Ive had acne since middle school.... went to a derm and they fixed it with Benzaclin's gel form. was lovely.
then when i did a year as an exchange student to Japan, my face broke out within 3 weeks of landing. like. completely across my face...
after a year, i returned to the states and re-started benzaclin , supported with Yaz birth control.
I was once again beautiful
Now ive moved back to tokyo for university studies...and..alas, my face is hell again. This was two years ago, btw. ive heard of people breaking out until theyre 'used to' their surroundings after a year or so. no. not me.
i feel no stress. I eat healthy and drink loads of water. exercise. sleep. take vitamins.
so started doing chemical peels at the dermatologist, which helped a bit with the red marks left behind by previous pimples, but hasnt seemed to do much in prevention.
tried numerous gels and creams the japanese dermatologist suggested-all made me worse...
and now im moving back to the states next month...
in hong kong at the moment, started Yazmin birth control and a 5% benzoyl peroxide cream,,,
most of my problem is on my cheeks and jaw...
nose is COVERED with blackheads,
cheeks have the hard pustule type of things that oftentime never rise to a head,
occasional nodules on the jawbone (a bit under my eye) and stay there a good 6 or 7 months before receding.. and leaving a mark for all of eternity
and all across my chin and around the mouth are these hard little whitehead type of things that are seem to only increase in number, and never dislodge themselves until the inflame up profusely and then after healing, leave another dark red mark.
woe is me.
I get an awful lot of people who on the streets try to give me advice, or tell me how bad they feel. if guns were legal in japan, im pretty sure i know where id be right now . lol
and on top of it... i model. and i get turned down loads of jobs due ot my skin.. ... im moving to NYC this year and want to go to open calls for the leading agencies, but am totally not able to w/ a complexion like this.
what am i doing wrong.
how the hell can i reverse this.
im sick of being an adult, and having people make fun of my face.
as we speak my HongKong friend's mom who chews with her mouth open and openly farts all the time is throwing newspaper ads for miracle acne cures at me, and telling me i must not eat right.
it doesnt look severe, aside from reoccurring nodules i get in the upper jaw region,,,,yeowch.
but people definitely know how to say things that make you stop going out of your house...ya know.