Warning, this will be VERY LONG! Lol
I have to first start off by saying that I was charting my progress with Differin over on the retinoid log forum, however, after a long due realization (I’ll explain this is a sec) I figured I need to try something that is probably a little more suited to what I need help with skin care-wise now. I was using Differin for scarring and pretty uneven skin texture, but sadly the good effects of it started to wear off literally less than 3 months since I started! I know they are more of a long term solution for the skin, but honestly, I just don’t think it’s something I am willing to wait for when there is a product that used to work so quickly and effectively for me. I’m definitely not knocking retinoids though. So….
This Monday I had a day off and had a new few spots pop up (from the stress, I am assuming) and it just wasn't a good skin day for me at all. What’s worse is that I would have expected the Differin I was using to have by now made me be really happy with my skin. WRONG! Anyways, I was going through my scrapbook of my time in New Zealand (I did a year long exchange there about 8 years ago). I just couldn't stop staring at myself in the pictures. I had the least amount of sleep, I ate horrible there, I was under extreme stress with always being busy and towards the end I was sad about leaving, yet excited to be coming home. My hormones were all over the place (I didn't have a period even while on birth control for almost 7 months!) and just overall my health was not the best it could be by any means. Don't get me wrong, that was the best year of my life and I could seriously cry missing all the international friends I made over there! Anyways, with ALL those crazy things going on with my health, you would think my skin would be fricken horrible. But in those pictures I am seriously clear...like model-baby clear skin. And the one thing I can remember oddly enough was that I barely worried about my skin. I mean as an exchange student you do TONS of weekend conferences and school trips and just adventuring, and I really don't think I wore much makeup at all that year just cause I didn't have the time or patience for it when you have weeks where you get maybe 4 hours sleep a night! I was trying to think, well how the hell was all that possible???
One word....Proactiv. Ok yes, this is like a stupid TV ad, but I don't care anymore. At that point I had been using it for about 3 years, and there is no way you would have looked at my skin and said that I ever dealt with acne. This got me WAY more upset because I looked at my skin in the mirror and thought how bad it has gotten and how stupid I was for ever getting off of it! I could still be clear today and never had the bad scarring I do. This makes me very sad
I bought one of those cheap drugstore knock offs and literally in like 3 days the BP had already started working. It was the Neutrogena system, and while I could just use that one instead, I really don't like how the day lotion and cleanser are. The lotion isn't enough moisture in the day and has ALOT of perfume in it, and the cleanser leaves me extrememly tight after washing....plus is smells absolutely disgusting and chemical like. But the night BP lotion was great...just not great enough for me to want to put up with the other two steps long term though.
So in a weaker point, I ordered the Proactiv system. The intial reason why I got off of it had nothing to do with results and dryness. In fact I don't remember ever having a problem with dryness, although I did use just a basic face moisturizer (Olay) so that may be why. I got off of Proactiv because of the cost and the fact that I had to use my mom's credit card for it. Remember this was 8 years ago, so there weren't any mall kiosks and vendng machines like there are now. I was going away to college and living on my own and I just couldn't afford that much a month and I had no way to pay for it either. I'm living on my own now and have a pretty good income so that's not a worry for me. Also I bought it through the shopping channel in Canada here, and I pay only $40 for the two month system (including the mask every two months too!), so unbelievably it's actually much cheaper than going through Proactiv itself. the Shopping Channel has a 60 day return policy, they break the payments into $20 a month and you can change the frequency they ship, just as you would Proactiv. I am so excited about the good deal they had going on when I bought it! And I actually went and bought a 30 day kit at the mall last night just because I couldn't wait two weeks for the shipping, so ya. Like it says at the top, Day 1 starts today!!
I also love the fact that I won't need to rely on Rx med's anymore. I have never been a big prescription person and I have actually been having problems with my birth control causing unexpected and painful side effects, so I have been super tempted to stop using all prescritions together, including Differin. I would love to be able to not have to rely on these pharmaceuticals, because let's face it, there will be a day that I start trying to conceive and have children, and then I won't be allowed to use either Differin or birth control to help my skin. What the hell will my skin be like then?? I shudder to think. The great thing about Proactiv. It doesn't change anything internally like hormones and what-not, and it can be used when I'm pregnant, breastfeeding, WHENEVER! I don't know about other girls, but the thought that I won't ever have to get off this system if I don't want to is very reassuring. Better skin just feels like such a temporary thing with all the Rx stuff I'm on!
Ok, I know this is quite long enough, so I am going to say this. I know Proactive is REALLY hated on this board but I don't care at this point. These logs are for myself and anyone who really does want to hear about my progress. Any questions or whatever I will answer them, but please try and keep the Proactiv bashing or any rude comments to yourself. I am not feeling the greatest about myself still and of course I'm questioning my decision, so anything rude you have to say, trust me...I've thought worse of me already!
Edited by babyblueeyes, 15 June 2010 - 07:54 PM.