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#7501 leelowe1

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Posted 16 April 2015 - 07:47 PM

Reading through these, I can so relate.  May of  last year I started using Paula's Choice. I started the regular strength toner 2x a day and it was rough at first, but then my skin did start to improve. I actually had some clear days. And every day my skin was clear, I thought, wow is this how other people feel (not having to constantly think about their skin, or cry in front of mirrors, or feel ugly/embarrassed/depressed??). I really thought I found something. I knew salycycilc acid worked fairly well for me as I had some succes with stridex years back. But I think my conclusion is:
 
My skin is just stupid.
 
After a year----I'm still getting painful cysts. No, my spots are not coming up smaller and resolving faster like I thought. I'm back to wincing when I look in the mirror and feeling like I'm NEVER going to get where I want to be.
 
My initial response to everyone above is to hang in there and keep going, but then I think about myself and really I'm just tired. I'm tired of trying. It's not really hopelessness but more acceptance. It just is what it is. After 15 years of dealing with this in one way or another (various degrees of severity), I'm of the mind that my skin just sucks. I don't know why. It doesn't shed right, it makes too much oil.. who knows. I know I always get little clog seeds that come out of every bump..so my lining is inefficient or something. But, I tried stuff to address that and while many of my pores look good, I still obviously have problem areas. Should I bump up to the 2% gel and just purge everything out and deal with the aftermath? Should I try this or that??  *shrug*
 
UGH I'm just tired of having to think of a strategy and constantly try to battle my skin. It's exhausting and honestly I devote way too many hours of every day focusing on my skin. A sad thought is.. if I met someone that I knew from 10 years ago, or even 5, and haven't seen since then, I would STILL have the SAME skin and they would probably think, wow even after all this time they are still dealing with that. :( That's a pretty sad realization...


Calendula, I feel you on everything you said. I am at that point where I just want to say to hell with it and pretend that I don't have acne. No one in my family struggles like I do and can't understand how I feel. My relationship with God and my friend and family is what makes dealing with this bearable. I think if I quit having all these expectations, I would be a much content person. It's just like a person with a birthmark - they live with it but after a while, it becomes a natural part of them.

It's a rocky road but like everything else in life, there is always a beginning and an end.  Here's to finding my end.

 

God is good to me..........more than I deserve.

 

James 1:2-4

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.


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Posted 16 April 2015 - 10:08 PM

Reading through these, I can so relate.  May of  last year I started using Paula's Choice. I started the regular strength toner 2x a day and it was rough at first, but then my skin did start to improve. I actually had some clear days. And every day my skin was clear, I thought, wow is this how other people feel (not having to constantly think about their skin, or cry in front of mirrors, or feel ugly/embarrassed/depressed??). I really thought I found something. I knew salycycilc acid worked fairly well for me as I had some succes with stridex years back. But I think my conclusion is:
 
My skin is just stupid.
 
After a year----I'm still getting painful cysts. No, my spots are not coming up smaller and resolving faster like I thought. I'm back to wincing when I look in the mirror and feeling like I'm NEVER going to get where I want to be.
 
My initial response to everyone above is to hang in there and keep going, but then I think about myself and really I'm just tired. I'm tired of trying. It's not really hopelessness but more acceptance. It just is what it is. After 15 years of dealing with this in one way or another (various degrees of severity), I'm of the mind that my skin just sucks. I don't know why. It doesn't shed right, it makes too much oil.. who knows. I know I always get little clog seeds that come out of every bump..so my lining is inefficient or something. But, I tried stuff to address that and while many of my pores look good, I still obviously have problem areas. Should I bump up to the 2% gel and just purge everything out and deal with the aftermath? Should I try this or that??  *shrug*
 
UGH I'm just tired of having to think of a strategy and constantly try to battle my skin. It's exhausting and honestly I devote way too many hours of every day focusing on my skin. A sad thought is.. if I met someone that I knew from 10 years ago, or even 5, and haven't seen since then, I would STILL have the SAME skin and they would probably think, wow even after all this time they are still dealing with that. :( That's a pretty sad realization...


Calendula, I feel you on everything you said. I am at that point where I just want to say to hell with it and pretend that I don't have acne. No one in my family struggles like I do and can't understand how I feel. My relationship with God and my friend and family is what makes dealing with this bearable. I think if I quit having all these expectations, I would be a much content person. It's just like a person with a birthmark - they live with it but after a while, it becomes a natural part of them.
leelowe1

Same here about no one in the family. Well, ok my teenage son. lol Poor kid got his skin from me apparently, though his look like what I call "normal type" and not bulging cystic. My husband never washes his face and has like nonexistent pores. I've never once seen him with anything near a cyst in the 16 years of marriage. He gets tiny "regular" pimples once every 6months or so. Very rarely and they go away without him even treating them. My husband has only made mention one time about my skin...we were talking about the products my son wanted me to buy him for his face and my husband said, "I guess he got that from you." :( It wasn't in a mean way, and really I think it slipped out without him meaning to say it. But, it did cut me deep. I just said, "I guess so..but I never had problem skin in school. Not until I became pregnant did my skin start acting up." I've read that if your parents suffered adult onset you would, too. Neither of my parents had this problem. My brother doesn't have it. I'm the oddball out and I live healthier than any of them. ha! It may not go anywhere anytime soon. I read something saying people well into the 40s, 50s and even 60s+ still deal with it. The only thing that depresses me more than dealing with it now, is the thought of still dealing with it when I'm a grandma.

 

Well, enough boohooing! I guess we all have crosses to bear and maybe this one is mine. Maybe I'm supposed to learn something from it. lol At least all of my contacts (friends/family/acquaintances) never say anything. I am very thankful for that.



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Posted 17 April 2015 - 09:55 AM

wow, haven't been on this site in a while. i managed to clear my acne up completely for a few months using The Regimen, but a week ago I stupidly drank a glass of milk (which I've found out to be a huge trigger to my cystic acne), so now I'm dealing with a big cluster of cysts on my jaw, chin and cheek. i'm pretty pissed at myself because not only do I have to manage the breakout, but now I have to dry my skin out to get rid of it, and it takes an additional 2~ish weeks to re-hydrate my dry skin. eugh! acne is the worst. 



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Posted 19 April 2015 - 07:12 PM

Acne wise, feeling fed up, frustrated and lonely. I am doing everything humanly possible to treat it and it makes no difference. Thanking God for the many gifts in life he has given me and praying for the ability to see the positive in this ongoing battle.

It's a rocky road but like everything else in life, there is always a beginning and an end.  Here's to finding my end.

 

God is good to me..........more than I deserve.

 

James 1:2-4

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.


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Posted 19 April 2015 - 09:21 PM

Holy shit, it's been years since i've been on this site. 

 

This thread is still going! xD.

 

 

Man, looking at you all now makes me really hope you'll understand that acne isnt a big deal at all, and that the only thing holding you back is your lack of self confidence. 


Edited by poi6, 19 April 2015 - 09:23 PM.


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Posted Yesterday, 07:29 AM

My face just sucks. And I suck, too. I make everything worse with my compulsive picking. Why can't I just leave my face alone?



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Posted Yesterday, 10:45 AM

Absolutely depressed with it today's to the point where I didn't go to work.

I shaved with a razor as opposed to a beard trimmer yesterday for the first time in years and I remember why! My skin and pitted scarring look dreadful

I don't usually get spots anymore but I have today. I can't understand why my scarring looks so much worse when I don't have stubble. Maybe I'm just kidding myself


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