I've discovered this forum 2 days ago, and with the problems I have it's a relief to see that I am not the only one being very insecure about the acne.
It all started on wednesday when I could barely sleep, because I was nervous about an event I would go to. My face was clear (sometimes I get so lucky that I don't have anything, and then I am really happy about that). But when I woke up, I felt this huge bump on my forehead. I looked in the mirror. It didn't have any redness to it, but worried that anyone might see that huge bump made me squeeze it.
Out came this clear liquid, and it still didn't look too bad. It wasn't a bump anymore, and it looked as if I had a small cut.
... The day after it was a huge red mark.
It is now sunday and it hasn't faded one bit.
That wouldn't be so bad, but on friday as I was panicking about that one, I picked at another (pretty invisible) spot, which is now ALSO a huge red mark. I really started to feel like I wanted to dig a big hole and hide in it for a month until it was all gone. Worst thing was that I had to WORK with hundreds of people around me. Weird thing is, literally no one mentioned it..? While the spots are freaking huge.
Each time I think, TOMORROW IT WILL BE GONE. But each "tomorrow" I look at it, it's gotten worse or it looks exactly the same.... Everyone in the environment has clear skin, and I just want to have clear skin too. I feel worthless and ugly like this. I also notice that my behaviour changes when I have these spots... Instead of being enthusiastic and happy like always, I start to avoid people and conversation, and also I don't look directly at people anymore...
Does anyone have some tips for me? I am a 20 year old male and can't use these make up things... I just want to be able to do things without worrying about what people will think of me, if they think if I am ugly etc... Does anyone have tips that will fade the dark red marks away?






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