i have been reading these forums for around 3 months and decided to treat myself with the TCA cross method. i was desperate and couldn't find anyone in my area that did it. i read enough and felt like i was educated on the proper application and risks. i bought the tca cross kit from julia's website. i was going to have laser resurfacing but because i still have active acne and am still on medication, i was told i'd have to wait till i was acne free (yeah, never then) and off my medication (oxytetracycline) for 12 months.
i did the cross yesterday afternoon and thought i was very careful and everything was going smooth. i had a nice frost on most scars. some didn't frost. i dipped the toothpick into the tca and applied it to the center of my scars, applying some pressure but not enough to break the skin. on some larger scars, i wiggled the toothpick a little. i did both of my cheeks and a couple i have on my forehead, they looked fine but my cheeks look horrific. i have mostly icepick scars, large scared pores, and a few boxcar scars. i think i have at least one of every acne type scar.
i'm now very depressed and anxious that i've made my scars 100x worse. i know it's only day 1 and i know things get better before they get worse, but this is worrying me. i have toothpick holes where my scars are, the toothpick has burned a different scar into my face. i'm very pale and my face is red raw. is this normal? it's hard to explain, so i've added some pictures (horrific, i know) i took them in harsh lightening so you can see the damage clearly. i honestly didn't think my skin could get any worse. is there any hope that this will heal? i'm not using anything on it, trying to just leave it be.
Edited by scarredhope19, 23 November 2011 - 09:17 AM.