People Who Have Clear Skin Seem To Have It All...acne flawed skin emotion vent unhappy red ugly treatment suffer
Posted 11 September 2012 - 06:20 PM
I admit I still have issues with the way my skin looks, I still envy people with clear skin. Every where I go people have flawless skin... Everyday. I feel so alone here, and I'm hoping my scars and pimples will just go away... but one can dream, right? I've lived with this disease for over 7 years now, and I'm about to seek laser, derma-brasion, etc. treatment, because I am tired of all the false hope with antibiotics, and I'm tired of hoping my face will just get better from the regimen.
I'm sick of seeing all these people happy with their flawless skin that I deserve. They deserve my skin type. I hope someday they realize how hard it is to wake up with an ugly face every morning. Some days I just want to stay in bed and not do anything. I'm becoming anti-social from acne. My skin hurts, it's red, and it's ugly. I just want to claw at it sometimes just to make it more red. It hurts to smile... or even talk. My life between 11-now has sucked because of this hideous disease. I'm hoping when I go to college next spring that I fixed the issue...
I feel like no woman would want a man with flawed skin. I haven't had many girlfriends, and the ones I did have never complimented me or liked me as much as I did them... They cheated on me with a guy that had perfect skin. Oh, how the thought just angers me! I wish everyone had acne, or didn't so we wouldn't have to put up with this killer.
I'm done ventilating.
Posted 11 September 2012 - 06:32 PM
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Posted 11 September 2012 - 06:42 PM
Well, I turn to this site because y'all understand. No therapist, friend, or relative could possibly understand the underlying emotions that come packaged with acne unless they've been through it themselves... And yes, I am the only one in my family with acne. I feel like an outcast. :/ I've never fit in with them either.
I feel ya man. My sister has flawless skin. All my cousins have perfect skin too. I saw your pictures that you posted about the regimen, and the last picture you posted when your skin is super dry...your skin looked good there bro. Your a good lookin dude.
Posted 11 September 2012 - 08:47 PM
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Posted 12 September 2012 - 12:02 AM
Posted 12 September 2012 - 01:12 AM
When I have spots on my face I literally feel like the ugliest person on earth and don't want anyone to see me. So you can see, clear face or spotty face, sometimes the problem is within and that's what you need to work on. A clear face won't magically fix the emotional issues that we have as acne sufferers.
Posted 12 September 2012 - 01:23 AM
Posted 12 September 2012 - 04:17 PM
However. I had someone I loved very much dying in my house of a lethal form of cancer only a few months ago. The cancer was so bad that he couldn't enjoy more than a few minutes a day because the pain was unbearable. His body was failing right before our eyes and there was nothing we could do about it. After he was gone, I sat in my car on my way home from the gym and cried because how selfish of me to complain and hate myself and my life because of my acne. Not once did I EVER hear him complain. Yes acne sucks, but he would have given anything to have had acne and not cancer. Acne is beatable and it doesn't change the way our systems work the way that cancer does.
And though I still whine and feel upset about my acne (it's inevitable) I try to remind myself that my body allows me to do the things that I want to do. My body is healthy and can run, jump, and swim. I don't have to worry about chronic pain, I don't worry that today might be my last day on earth, and I can enjoy all of the people that I love. My relative will never swim in the ocean again, and as unfair as it may be, I will.
I know it's so hard to change the way you feel about your appearance, but maybe if you try to look as your body as an instrument, you will learn to appreciate it for what it is. I'm still working on this too.
Posted 12 September 2012 - 04:57 PM
Posted 12 September 2012 - 09:57 PM
Just know this everyone, it's temporary. Most of it's hormonal, your body is changing. Sure it seems like it will never go away, but I'm not going to give up. Dan has provided us with a great gift, connecting us all together. I consider y'all my acne family, one that I wouldn't change for the world. I'm not alone, and every time I start to get upset about my skin, I think about here and how much support there is. So I just want to say "thank you" for all your replies and advice. It really means a lot, and it just shows that I'm not the only one anymore, that there's others who share the same problem with me, and that makes it all the better.
Take a look at my log if you want to see some results with the regimen: http://www.acne.org/...35-dillons-log/
I'm on my 7th week, and I take the results I'm getting for granted. Maybe the pain is all just emotional now... My confidence has boosted far more than it ever has since I've moved myself away from all the losers at my high school. Life does get better, and I'm doing my best to succeed in life: acne or not. Life is what you make it, so make it good. Now I'm just ranting on about stuff lol, just message me if you need help or want advice on a 1-to-1 basis, or just ask the forum. Thanks again, I couldn't do this without y'all.