I need support. I hate myself right now. It's not like my acne has gotten worse, but it makes me sick to my stomach whenever I look in the mirror or have somebody comment on my skin. I came home today and found a monster whitehead on my chin. It started oozing out puss from both sides of the whitehead, so I didn't care and just carefully got all of the puss out and it's slowly healing now. Doesn't look bad at all, but I can't help but shed a tear whenever I look at myself. I might be acting like a little bitch, but that's because my douche of a father wouldn't stop telling me that I look disgusting for at least two months straight, so my confidence hasn't been that high for the past six months. I haven't posted any pictures, so I know how hard it is for you guys to judge my skin without seeing it, but I'm not keen on getting mixed reactions. My skin isn't severe, it's just moderate, but all I want is a clear face. It's easy to ask for one, but it's virtually impossible for me to get one. This is what happened today.
Friend: Hey Harrison.
Me: Hey man.
Friend: Dude, that whitehead is ready to go.
Me: I'm aware of it.
Friend: Want me to pop it for you?
Me: Just drop it. Please.
Doesn't sound like much, but that's all he comments on. My skin. I know that he has pretty bad acne on his chest and back, so I guess he knows where I'm coming from, but he has such a clear face and it makes me sick. Lucky bastard. I want girls to like me for who I am. Not because I have acne. I'm not bragging, but I've been told by girls before acne that I'm gorgeous. Now, all girls do is look at me and not my eyes. No direct eye contact. I can see their eyes moving around and I can just tell that they're glancing at my acne. All I want is for acne to burn in hell and never bother any human being again. It can cause so much for one person and for acne to do that to just one innocent person, I can't help but hate it so much that if it were real, I would kill it over and over again with a smile on my face. However, I have learnt a lot from acne. I just go out and not care what people think of me. Sure, I get looks from ignorant pricks, but that doesn't matter, because what they think isn't important. I'm out. That's my two cents.
Yeah, my Dad only comments my skin when it is bad. I've been breaking out with some acne for like almost 2 months. I was clear prior to 2 months. My forehead is terrible, I wouldn't let anyone touch my hair or forehead. ^^;; I had bad acne on forehead before, but then haven't broke out for MONTHSSS so scars wasn't that 't bad.. but since I broke out with some ugly ones.. I might have ugly scars. I guess no more haircut for me.. other part of my forehead is mild.. I have like 5 on right cheek and like 4-5 on left.. mostly tiny.. but still annoying because it noticeable and I am not counting the redness ;\ I have a few redness because of acne I had a few weeks ago. It takes a while to heal on cheeks and forehead, so I hate to break out on those areas. Anyways, who cares about people, just ignore them and don't look at them. I'm a happy person, so I don't do that. I smile. ^^;; but I am a little depressed.. I got a 64 on exam 3 because of stupid acne. I could easily get a 90.. around. Even the easiest questions, I got them wrong. As for a girl, don't worry! It is not like a clear skin would get you get laid many times, etc. lol A girl who likes a person with acne, truly loves him. If a girl don't like a guy because of acne.. then she only goes for look.. not worth it
^I can relate to your frustration. I'm sick and tired of this. People with clear skin have no idea how easy they have it.
I woke up to cystic acne all over my jawline - really painful and so sore. I have to go into uni to hand my work in. I just put my foundation on, but it makes it look so much worse like I have some disease erupting all over my face so I wiped it off. I'm sitting here so depressed because I can't even face going to uni with my skin like this. I keep crying but I know the stress will make it worse. My family keeps asking me to go out for dinner with them to celebrate my sisters birthday, but the feeling of people staring at my face is something I really can't handle. I feel defeated,
So Cystic appears out of no where? No little bumps at first? Just wondering. I say don't go because you're gonna stress a lot. ;\
i had little bumps but i kinda thought i wouldn't wake up to cystic acne because I haven't had that kind of painful cystic acne for ages. maybe its stress. I feel a little better today because I've been moisturizing quite a bit so my skin looks better. i ended up going to uni because I had to hand some work in and felt better once I saw friends and we were catching up and just chatting normally. My best friend who normally has gorgeous skin has started breaking out recently and it has got quite bad, I feel terrible for her because I know how she feels but also I'm glad we can talk about it and understand how we both feel.