Just Need Someone To Talk To...ocd
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Posted 01 October 2012 - 01:22 PM
I just posted a topic about this as well as i need solutions
I know how you feel! I stopped picking for a good while, i was very happy with myslef and my skin and i felt beautiful. due to stress in the family i fell into the cycle again and it is horrible, one tiny bump and i can't stop thinking about it, i know that scratching makes it worse and you cause more damage and make more pop up but i cannot control myself. I used to have nightmares about it and now i'm living it! I just want to hide away most days and i dont know how to stop, i tell myself its the last time but my willpower this time around is pathetic.
i need help and nobody understands how hard it is! I'm also 21 now and similar to your story it started when i was very young. I just dont knwo what to do anymore... I'm so sad about it
Posted 01 October 2012 - 08:27 PM
Posted 01 October 2012 - 11:56 PM
So until tonight, I had NO idea other people struggled with this. I've picked since I was 13 or 14, I think, and now I'm about to turn 20. It's progressed to my face, neck, shoulders, chest, arms, entire back, and legs. It used to be that I would spend up to three hours in a locked bathroom. I stopped for about a two month period this summer after a friend made me promise, but it didn't last for long after school started. For those two months I felt beautiful and normal, and for the first time since I became a teenager, I was not afraid to buy nice clothes that showed my back. I am so disappointed that I am back in the habit again, and I say "Okay, i'm going to stop right NOW" on a daily basis, but it doesn't work.
I didn't understand how picking could make me depressed, or extremely shameful. I am so ashamed and frustrated with myself that I would rather not be conscious a lot of the time. I feel like I have messed myself up beyond repair, because I do not think that my skin is actually that bad - if I didn't pick, I think I would have a normal amount of teenage acne. I just thought I had some wierd, unnatural mental disorder, and that picking was kind of like a form of cutting. I empathize with everyone on here, and I feel like I'm in a constant state of anxiety and stress - even when I don't have an enormous amount of schoolwork to do, I am still stressed because I am disgusted with myself, which makes me angry, nervous, and depressed. I intentionally placed myself in CA for school because there is so much sun (this is not the only reason, of course), and I wanted to combat my depression. But the picking has continued, and they seem to have a dependent relationship. I think that if I could stop, if I could get out of this vicious circle of stress, pick, shame leads to more stress, leads to picking, ect, that I could alleviate some depression and actually be productive and passionate and happy.
I am so shocked that so many people deal with this. Please do not be afraid to talk or be honest, goodness knows I could use someone to talk to.