I'll also be honest in that I've been seriously considering suicide. I just want my old life back, and i ff I vcan't get anywhere near this, what's the point of accepting and struggling with life as it is, and truely not living? It almost feels the dignified thing to do, to get out before it gets worse when your older. I'm finding just doing normal things and meeting family more increasingly difficult because i'm an absolute shadow of what i used to be,a nd don't want people seeing me like this. and as a viscous circle, this opens up there opinions of me to being "rude", and unsocial.
100% raw food doesn't work... did this for 2 years. As Chico said, milk thistle doesn't work. I tried literally everyjing that was supposed to be healthy and gave that up many years ago, because i kept geting dissapointed nothing worked.
I decided a few weeks ago I will try one last time to un-accutane myself, and try all of the liver flush tincures from SensibleHealth, as it's common knowldge the liver is hit hard by accutane, and the feedback from those that have taken these herbs from SensibleHealthalways seem to be good. Having found this board and found chico's posts about the bile flow, and generaly how accutane stays in the body in such detail, after i started taking these herbs, have also given me encouragement that this is the right thing to take if anyjthing can sort this out. 2 weeks in almost, my energy levels have increased, libido has dramatically increased, moving my fingers across my face, my skin feels slightly more moist, as are my lips, theyfeel more supple.last friday, a week into the herbs, i developed a big red lump with a big juicy whitehead on it on my chin. i rarely ever get these for years, but used to get these all the time before accutane.whether these differences last i don't know, as i've taken things before that seem different to begin with, but don't last. time will tell. this could also be nothing ot do with accutane. it's to early to make any conclusion.
obviously since i started the tinctures i found this board, and thi s post , and chico mentioned coconut oil. i have now taked 1 tablespoon as itfor the last 4-5 days, and i have to admit i makes me ever so slightly have less energy, escpially within 1-2 hours after taking. it's nothing near as bad like olive oil, which i see people have mentioned here, as im still able to take the coconut oil every day, and welcome the fat. olive oil i felt bad for up to a week and wouldn't even consider taking more. but i may watch the coconut oil.. it's harder to judge how the liver tinctures are working when you are taking more then 1 new thing at the same time to say how effective something is.
thanks chico for telling me you tired calcium d-glu..... and unfortunetely that it didn't work. thats 2 people now. unfortunately i did order some online, but I won't waste my time taking it.
chico - did or are you taking the liver tincutres from SensibleHealth, and if so, which ones, and did you feel they were doing you good or any benefits?
I'm sorry to hear about your bad experience with this drug. I know exactly how you feel, of course. Just the other day, I was having an argument with my girlfriend. I was so close to giving up. Driving + Depression/Suicidal thoughts don't mix well.
What pisses me off is that the pharm. industry poisons a load of teenagers and then leaves them to figure out the rest. I could go on about how we shouldn't be paying to try different supplements, but let's try not to get too depressed.
But, if I hear the word accutane/roaccutane, I immediately quiver. It's really messed with me. Went to the Zoo today and I just felt tired walking around, with sunglasses (it wasn't sunny) so people wouldn't see my eyes. Plus, I now have floaters which are very annoying.
Chico, you are now officially our King. Guide us back to health!
While at the Zoo though, I noted how perfectly designed the Zebras were. Perfectly symetrical. I'm not at all religious, but you have to admit someone's made them that way.
Fear is a huge issue for me now, because this drug has made me feel knackered, I worry how I'll be in 10 years. Or 20...
But Hope is always around the corner. It may not last long, but it always seems to come back. I get it with certain supplements, which turn out to do buggar all. I've got hope from this.
Chico, is it possible our digestive system's are that weak that they can't break down tablets? I got some artichokes in tablet form and I wonder how/if my body can even break them down. I have tried dozens of different tablets and they seem to have no effect on me at all now
I'm not a king and i dont have all the answers, i wish i did believe me. But the very first thing you have to do is address this destructive attitude, self pity is the most detrimental of all human emotions, it destroys everything and leaves only itself. You have to let that go, you have to let go your resentment for the drug, for your life subsequently. Your pride is stopping you...... thats fundemental....without that there is no healing. Your mindset is EVERYTHING. You wanna focus your energy on getting healthy.
Get to the core of your problem, your problem will be different to mine it's not always the exact same thing. Understand why and then go about changing it, don't take loads of supplements cut it right back. Get focused but not single minded.
Edited by Chico Esposito, 10 August 2011 - 08:14 AM.