that aspect as well, when the time comes. I do hope there will be better treatments for scars, but even more importantly, I've realized that I do just need to accept my skin looking bad and move on.

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Posted 08 December 2012 - 06:23 PM


I have been kind of down about my scarring today, don't really have much acne anymore, but when I do get it, it can scar quickly which makes me freak. I think I do have to be careful about letting my seven year old see my freak sessions, but honestly having a son is SO good for me, because it centers me more and makes me take the attention off myself more. Plus as your little one ages, you will see how they are so positive about life, at least my son is, and it can quickly get me out of my own depression. Kids are the best and being a mom is so worth it and you should never let your skin problems take that away from you. There are many people out there with adult acne, I think most people are more understanding than we think. I just hate the scars because I know how difficult they are to treat. Hopefully there will be better treatments out there one day.

I very much enjoyed reading this, your son sounds adorable. Posted Image

Your post also explained well why I've felt like becoming a mother would be so good for me. I've been focusing on myself and my skin far too much, and it has got me down, made me very self-centred and held me back. Having a child could be the best thing for me, since I would then be forced to get over my scarring and issues and focus on other people and the important things instead. Of course it's not a proper reason for having children, but still I'm looking forward to that aspect as well, when the time comes. I do hope there will be better treatments for scars, but even more importantly, I've realized that I do just need to accept my skin looking bad and move on.



I can get so obssesed with things, it is good to have something or someone else to focus on. After awhile we just have to let go of some of the anxiety and live life because it will pass up by if we don't. I would rather live life with some scars than sit home depressed waiting for perfect skin when in reality we are still beautiful scars and all!

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Posted 09 December 2012 - 01:25 AM

Thanks Vanity! Congrats on your baby as well. I know they are so cute, I can hardly stand it:) Makes me want more, but with this issue I don't know that I will. I wish my problem was just active acne, but it's more the scarring that gets me down. Hopefully with time and the right treatments, it will be tolerable.


oh wait what no im the baby hahaha im 18

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