I feel like I'll never be satisfied until I look in the mirror and my face is flawless. I just wanna be normal and not live in the shadow of acne, always nervous that one day it'll come back and shake up my world again, so I get really anxious when anything pops up on my face, no matter how big or small.
I need to learn how to be grateful for my clearer skin now and stop holding myself to some lofty expectation of flawless, poreless skin. I keep waiting for the day when my skin is "perfect" so when I see any little flaw now, it just crushes me. I had a bad habit of picking at my face in the past, so I'm trying really hard not to fall into that right now. I don't want to mess up my face by trying to make it perfect by squeezing at any little imperfection I could find. Ugh, I wish that I wasn't so preoccupied with my skin... and I'm a guy! How nice would it be if everyone just had naturally baby soft skin their whole life!
If you saw my skin right now you'd swear I was crazy, but it really is a hard thing to deal with..
Edited by lightersUP, 19 July 2010 - 09:08 AM.