I'm new to the forum although I have used/read things on this website for quite some time.
I have had acne for as long as I remember, I started getting spots when I was about 9/10 years old, but when I became a teenager the acne really hit me bad. I started getting huge painful cysts on my cheeks that wouldnt go away for aaaages. At one point I actually had loads of these cysts on one of my cheeks and they all joined together, this took a long long time to go away but left me with scarring where they had been. The sorest most stubborn ones were in the centre of my cheeks and my god they shattered my confidence.
At first the scarring was tolerable, and I still felt ok to go out without make-up on to so simple things like go to the shops. But since then around every six moths I had gotten another big cyst on the exact same area. So the scarring is much worse now, to the point that it makes me cry and I literally cant take the bins out without putting my make-up on. I can hardly look people in the eye because I notice their eyes darting about my face looking at the scars. I can't look at myself in a mirror in direct sunlight because it's too depressing for me.
I have been put on many different antibiotics by my GP and have used Benzoyl Peroxide all the way upto 10% but, although the Benzoyl Peroxide does still help to dry out the spots, it doesn't work nearly as well as it did when I first started using it. I was also put on Dianette, the birth control pill, which cleared up my skin brilliantly!! Unfortunately you can't stay on this for too long though because it can cause blood clots and whatever. It is only a temporary fix for spots, but it does not really get rid of the wee black heads and oil n stuff.
Anyway, I'm now 22 and a few months ago I went to see my GP a couple of months ago about the scarring as I hadn't had any spots for a good few months (an amazing few months). He gave me a referal to see a dermatolagist. About a week before my appointment I came out in a huuuge cyst on my cheek where the worst scarring is, and another cyst on my chin, both very sore. TYPICAL EH! So I thought, right, I'd read alot about accutane so I'm going to ask for that, because I'm just sick of it now.
I wasn't sure if the derm would prescribe me it because my acne isn't as bad as it once was but she agreed straight away, and I burst out crying. She was so nice, and seemed like she really cared. It's amazing how someone just being nice and sympathetic towards your situation can make you feel so much better. I'm so glad I didn't know about the blood tests because I had never had one before and I'm not sure if I would have been as quick to ask for accutane had I known this. I got the blood test straight away and it was no bother at all! I am actually going to start giving blood once I'm off the accutane because it really didn't hurt at all!
I was given a months worth of accutane at 30mg a day straight away, and have to go back in a months time for more and another blood test and pregnancy test.
All the horror stories I have heard about accutane have not affected how I see this treatment. I just want to go to university in a few months and feel confident. The derm said that the accutane might actually help clear some of my scarring as well so BRING IT ON!
Apologies for the long post, I realised when I was at the derm and actually explaining how I feel, that I need to talk more about my situation, because I literally bottle it up and dont talk to anyone about it. I am on my third day taking the accutane, I know its early but I haven't experienced any side effects yet. I have stocked up on some good moisturising products for when the dryness starts though.
Anyway, thanks to whoever has read this and it would be awesome to talk to and share stories with anyone in the same situation as myself.
Thanks guys






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