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[jennyband]

I apreciate your response it has really cheered me up. And no i havent been to a dermatologist im too scared to go what if my acne gets worse than it already is, anyway you have a point about the whole being paralyzed or having cancer it just really sucks seeming to be the only one while everybody around me has perfect skin. Even though it doesnt compare to a cancer i still view acne like a desease. Thanks for the post.

hey sum1killme. i feel like you need the worlds biggest fair go right now. seems like life just kicks you when your down and then kicks you again. like a lot of people who have already responded, i relate to how your feeling. i too have skipped class too many times because of how i looked. i've also missed events, birthdays, family dinners, trips away etc, etc. i just want you to know that while a dermatologist might seem like a scary option, acne IS a disease, a hugely debilitating one. it has many different types (acne vulgaris is one particular form). i don't know if you've tried accutane, i read through and couldn't see anything mentioned, but i think your a very good candidate for it. i've taken it myself with outstanding results (logged here on acne.org) both my boyfriend and my ex had severe acne as teenagers and used accutane, my mother and sister both did courses, and i know many other people who have all used it successfully.

don't get me wrong, it is not a walk in the park. it is hard sometimes. it gets worse. it flares up. but then after a couple of weeks you see some clearing. and then a bit more. and then soon enough you have a whole new skin, its like brand new.

i've tried every holistic, dietary and non medical form of acne therapy. nothing works. it has to come from the inside. this form of acne does not care what you eat or what you put on your face. the only real changes come from changing the oil production glands themselves.

because i'm a girl i have a secondary component to acne, i suffer from cystic acne alone. it revolves entirely around my hormone cycle and i require the pill to regulate that. i've recently been taken off the pill for a period of 6 months, and low and behold my acne flared up. it held out for a good long while but in the last few weeks its shown its ugly head. i went to the derm and he gave me accutane. the best part is i won't have to take it for as long as the first time, and i know it works. the psychological horror is lessened because i have an end in sight. i want my life to be as full as it can be without worry.

please go and see a dermatologist for your own peace of mind. they are really going to help you. ask for accutane, don't waste your time with topicals or antibiotics. get your life back too.

good luck

[DukeBlueDevils]

Absolutely feel your pain. I know how it feels to go out in public and look at others' faces and see nothing but perfect skin everywhere. I remember when I was taking my SAT last June, I was the ONLY one in the whole room (out of 28 people) who had acne. How do you think I felt? Embarrassed as hell. Felt like everyone was staring at me and secretly laughing at me.

[Sum1killme]

just broke out once again yay 8 on one side 12 on the other.

I apreciate your response it has really cheered me up. And no i havent been to a dermatologist im too scared to go what if my acne gets worse than it already is, anyway you have a point about the whole being paralyzed or having cancer it just really sucks seeming to be the only one while everybody around me has perfect skin. Even though it doesnt compare to a cancer i still view acne like a desease. Thanks for the post.

hey sum1killme. i feel like you need the worlds biggest fair go right now. seems like life just kicks you when your down and then kicks you again. like a lot of people who have already responded, i relate to how your feeling. i too have skipped class too many times because of how i looked. i've also missed events, birthdays, family dinners, trips away etc, etc. i just want you to know that while a dermatologist might seem like a scary option, acne IS a disease, a hugely debilitating one. it has many different types (acne vulgaris is one particular form). i don't know if you've tried accutane, i read through and couldn't see anything mentioned, but i think your a very good candidate for it. i've taken it myself with outstanding results (logged here on acne.org) both my boyfriend and my ex had severe acne as teenagers and used accutane, my mother and sister both did courses, and i know many other people who have all used it successfully.

don't get me wrong, it is not a walk in the park. it is hard sometimes. it gets worse. it flares up. but then after a couple of weeks you see some clearing. and then a bit more. and then soon enough you have a whole new skin, its like brand new.

i've tried every holistic, dietary and non medical form of acne therapy. nothing works. it has to come from the inside. this form of acne does not care what you eat or what you put on your face. the only real changes come from changing the oil production glands themselves.

because i'm a girl i have a secondary component to acne, i suffer from cystic acne alone. it revolves entirely around my hormone cycle and i require the pill to regulate that. i've recently been taken off the pill for a period of 6 months, and low and behold my acne flared up. it held out for a good long while but in the last few weeks its shown its ugly head. i went to the derm and he gave me accutane. the best part is i won't have to take it for as long as the first time, and i know it works. the psychological horror is lessened because i have an end in sight. i want my life to be as full as it can be without worry.

please go and see a dermatologist for your own peace of mind. they are really going to help you. ask for accutane, don't waste your time with topicals or antibiotics. get your life back too.

good luck

Im sorry even though u took acutane the acne came back,thats what i most fear is taking possibly the only cure and not being able to rid this nightmare. I think i would probly give up on my life, but im going to try it in the summer .how much is accutane?

[jennyband]

Hi sum1killme,

I have some acne back, but its is not nearly as severe as before, and i only need to take a short course of accutane and wait for my pill to regulate properly. the cysts i have are already going away. the thing is your in a better position because your a guy and once you get your acne under control with accutane your skin will remain clear without the hassles of periods and hormonal fluctuations. my skin still looks so much better because i took accutane, and i know it will be clear in just a short amount of time.

Anyone whose seen successful results from accutane will tell you how good it feels. My skin was perfect and stayed that way for a long time, if i didn't have secondary problems with my hormones i would not break out at all.

The price of Roaccutane depends on where you live and if you have/need health cover. Because i live in Australia and receive student health benefits it is less expensive.

From what you've said so far, it seems acne really destroys your self confidence. It would be worth it even to make sacrifices to change this situation for yourself, get some quality of life so you can start enjoying it again.

Good Luck

[Jenny P]

It's so amazing how similar acne makes people feel. I swear, literally every thread on here that talks about emotions sounds like it's coming straight from my mouth because it sounds so much like me!!

I feel like a monster, ditched college classes, canceled plans, feel disgusting, and think people are grossed out by me, I feel like the only one in my school with an acne problem..And also I know how you feel about having problems with speech causing you to not talk.

I was made fun of all my life because of my voice (very soft and low volume) which caused me to just not talk at all.

[Atticus10]

i definitely feel you. though i never skip class no matter how bad my acne looks (which is really really really bad), it really sucks when your classmates pay more attention to your face than on the class in hand and when they have more questions to you, about your acne, than your professor.

[thekingofmutts]

i definitely feel you. though i never skip class no matter how bad my acne looks (which is really really really bad), it really sucks when your classmates pay more attention to your face than on the class in hand and when they have more questions to you, about your acne, than your professor.

Thankfully no-one asks me about my acne, if I was in your shoes I would feel horrible as I hate to receive any attention. Congrats on not skipping class.

[mini7]

Hi Sum1,
I know you might think these are just platitudes, but as a very kind person once told me here at a real low point, this too will pass. I have been through hell and back with this disease, and recently hit rock bottom with my face and I promise you that if you hang in there you will start to see hope and meaning return to your life. And you are most definitely NOT A MONSTER! I know what it feels like to look in the mirror and hate what you see, but if we don't love and care about ourselves just a little tiny bit, no one else ever will. I know that at my low points I felt like everyone was staring at me, judging me, and was repulsed by the sight of me. I think I made it difficult for people to be around me because I was so uncomfortable in my own skin that I felt like I wanted to jump right out of it. Sometimes we transmit this to people around us and they find it hard to be around us because we are so clearly and visibly miserable and in such a dark place in our lives that it frightens them. I think that in the midst of my recent depression I may have frightened some people who saw a very different and dark side to me. But acne does this. Please give your family a chance to be supportive and be there for you. I know that it's easy to push people away with this disease because you want to be alone in your misery, but sometimes letting other people in can be a great source of strength. I hope you have a wonderful day today and don't forget that there are people out there who love and support you.

[cvd]

Try accutane. I know it is scary to try something you think might be your last resort and then to worry it might not work. It will work. Even if your acne comes back it will not be as bad as before and will respond better to other treatments. That's how accutane works. For some people it cures acne and for others it lessens the sebum eneough to allow other meds to work. Sometimes derms have to devise a complicated regime to keep acne controlled...see my intensive regime below. Don't lose heart --- don't give up! We all care and can empathize with you. We are all in this fight together!

[Sasch83]

just broke out once again yay 8 on one side 12 on the other.

I apreciate your response it has really cheered me up. And no i havent been to a dermatologist im too scared to go what if my acne gets worse than it already is, anyway you have a point about the whole being paralyzed or having cancer it just really sucks seeming to be the only one while everybody around me has perfect skin. Even though it doesnt compare to a cancer i still view acne like a desease. Thanks for the post.

hey sum1killme. i feel like you need the worlds biggest fair go right now. seems like life just kicks you when your down and then kicks you again. like a lot of people who have already responded, i relate to how your feeling. i too have skipped class too many times because of how i looked. i've also missed events, birthdays, family dinners, trips away etc, etc. i just want you to know that while a dermatologist might seem like a scary option, acne IS a disease, a hugely debilitating one. it has many different types (acne vulgaris is one particular form). i don't know if you've tried accutane, i read through and couldn't see anything mentioned, but i think your a very good candidate for it. i've taken it myself with outstanding results (logged here on acne.org) both my boyfriend and my ex had severe acne as teenagers and used accutane, my mother and sister both did courses, and i know many other people who have all used it successfully.

don't get me wrong, it is not a walk in the park. it is hard sometimes. it gets worse. it flares up. but then after a couple of weeks you see some clearing. and then a bit more. and then soon enough you have a whole new skin, its like brand new.

i've tried every holistic, dietary and non medical form of acne therapy. nothing works. it has to come from the inside. this form of acne does not care what you eat or what you put on your face. the only real changes come from changing the oil production glands themselves.

because i'm a girl i have a secondary component to acne, i suffer from cystic acne alone. it revolves entirely around my hormone cycle and i require the pill to regulate that. i've recently been taken off the pill for a period of 6 months, and low and behold my acne flared up. it held out for a good long while but in the last few weeks its shown its ugly head. i went to the derm and he gave me accutane. the best part is i won't have to take it for as long as the first time, and i know it works. the psychological horror is lessened because i have an end in sight. i want my life to be as full as it can be without worry.

please go and see a dermatologist for your own peace of mind. they are really going to help you. ask for accutane, don't waste your time with topicals or antibiotics. get your life back too.

good luck

Im sorry even though u took acutane the acne came back,thats what i most fear is taking possibly the only cure and not being able to rid this nightmare. I think i would probly give up on my life, but im going to try it in the summer .how much is accutane?

Hey, you definitely found the right place for dealing with this debilitating illness. You are not alone by any stretch of the imagination. Some of us have been searching for a solution for months while others (like myself) have been searching for years. Either way, it sucks. I have taken accutane 3 times and cleared for a period of 2 years for each course. My last round had to be stopped due to health issues and i've been struggling to gain control for almost 6-9 months now. My face as of today 520/12 is horrible and painful and i want to cry about it. But i know that tomorrow, the sun will come out and i'll need to go on about my day and i'll do it. Don't let acne stop you from improving your life. Go to a derm AFTER you have researched courses of treatments and the reviews of others. And i after a while you see no improvement, look into accutane and weigh the pros and cons.

Stay strong and know that we're all in this together.

[Oner]

I read your post and I really want to help you. I know how you feel so much. It's pathetic and demeaning and depressing. Even my parents were unsympathetic to my condition. I really want to help you. I have cleared my acne greatly but still not as much as I would like to. The two major things that helped control my acne was to stop masturbating (give it a try, you have nothing to lose, it takes about 10 days to see results) and stop consuming soy (it lurks in almost everything we eat, become a label reader). You say you are already eating healthy, great for you, keep it up. Don't starve yourself, I know how desperate you are but that is not the answer! message me with any questions

[Sum1killme]

I read your post and I really want to help you. I know how you feel so much. It's pathetic and demeaning and depressing. Even my parents
were unsympathetic to my condition. I really want to help you. I have cleared my acne greatly but still not as much as I would like to. The two
major things that helped control my acne was to
stop masturbating (give it a try, you have
nothing to lose, it takes about 10 days to see
results) and stop consuming soy (it lurks in
almost everything we eat, become a label
reader). You say you are already eating healthy,
great for you, keep it up. Don't starve yourself, I
know how desperate you are but that is not the
answer! message me with any questions

Thanks for the concern and support man an I appreciate your suggestions but if I jack off or whatever u wanna call it my skin actually clears up a little bit, plust I'm not goin to do that every day that would be crazy if anything maby once every two weeks if even that. And about the soy I didnt know soy was not good for you shit I even drink soy milk instead of regular because I thought it was better than regular milk, taste like shit, but I thought it was healthier. Anyways since I posted this thread my acne has greatly reduced significantly by using sulfur and some other Mexican products you should look into trying sulfur if ur still struggling because it has helped me greatly but still have to deal with the weekly breakout instead of breaking out everyday.

Edited by Sum1killme, 23 May 2012 - 01:10 PM.

[Oner]

the healthyness of soy is very debatable. on one hand it has lots of nutrients and protein and is considered generally healthy, but on the other hand people claim it has antinutrients and phytoestrogens that mess with your hormones and deplete your body of healthy nutrients. While i am not agreeing with either of these sides, i only know that when i eliminated soy from my diet, my acne subsided noticeably. My aunt and friend both were diagnosed with cancer and they both drank soy milk daily. I'm not trying to make any claims, but personally i avoid it. Try almond, hemp, coconut or rice milk. Also, even if i jack off once a week i still get breakouts, i have to abstain from masturbation for about 2 weeks to see good results and then continue abstaining indefinetly. What are these mexican products that you speak of? I will also look into sulfur.

do you use the sulfur topically? or internally?

[Sum1killme]

the healthyness of soy is very debatable. on one hand it has lots of nutrients and protein and is considered generally healthy, but on the other hand people claim it has antinutrients and
phytoestrogens that mess with your hormones
and deplete your body of healthy nutrients. While
i am not agreeing with either of these sides, i
only know that when i eliminated soy from my
diet, my acne subsided noticeably. My aunt and
friend both were diagnosed with cancer and they
both drank soy milk daily. I'm not trying to make
any claims, but personally i avoid it. Try almond,
hemp, coconut or rice milk. Also, even if i jack
off once a week i still get breakouts, i have to
abstain from masturbation for about 2 weeks to
see good results and then continue abstaining
indefinetly. What are these mexican products
that you speak of? I will also look into sulfur

Yea man I've been using this De la Cruz pomade de Azufre depending where u live they sell it at walgreens but it's the only product that has ever worked for me took me from severe to mild acne in about a month. I put it on for 20 min before taking a shower. And I sometimes leave it on at night for longer. Along with my supplements of zinc,chromium,magnesium and Vetamin C. At first I didn't believe these supplements worked on me but I gave it time and greatly reduced oil production Wich is what the chromium is for. Jalv is the guy who recommended it on this thread. Check out his thread the effect of mineral imbalance and absorption. Even tho my acne has reduced greatly what I have still bothers me, but I may have found the cure, I don't want to jinx myself but I've been told about this "cure" my aunt and two of my cousins have been cured in Mexico. Severe acne in 3 days. But until I receive it wich is next week and actually try it I will post a thread on here about it if it actually works.


Also im going to eleminate soy milk and see if i get any results.

Edited by Sum1killme, 23 May 2012 - 08:49 PM.

[Oner]

what is this "cure" called? and yes please post your results about it!

[kaafee123]

First post on here, just lookin for any type of advice. I have large bumps under my skin I think called nodules not really sure but pop every day ( yes, I break out every fuckin day) and on top of that I have a face full of scars. So in the sun or in any bright light I look horrendous. Even in dim lighting I still look horrible. Today I realized what a pathetic and useless peice of shit my life has become. I skipped all of my college classes today because I looked in the bathroom mirror and I looked like a monster. I had a breakdown realizing how fucked up my face really is. In all my classes I'm the only one with acne, probably in the whole damn school, have yet to see Somone with acne. Have zero freinds zero gfs and I have no clue how to socialize or act like a fuckin human being. I was even suposed to go help out my brother with something but lied to him telling him I had to study but really I'm too ashamed of the way I look. I just feel like my family is disappointed in me even when they talk to me they never look me in the eye and look away everytime I start talking with them. I think they just can't stand to look at me they feel disgusted or something. On top of that I have a stuttering problem (yea fuck my life) ive managed to hide the shit out if it by not talking which I think has fucked me up even more cause it's pretty bad now ,anyways I wash my face 3 times a day take all my vitamins and eat super healthy at times starving myself because it doesn't matter what I eat I breakout every day. Need some advice from somebody or anybody any thoughts or any kind of human interaction.

Hey man,

Let me tell you, i know EXACTLY how you feel. I actually failed college this year because I didn't go to any classes because of how horrible my acne is. I've tried everything from exercising to eating super healthy and no matter what I do my face looks like a warzone. I actually think this old grandma cursed me about the time when I started getting acne. Everyone knew she was a fucking witch and I looked her directly in the eyes and said some bad stuff when she wouldn't stop staring at me. To be honest, it's not fair at all. My life has been anything from easy with being broke and having never had a father. I thought maybe just maybe life would at least give me decent skin, but fucking acne came along and completely stomped my life to the ground. Now I have no friends, never been in a relationship with a girl, no job, and have failed college. And believe it or not it's all because I have no self esteem or strength left. Then people tell me to embrace Jesus and Allah. Fuck off with that shit. I know people who have done way worse things in life (robbed, assaulted, etc) and they are living rich lives with perfect skin. and I don't care about God punishing them in the next life. I wanted something good in this life, but apparently I can't even have a goddamn decent face.

Judging from your username, I assume you're in the same boat. Oh I've had bad thoughts of suicide. I'm just too pussy to ever do it. But now I'm reduced to playing video games and staying inside for the rest of my life until I finally die. I even take unnecessary risks like speeding on the highway now because I honestly do not give a fuck anymore. I know it's not going to get better, and I don't know what I did to deserve this.

I hope I find a bro like you one day because everyone around me has perfect skin and I always feel like I don't fit in. That's the only thing I've ever wanted, for fucks sake.

Edited by kaafee123, 24 May 2012 - 11:38 AM.

[Sum1killme]

First post on here, just lookin for any type of advice. I have large bumps under my skin I think
called nodules not really sure but pop every day
( yes, I break out every fuckin day) and on top of
that I have a face full of scars. So in the sun or
in any bright light I look horrendous. Even in dim
lighting I still look horrible. Today I realized what
a pathetic and useless peice of shit my life has
become. I skipped all of my college classes
today because I looked in the bathroom mirror
and I looked like a monster. I had a breakdown
realizing how fucked up my face really is. In all
my classes I'm the only one with acne, probably
in the whole damn school, have yet to see
Somone with acne. Have zero freinds zero gfs
and I have no clue how to socialize or act like a
fuckin human being. I was even suposed to go
help out my brother with something but lied to
him telling him I had to study but really I'm too
ashamed of the way I look. I just feel like my
family is disappointed in me even when they talk
to me they never look me in the eye and look
away everytime I start talking with them. I think
they just can't stand to look at me they feel
disgusted or something. On top of that I have a
stuttering problem (yea fuck my life) ive
managed to hide the shit out if it by not talking
which I think has fucked me up even more
cause it's pretty bad now ,anyways I wash my
face 3 times a day take all my vitamins and eat
super healthy at times starving myself because it
doesn't matter what I eat I breakout every day.
Need some advice from somebody or anybody
any thoughts or any kind of human interaction.

Hey man,

Let me tell you, i know EXACTLY how you feel. I
actually failed college this year because I didn't
go to any classes because of how horrible my
acne is. I've tried everything from exercising to
eating super healthy and no matter what I do my
face looks like a warzone. I actually think this
old grandma cursed me about the time when I
started getting acne. Everyone knew she was a
fucking witch and I looked her directly in the
eyes and said some bad stuff when she wouldn't
stop staring at me. To be honest, it's not fair at
all. My life has been anything from easy with
being broke and having never had a father. I
Lthought maybe just maybe life would at least
give me decent skin, but fucking acne came
along and completely stomped my life to the
ground. Now I have no friends, never been in a
relationship with a girl, no job, and have failed
college. And believe it or not it's all because I
have no self esteem or strength left. Then
people tell me to embrace Jesus and Allah. Fuck
off with that shit. I know people who have done
way worse things in life (robbed, assaulted, etc)
and they are living rich lives with perfect skin.
and I don't care about God punishing them in
the next life. I wanted something good in this
life, but apparently I can't even have a goddamn
decent face.


Judging from your username, I assume you're in the same boat. Oh I've had bad thoughts of suicide. I'm just too pussy to ever do it. But now I'm reduced to playing video games and staying
inside for the rest of my life until I finally die. I even take unnecessary risks like speeding on
the highway now because I honestly do not give a fuck anymore. I know it's not going to get
better, and I don't know what I did to deserve
this.





I hope I find a bro like you one day because everyone around me has perfect skin and I always feel like I don't fit in. That's the only thing I've ever wanted, for fucks sake.

Damn man I feel like we are somehow related or something cause we are so fucking alike it's ridiculous. I also believe one of my aunts witch is known for witchcraft and doing evil sick shit cursed me when I was little. My mom even believes she did something to me one day that I had to stay at her house and shit. Anyway I don't believe everybody who had acne is under a spell or some shit I just feel I am because of how fucked up my face used to look and the fact that my aunt is a fuckin witch no joke.I also failed a couple of my college classes because i stopped going to them because of my acne even tho i know i could have made A's easily if i could have just had the balls to go. But I do believe it can get better man when I posted this shit I was at rock bottom but since then my face has gotten way better by taking supplements and using sulfur. Zinc,chromium,magnesium, and vitaminC. Even tho it reduced greatly I still have mild acne. But I believe there is hope man I have been told about this shit that has been known for curing severe acne in 3 days I'm going to try this shit and if it works I'm goin to post a thread on here after I try it wich would be next week.

Edited by Sum1killme, 24 May 2012 - 01:49 PM.

[kaafee123]

Crazy stuff maybe we are related lol. Good luck with that method I think I know which one you're talking about. The 3 day ebook. I tried to follow the instructions until they told me to shove a fucking enema up my ass, then I just gave up. Basically you have to cleanse your whole body and fast and eat nothing for 3 days but apples and grape juice, along with the colon cleanse. Maybe that's another one though.

And yeah it's crazy how no one else understands. They think that it's not such a big deal and you shouldn't fail because of acne, it's not like you have cancer or some shit. No offense to anyone but I don't even know if I have cancer and acne might be worse because it's the first thing people see when you walk into a classroom. Someone with cancer wouldn't even have to tell the other person, but people with acne can't hide it because it's the first thing a person sees. EVERYONE else has flawless skin then we walk in like total douches. I just don't have the balls or enough inner strength to withstand laughter or a "wash your face" comment, because I feel like I would actually kill myself then and there.

Please get to the top man. For me it's been a rollercoaster ride where I finally think it's healing, and then it comes back no matter what and I hit rock bottom again. Especially on one side of my face. I'm telling you we're definitely cursed if yours comes back too.

Edited by kaafee123, 24 May 2012 - 05:05 PM.

[Beender20]

sorry but all I could think about when i read your title is that Kanye West song when Nicki says I'm a motherf***ing monster!

[Sum1killme]

Crazy stuff maybe we are related lol. Good luck with that method I think I know which one you're talking about. The 3 day ebook. I tried to follow the instructions until they told me to shove a
fucking enema up my ass, then I just gave up.
Basically you have to cleanse your whole body
and fast and eat nothing for 3 days but apples
and grape juice, along with the colon cleanse.
Maybe that's another one though.




And yeah it's crazy how no one else understands. They think that it's not such a big deal and you shouldn't fail because of acne, it's not like you have cancer or some shit. No
offense to anyone but I don't even know if I have
cancer and acne might be worse because it's
the first thing people see when you walk into a
classroom. Someone with cancer wouldn't even
have to tell the other person, but people with
acne can't hide it because it's the first thing a
person sees. EVERYONE else has flawless skin
then we walk in like total douches. I just don't
have the balls or enough inner strength to
withstand laughter or a "wash your face"
comment, because I feel like I would actually kill
myself then and there.


Please get to the top man. For me it's been a rollercoaster ride where I finally think it's healing, and then it comes back no matter what and I hit rock bottom again. Especially on one side of my face. I'm telling you we're definitely cursed if
yours comes back too.

Nah it's no book man it's skunk meat. I heard if you eat it a certain way it cures severe acne I been tryin to get it for awhile but for some reason it's illegal to bring it over from Mexico and I couldnt find it anywher here in USA until I met this dude who sells all kind if shit under the table if u catch my drift. We'll anyway if it works I will post next week if I stop posting chances are I'm dead.