Posted 28 August 2011 - 05:12 AM
hey dear...sorry I will write chaotic since I'm a little bit in a rush...but believe me girl. i understand you so well. im currently on accutane myself. i hope it will work. i hope it will for you too. and for everyone.
what i wanted to tell is do not let acne control your life, go out, enjoy your life, and this one is so important : dress nicely. it will give you confidence. it will show everyone that you do not care about your acne. it will give you energy. you know this..we create ourselves, not others, not acne, so , dont let it go into your perception of yourself. it's not worth. everyone can be beautiful, stylish, successful, cheerful with acne and without acne. it's the potential of a certain person, acne or no acne doesnt change much. it's the way we perceive and deal with it.
i know. i know. it sucks having it. it sucks having that oil on your face. it sucks seeing the pimples appear over and over again when you haven't done a single thing to provoke them coming, except caring about your skin extremely, putting time, effort, energy, hopes. i know darling. i know how it is.
but listen to me. it's your life. enjoy it. HAPPINESS IS A HARD WORK. so is friendship, so is life. but its soooooo rewarding. trust me. but we must fight for it and take what is ours. never give up. its hard at first, you need to literally force yourself. force yourself to go out, force yourself to wear a colorful dress instead of clothes that are like a shelter for our insecurities. once you wear something colorful, original or whatever is the style you like - you will be FORCED to be confident, because people will look at you. BELIEVE ME NO ONE CARES ABOUT OUR ACNE AS MUCH AS WE DO. you will be forced to keep your head up, you will be forced to walk straight and confident, you will be forced to make an eye contact, you will forced to smile. and once you will forced you will start to like it. once you will try, and win over yourself you will not ever want to stay in a shade any more, acne will become pretty much of a background. acne and the fight with it will become a stimulus to try even more, live to the fullest, work with yourself and your inner harmony, to achieve your goals and dreams. enough waiting. enough hiding. enough not wanting to go out, enough not wanting to see anyone. time is running out. feel it. CARPE DIEM. it's the best years of our lives. i dont know what are your reasons for not using the make up, but you can use it if it makes you feel better. you can use it on accutane as well. harm of make up is overrated. it is not doing much good to us, but the damage is truly overrated. i personally, do not use it. but i gave up using it for psychological reasons. it's everyones personal choice, so , do whats best for you. and i'll tell you what is best for you now - NEVER EVER GIVE UP. every failure on your journey is supposed to make you strive for your goal even more, but , be careful, do not obsess, be patient, be positive, do not close everything in yourself, share your sorrow of acne with the ones around you.don't try to deny that you have acne and hide instead..we should accept we have acne. and then we should say "so what?" we can stil lgo out, we can still communicate, we can still dress nicely, we can still wear our hair the way we want, we can do the most simplest things.most important - smile. do not tolerate the gloomy face in front of your mirror. it makes your red marks worse, it makes your complexion worse. ALWAYS. laughter and smile brings glow and happines to your face, believe me, it makes people BLIND, they hardly notice all your imperfections. you are perfect, anyway.
good luck for you, i wish you this from all my heart