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[InAStateOfHopefulness]

All these words (and more) were thrown at me today in argument with my father. I too said many mean things defensively. But it really hurt me to hear that his insults all revolved around me being fake and self-centered. My father told me that its his goal to take a wrecking ball to my facade. He said that the only way I'm going to "grow up and man up" is by breaking me down and popping the bubble I live in. He told me instead of vacationing this summer I have to get a job and that's he's going to severely cut me off financially. Its funny though because I feel like my parents are responsibile for my "monstorous" ways. They allowed me to have a nose job. They encouraged invisaligns despite not really needing them. My father has pokes fun at my acne in jest, etc. :/

IDK - I realize that I'm horrible person caught up in myself. I honestly do only care about myself. I lack empathy for others. I feel ugly. I couldn't imagine leaving my home without my mask on.

Venting, sorry. Hehe :/

Edited by InAStateOfDespair, 22 April 2012 - 10:33 PM.

[tritonxiv]

Everyone has their insecurities. Don't let your father or anyone else tell you how you're "supposed to be".

As long as you grow day by day and live your life striving to learn more, do more, see more and love more, you will never ever have anything to be ashamed about.

It's your life. Your father can take away his support, but he can never take away what makes you you.

Cheers.

[*Can*I*Live*]

im a horrible person

[Coppedsynergy999]

You should say," Let the one without sin cast the stone first, dont judge me we all have problems".

[Kairasa]

He sounds unfair, and unfortunately, since he is able to financially do as he wishes, you will have to deal with whatever he gives you. But, you decide your reaction. Accept that he isn't being fair, accept that maybe this will be a painful, tough lesson that you don't want to go through but push yourself anyways. And know that we are here for you and that you will come out of this period a stronger person. Unless you choose to pity yourself and sit there and do nothing. But I think you are a stronger person than that...now you need to believe it. =)

[Sum1killme]

I used to be nice caring person but this world only runs over and shits on em any chance it gets. My point is this world sucks balls. Don't pretend to be sum1 ur not be who u wanna be and fuck everybody else.

Edited by Sum1killme, 24 April 2012 - 12:36 PM.

[InAStateOfHopefulness]

He sounds unfair, and unfortunately, since he is able to financially do as he wishes, you will have to deal with whatever he gives you. But, you decide your reaction. Accept that he isn't being fair, accept that maybe this will be a painful, tough lesson that you don't want to go through but push yourself anyways. And know that we are here for you and that you will come out of this period a stronger person. Unless you choose to pity yourself and sit there and do nothing. But I think you are a stronger person than that...now you need to believe it. =)

He's actually apologized since (it took him a while). But he still is going to be more strict, which really sucks. I don't pity myself. I've faced enough adversity in life. I just hold my head up and push through. I just needed to vent.

I used to be nice caring person but this world only runs over and shits on em any chance it gets. My point is this world sucks balls. Don't pretend to be sum1 ur not be who u wanna be and fuck everybody else.

I'm sorry that you've lost part of yourself :/. I say don't give up being nice and caring. Its admirable for people to still be true to themselves and kind to others despite hardships.

Its much easier said than done. On one side I feel confident (or try to), but on another I'm like self destructive.