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*Sighs* I'm so embarrassing ugly. But hopefully that kinda helps.
Note: Skip until you see the obvious big words if you don't want to hear about my emotional torment/stupidity. xD
Well, okay, I'd at least be able to cope with being distinctly unattractive...but that's ruined since I'm tormented by my peers about my skin. A lot of people I know say something good one day and then something bad the next day (and trust me I look the same everyday...), or even just a few hours later and it just confuses me soo much.
My best friend...well, by this point I'm doubting her even though she's supposed to be a angelic/honest person, she goes on about how great I supposedly look sometimes (IE, I looked like a, er, "heart-breaker" at prom to her, and it was really annoying because one of her friends--she thought I looked like Snow White-- that I didn't know double-teamed me to praise my looks...I wore a tiny bit of cover-up. >_>)--she tends to murmur about thinking she looks really weird herself, and has admitted several times she would way prefer to look like me. But then in the meantime she has said totally horrific things about how I look, which confuses me to no end. I wonder if it'd be better if nobody told me anything about my looks at all.
Example: she was on facebook trying to convince a friend of hers who wears pounds upon that she's beautiful/looks like a angel without make-up, so I quipped--"so I look like the devil without make-up, eh?"
So...my friend said this (yeah I deserved it): "THIS is the only time I'll ever say this...but you and Oprah are the only two people in the world who need make-up. I saw a video of her waking up and she looked HORRIFYING."
Wow. So I look like a old woman and I look horrifying. For the record my friend isn't the type to make jokes, especially ones that are that mean.. -_-
IF YOU skipped that all then start here, please. xD
So yeah. I never wear make-up and I'd like to at least look better without it and not be compared to Oprah.
I guess I should be just looking at another article about it (and save you guys the bother) but my skin has some special characteristics.
--By now, I guess I just really have sensitive, sensitive skin. Scrubbed my face lightly in the shower...my forehead breaks out horrifically. So I can't even clean my face properly without it being irritated.
--My genes are bad. As in, my skin has always produced lots of sebum/oil, regardless of my diet it seems. My hair gets pretty awful after two days OR even one day of not shampooing...as you can visually see its dark and thin looking, but in actuality my hair is usually fluffy/a ashy, light brown that everybody I know envies... only 'cause they don't know the truth of its vile greasy secret. I know oil is part of the problem 'cause I have a LOT of acne near my hairline. -_-
--The acne itself...well, I've had some fairly terrible types of acne. There's this one type--undergrounder--that hurts sooo much without me even touching it, that lasts for weeks and weeks, then when it finally goes away it leaves a ugly dark mark. At the moment, there's one on my chin that has been around for a month or two.
So...yeah. I need a acne scar treatment that is amazingly agreeable with skin, copes and does not add to the oil problem, and of course deals with the various and insane scars I've gotten. Not to mention one that doesn't aggravate the acne that is already there!
Thanks for all the help/guidance! I've never even treated my scars before so I don't quite know what to say about them, so I'd thank you for not being irritated about it. xD
