Few things to say.
I've been making progress on the depression/anxiety front, but once again I've fallen again because these f*cking side effects take any joy from my life.
Gums (mostly around back teeth) keep bleeding every time I floss and brush.
My girlfriend keeps joking that my breath smells.
I find it hard to laugh though, as I don't want to have to be conscious about something ELSE.
I usually have a bad taste in my mouth, like blood.
I can assure you I'm not a Vampire... or Zombie.
I was considering going to my doctor's too get a fasting blood test done to check if I have diabetes.
Because Oil girl has it, it's always at the back of my mind, especially as food seems to make me sleepy and I generally have no energy.
Another thing that I'm worried about is moobs.
Nothing major, but if anything I'm underweight and yet my pecs are a bit boobish.
I pulled out some old blood test results and noted a few things:
1) Testosterone level is 12.6. The range is 9-35.00. Clearly this is a problem and my T. level is probably much lower than average for my age-range.
2) Bilirubin level is 19.00 (though I know it's been higher). The range is 0-20. I looked into this and beyond mere jaundice, this could indicate liver cell damage and obstruction to excretion of bile.
3) Neutrophil count is 1.75. The rage is 2.5-7.5. Low reading like this can mean body is less able to prevent/fight infections.
4) High Estradial level. I couldn't find the paperwork, but I know this was high for me. Not sure what it indicates, but I think it has to do with high estrogen... possibly causing moobs.
Erggh, sick of this fucking shit.
You may be stuck in a rut, but that's just how you feel today.
Never ever give up, because help is on it's way...