Thankyou everybody for the help I've had such a bad day at school and I can't wait until graduation so i can get away from all this, but even then my parents are making me go to Uni which i really dont want to go to so even then I dont feel like i have no enjoyable future ugh life eh?
To taketheskies- I agree with everything you said, i do believe i probably put a lot of hope in that relationship believing that it would improve my life. As for self harm, I wouldn't totally agree with it being called a 'cry for help' since i never told anybody and just wanted to feel better at the time but often in cases it is.
To Omarcomin- Thankyou so much It's great to hear from someone who's been in my position!
no going to uni would be good, you can start fresh and get away from all those shitfaces, ugh that ben guy and the asshole i want to smash their heads in D:<
and actually my friend had a similar situation, not as big and we were all just tiny middle schoolers lol, but she and this guy liked each other and this other guy told him that she was telling people that he was begging her to go out with him (which she didnt do) aaand so he got mad at her even after she told him she didnt, but she eventually decided if he was going to believe this other guy (who was kind of notorious for being a jerk) and he wasnt going to believe or trust her, she didnt want to be with him anyway
Uni isn't for everyone.
One has to find ones own path. Not something that may have worked for someone else.