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[hayleyx90]

I need support. I hate myself right now. It's not like my acne has gotten worse, but it makes me sick to my stomach whenever I look in the mirror or have somebody comment on my skin. I came home today and found a monster whitehead on my chin. It started oozing out puss from both sides of the whitehead, so I didn't care and just carefully got all of the puss out and it's slowly healing now. Doesn't look bad at all, but I can't help but shed a tear whenever I look at myself. I might be acting like a little bitch, but that's because my douche of a father wouldn't stop telling me that I look disgusting for at least two months straight, so my confidence hasn't been that high for the past six months. I haven't posted any pictures, so I know how hard it is for you guys to judge my skin without seeing it, but I'm not keen on getting mixed reactions. My skin isn't severe, it's just moderate, but all I want is a clear face. It's easy to ask for one, but it's virtually impossible for me to get one. This is what happened today.

Friend: Hey Harrison.
Me: Hey man.
Friend: Dude, that whitehead is ready to go.
Me: I'm aware of it.
Friend: Want me to pop it for you?
Me: Just drop it. Please.

Doesn't sound like much, but that's all he comments on. My skin. I know that he has pretty bad acne on his chest and back, so I guess he knows where I'm coming from, but he has such a clear face and it makes me sick. Lucky bastard. I want girls to like me for who I am. Not because I have acne. I'm not bragging, but I've been told by girls before acne that I'm gorgeous. Now, all girls do is look at me and not my eyes. No direct eye contact. I can see their eyes moving around and I can just tell that they're glancing at my acne. All I want is for acne to burn in hell and never bother any human being again. It can cause so much for one person and for acne to do that to just one innocent person, I can't help but hate it so much that if it were real, I would kill it over and over again with a smile on my face. However, I have learnt a lot from acne. I just go out and not care what people think of me. Sure, I get looks from ignorant pricks, but that doesn't matter, because what they think isn't important. I'm out. That's my two cents.

Yeah, my Dad only comments my skin when it is bad. I've been breaking out with some acne for like almost 2 months. I was clear prior to 2 months. My forehead is terrible, I wouldn't let anyone touch my hair or forehead. ^^;; I had bad acne on forehead before, but then haven't broke out for MONTHSSS so scars wasn't that 't bad.. but since I broke out with some ugly ones.. I might have ugly scars. I guess no more haircut for me.. other part of my forehead is mild.. I have like 5 on right cheek and like 4-5 on left.. mostly tiny.. but still annoying because it noticeable and I am not counting the redness ;\ I have a few redness because of acne I had a few weeks ago. It takes a while to heal on cheeks and forehead, so I hate to break out on those areas. Anyways, who cares about people, just ignore them and don't look at them. I'm a happy person, so I don't do that. I smile. ^^;; but I am a little depressed.. I got a 64 on exam 3 because of stupid acne. I could easily get a 90.. around. Even the easiest questions, I got them wrong. As for a girl, don't worry! It is not like a clear skin would get you get laid many times, etc. lol A girl who likes a person with acne, truly loves him. If a girl don't like a guy because of acne.. then she only goes for look.. not worth it

^I can relate to your frustration. I'm sick and tired of this. People with clear skin have no idea how easy they have it.
I woke up to cystic acne all over my jawline - really painful and so sore. I have to go into uni to hand my work in. I just put my foundation on, but it makes it look so much worse like I have some disease erupting all over my face so I wiped it off. I'm sitting here so depressed because I can't even face going to uni with my skin like this. I keep crying but I know the stress will make it worse. My family keeps asking me to go out for dinner with them to celebrate my sisters birthday, but the feeling of people staring at my face is something I really can't handle. I feel defeated,

So Cystic appears out of no where? No little bumps at first? Just wondering. I say don't go because you're gonna stress a lot. ;\

i had little bumps but i kinda thought i wouldn't wake up to cystic acne because I haven't had that kind of painful cystic acne for ages. maybe its stress. I feel a little better today because I've been moisturizing quite a bit so my skin looks better. i ended up going to uni because I had to hand some work in and felt better once I saw friends and we were catching up and just chatting normally. My best friend who normally has gorgeous skin has started breaking out recently and it has got quite bad, I feel terrible for her because I know how she feels but also I'm glad we can talk about it and understand how we both feel.

[Ghostunit]

I need support. I hate myself right now. It's not like my acne has gotten worse, but it makes me sick to my stomach whenever I look in the mirror or have somebody comment on my skin. I came home today and found a monster whitehead on my chin. It started oozing out puss from both sides of the whitehead, so I didn't care and just carefully got all of the puss out and it's slowly healing now. Doesn't look bad at all, but I can't help but shed a tear whenever I look at myself. I might be acting like a little bitch, but that's because my douche of a father wouldn't stop telling me that I look disgusting for at least two months straight, so my confidence hasn't been that high for the past six months. I haven't posted any pictures, so I know how hard it is for you guys to judge my skin without seeing it, but I'm not keen on getting mixed reactions. My skin isn't severe, it's just moderate, but all I want is a clear face. It's easy to ask for one, but it's virtually impossible for me to get one. This is what happened today.

Friend: Hey Harrison.
Me: Hey man.
Friend: Dude, that whitehead is ready to go.
Me: I'm aware of it.
Friend: Want me to pop it for you?
Me: Just drop it. Please.

Doesn't sound like much, but that's all he comments on. My skin. I know that he has pretty bad acne on his chest and back, so I guess he knows where I'm coming from, but he has such a clear face and it makes me sick. Lucky bastard. I want girls to like me for who I am. Not because I have acne. I'm not bragging, but I've been told by girls before acne that I'm gorgeous. Now, all girls do is look at me and not my eyes. No direct eye contact. I can see their eyes moving around and I can just tell that they're glancing at my acne. All I want is for acne to burn in hell and never bother any human being again. It can cause so much for one person and for acne to do that to just one innocent person, I can't help but hate it so much that if it were real, I would kill it over and over again with a smile on my face. However, I have learnt a lot from acne. I just go out and not care what people think of me. Sure, I get looks from ignorant pricks, but that doesn't matter, because what they think isn't important. I'm out. That's my two cents.

Yeah, my Dad only comments my skin when it is bad. I've been breaking out with some acne for like almost 2 months. I was clear prior to 2 months. My forehead is terrible, I wouldn't let anyone touch my hair or forehead. ^^;; I had bad acne on forehead before, but then haven't broke out for MONTHSSS so scars wasn't that 't bad.. but since I broke out with some ugly ones.. I might have ugly scars. I guess no more haircut for me.. other part of my forehead is mild.. I have like 5 on right cheek and like 4-5 on left.. mostly tiny.. but still annoying because it noticeable and I am not counting the redness ;\ I have a few redness because of acne I had a few weeks ago. It takes a while to heal on cheeks and forehead, so I hate to break out on those areas. Anyways, who cares about people, just ignore them and don't look at them. I'm a happy person, so I don't do that. I smile. ^^;; but I am a little depressed.. I got a 64 on exam 3 because of stupid acne. I could easily get a 90.. around. Even the easiest questions, I got them wrong. As for a girl, don't worry! It is not like a clear skin would get you get laid many times, etc. lol A girl who likes a person with acne, truly loves him. If a girl don't like a guy because of acne.. then she only goes for look.. not worth it

^I can relate to your frustration. I'm sick and tired of this. People with clear skin have no idea how easy they have it.
I woke up to cystic acne all over my jawline - really painful and so sore. I have to go into uni to hand my work in. I just put my foundation on, but it makes it look so much worse like I have some disease erupting all over my face so I wiped it off. I'm sitting here so depressed because I can't even face going to uni with my skin like this. I keep crying but I know the stress will make it worse. My family keeps asking me to go out for dinner with them to celebrate my sisters birthday, but the feeling of people staring at my face is something I really can't handle. I feel defeated,

So Cystic appears out of no where? No little bumps at first? Just wondering. I say don't go because you're gonna stress a lot. ;\

i had little bumps but i kinda thought i wouldn't wake up to cystic acne because I haven't had that kind of painful cystic acne for ages. maybe its stress. I feel a little better today because I've been moisturizing quite a bit so my skin looks better. i ended up going to uni because I had to hand some work in and felt better once I saw friends and we were catching up and just chatting normally. My best friend who normally has gorgeous skin has started breaking out recently and it has got quite bad, I feel terrible for her because I know how she feels but also I'm glad we can talk about it and understand how we both feel.

Aw. Yeah, that's why I don't want to search for bumps because I stress out. That sucks for your friend! it has gotten bad that fast? Dang! Wonder what she ate

[masterwong888]

Welll...i'm still breaking out, But, i'm feeling fine I found out my Cousin is gonna get married in 6 months and that was a surprise. So that means i have a deadline to get clearer skin. But 6 months is along time and with persistance i think i can do it

[MissPandaPoP]

Having one of those sad days today. I've been taking isotretinoin (40mg) and am on my second month of treatment. I know that my reason for being sad is a side effect so I will just keep my chin up and carry on. My spots have been clearing up, still get some on the odd occasion like on my back and stuff but nothing I'm not use to :L

"Don't worry, be happy"

[VitaminofLove333]

Still adore Duac, still pretty much clear. But ,yes I get the occasional zit or two. For some reason i get these really slight bumps on my cheeks, theyre never red or big or irriated or noticable, or even really zit. I guess its becuase I dont exfolaite much anymore to lower irriation. Anyways I have one on the corner of ym cheek, you cant see it, but its not a zit, idk. Whatever. Not a probelm(: So I had a small pinkish prick on my forehead last night, but my meds on it and its pretty much gone. Like a little colorless grain of sand at the most. Not evenreally counting either. My cheeks were odd a few days ago, but have totally calmed down and looking a wee thirsty (not burnt or super dry or chafing or flaking, jus dull and little dehydrated) I do have a small zit in the crease on my chin -_- Never get zits down there, but have been resting my hands on my face or vice versa lately. Ah well, its not inflamed, just a little zit, meds should tame it in a day or two. I found this bumpless pink spot aobve the side of my noostril. If Ive mentioned I dont care much about the occasional nose whiteheads since theyre around my nostril, no one sees, no one cares. So, I proabably have one document worthy zit total and it is on my chin. (: Rest of face is totally clear, pigmenation still fading. HOORAY

Chin ones getting a wee rosy. Whatever, itis a small zit. I need to stop touching it. Aha. I dont pick my zits, and drive my nails in oranytihng. I do lightly run my fingersoverthem though.

[*Can*I*Live*]

stressed

[poi6]

Bad

[Ghostunit]

Today, my skin looks a little better. My forehead is doing OK, but I still see blackheads, so I expect to break out some more soon. Almost all my pimples on forehead are dry. Thinking of just letting my blakcheads heal by itself 'cause I tried baking sodas and ACV and still there.Don't know what else to try that is natural.

Edited by EddieE, 03 April 2012 - 05:44 PM.

[IronBull]

Better. Came home from school today and found out that I may have a whitehead near my lip and my scars are slowly fading away. Going to have a shower. Hope my skin feels fresh and energized once I'm out.

[makethatchange]

I'm still feeling lousy. I try not to analyze my skin in the mirror too much though because then I'd start picking and panicking and trying to scratch imperfections away lol...we all know that's a really bad idea! And my rosacea is just depressing me. ugh. People used to make comments I look pale like a ghost. I actually miss that!

[hayleyx90]

i thought my skin might be starting to improve yesterday, but today its looking ten times worse. i had to pop out to get groceries down the road so had no makeup on and bumped into a friend i hadn't seen in 5 years. When she knew me I had no acne, she was talking to me and just looked horrified !! and i just ate a big tub of ben and jerrys ice cream with my sis ..don't think thats gonna help my skin!! but it made me feel better for about 10 mins!! x

[Ghostunit]

Face is getting better. When I looked in the mirror at gym, which I can easily see tiny bumps under skin that will form soon.. well, I didn't see any at all.. My forehead has a lot because of blackheads! Argh.. but I am glad that's the only area where I will break out. And yeah, I broke out with 3-4 zits close to each other.. one is kinda big and other are small, but it is red, so it looks bad.. those are noticeable, I can't cover them with my hair. >_>;; hopefully that area doesn't get bad like the other one which is very bad..

Edited by EddieE, 04 April 2012 - 12:33 PM.

[Ghostunit]

So today my skin looks great! Except on forehead. Since I can cover most dry pimples, but did broke out with new zits which I can't cover at all because it is located near eyebrows. I do break out just on forehead due to blackheads. I am going to try BHA or something to remove these blackheads. Other than that, my skin feels so SMOOTH, not oily, etc. Even my forehead feels smooth, but I still break out

[hayleyx90]

^^ glad your skins looking better wish I could say the same!! Got work tomorrow and really don't want to go. I work in retail serving customers all day and really don't want to face anyone. On the bbright side I have one week till my derm appt where hopefully I'll be prescribed accutane.
Xx h

[Ghostunit]

^^ glad your skins looking better wish I could say the same!! Got work tomorrow and really don't want to go. I work in retail serving customers all day and really don't want to face anyone. On the bbright side I have one week till my derm appt where hopefully I'll be prescribed accutane.
Xx h

Aw, I am sorry to hear that. Since you want accutane, I am assuming it is getting bad? I am almost certain that you're still beautiful. I've seen a lot of chicks here with lots of bad scars that was very noticeable and acne, but I found them all attractive. ^^;; I hope your skin gets better soon! Keep eating healthy, it will hopefully get better

[poi6]

Bad... Acnes getting worse

Bad... Acnes getting worse

[hayleyx90]

Aw thank you eddie you're lovely!!
Made me feel tons better! My doc described my acne as mild-moderate but because its persistant and it bothers me a lot he said he will write a referal letter to the derm for accutane. I am quite excited to try it now feel like I've exhausted all the other options.
I'm just about to head off to work tried to cover up my acne with my makeup . I really don't feel like going especially cause my ex boyfriend is working today and I don't wanna see him! :s
Really do not want to face customers today either. I'm so tired just wanna wipe my makeup off and go back to bed. I've got a painful spot on my chin as well can't stop thinking about it!
Xxxx

[itsmedeano]

I feel so terrible today. I looked in the mirror for the first time today, this morning, before my morning shower, and just broke down in tears due to the severity my face is in today. I feel like all I want to do is just stay in and hibernate for a few weeks. I feel so crap.

[Ghostunit]

Aw thank you eddie you're lovely!!
Made me feel tons better! My doc described my acne as mild-moderate but because its persistant and it bothers me a lot he said he will write a referal letter to the derm for accutane. I am quite excited to try it now feel like I've exhausted all the other options.
I'm just about to head off to work tried to cover up my acne with my makeup . I really don't feel like going especially cause my ex boyfriend is working today and I don't wanna see him! :s
Really do not want to face customers today either. I'm so tired just wanna wipe my makeup off and go back to bed. I've got a painful spot on my chin as well can't stop thinking about it!
Xxxx

Aw thank you eddie you're lovely!!
Made me feel tons better! My doc described my acne as mild-moderate but because its persistant and it bothers me a lot he said he will write a referal letter to the derm for accutane. I am quite excited to try it now feel like I've exhausted all the other options.
I'm just about to head off to work tried to cover up my acne with my makeup . I really don't feel like going especially cause my ex boyfriend is working today and I don't wanna see him! :s
Really do not want to face customers today either. I'm so tired just wanna wipe my makeup off and go back to bed. I've got a painful spot on my chin as well can't stop thinking about it!
Xxxx

Np, hun! <3
That's OK, it is not like customers will go home and think about your skin. Just smile!! They will notice that you're a happy girl, even with acne.

Anyways, I hate my skin during day light. At night, my skin looks better. I will just ignore my skin during the day ;; I got like 1-2 new zits on forehead.. I keep getting pimples on forehead. I am going to order BHA 2% from Paula's choice to get rid of blackheads. That's why I am breaking out like crazy on forehead.

Edited by EddieE, 06 April 2012 - 09:00 AM.

[Spotthedifference]

I'm feelin' good today! The bumps under my skin on my forehead have all come out, popped and scabbed over, the spots on my left cheek are scabbing over and on my right cheek they're becoming flatter. Still not happy about my hyperpigmentation but it'll fade soon enough.

I'm not sure why but once they reach the scabbing stage I don't consider them spots anymore and think of them as cuts instead, which for some reason I'm not as bothered by.

Edited by Spotthedifference, 07 April 2012 - 07:30 AM.