I apreciate your response it has really cheered me up. And no i havent been to a dermatologist im too scared to go what if my acne gets worse than it already is, anyway you have a point about the whole being paralyzed or having cancer it just really sucks seeming to be the only one while everybody around me has perfect skin. Even though it doesnt compare to a cancer i still view acne like a desease. Thanks for the post.
hey sum1killme. i feel like you need the worlds biggest fair go right now. seems like life just kicks you when your down and then kicks you again. like a lot of people who have already responded, i relate to how your feeling. i too have skipped class too many times because of how i looked. i've also missed events, birthdays, family dinners, trips away etc, etc. i just want you to know that while a dermatologist might seem like a scary option, acne IS a disease, a hugely debilitating one. it has many different types (acne vulgaris is one particular form). i don't know if you've tried accutane, i read through and couldn't see anything mentioned, but i think your a very good candidate for it. i've taken it myself with outstanding results (logged here on acne.org) both my boyfriend and my ex had severe acne as teenagers and used accutane, my mother and sister both did courses, and i know many other people who have all used it successfully.
don't get me wrong, it is not a walk in the park. it is hard sometimes. it gets worse. it flares up. but then after a couple of weeks you see some clearing. and then a bit more. and then soon enough you have a whole new skin, its like brand new.
i've tried every holistic, dietary and non medical form of acne therapy. nothing works. it has to come from the inside. this form of acne does not care what you eat or what you put on your face. the only real changes come from changing the oil production glands themselves.
because i'm a girl i have a secondary component to acne, i suffer from cystic acne alone. it revolves entirely around my hormone cycle and i require the pill to regulate that. i've recently been taken off the pill for a period of 6 months, and low and behold my acne flared up. it held out for a good long while but in the last few weeks its shown its ugly head. i went to the derm and he gave me accutane. the best part is i won't have to take it for as long as the first time, and i know it works. the psychological horror is lessened because i have an end in sight. i want my life to be as full as it can be without worry.
please go and see a dermatologist for your own peace of mind. they are really going to help you. ask for accutane, don't waste your time with topicals or antibiotics. get your life back too.