Same stuff but no more back issues.
Today I looked at myself in the mirror and I felt a bit down.... My face is like full of patterns if you guys know what I mean...the texture isn't even at all. And my hyper pigmentation marks are more obvious looking now.
Question: will accutane make your skin look even? you know like a normal persons face? Will my face look normal when I finish accutane?
Ugh I have to get thus off my chest. So this semester I originally thought that I could find a girlfriend but now my skin is shit and my dream's crushed. Man I hate having acne haha... It kills you inside out... I can't even look into a mirror without being depressed about my own reflection. I can't even look at a person in the eye because I'm afraid to see their reactions. I want to be free but acne says no. Haha... And damnit I don't want to go anywhere I just want to hide in the house all day long. I'll complain more once I get home in case some of you are reading.
So i was on the transit to get home and I can feel some people look at me when I'm standing there waiting for my stop. They're probaly thinking wow, that guy is ugly and his face is messed up!
Life with acne sucks. I can only hope accutane would bring me out of my misery. I'm trying to be optimistic... sigh..
But I do have to thank acne as it differed me from the rest of the people, it made me experience things that most of the people won't ever in their life. It made me have a personality, good or bad. But if I didn't have acne I'd probably be a lot more happier now and look younger and I'd probably have a girlfriend. And I won't be complaining about this right now haha.. But you know... Things are unfair.
Edited by ihatemynose, 20 September 2011 - 06:04 PM.