Not feelin' so great. I'll be the first to admit that I used to be vain. I was never mean. I never pointed out if anyone had an acne problem, or a big nose, or maybe needed to lose a few pounds. I was considered ugly all throughout middle school and then I got pretty. It's wrong I know, but being pretty and being a model was my only sense of self-worth. Now, that's all been taken away. I used to be able to have any guy I wanted, now no guys even give me a second glance. I would never sweat worrying if a boyfriend left me because I knew I'd find someone else. If that were to happen now and my boyfriend left me, I'd never get a new boyfriend because I'm so ugly. Right now I have two small pimples on my forehead and one on my lower right cheek. The left side of my face is a mess with a big painful zit on my upper cheek and my lower jawline near my chin, not to mention that weird rash that will not go away. The nodule between my brows is a lot less red and it isn't as painful, but it's still there. I didn't wear any makeup today and I feel like complete garbage. Only 2 days left of fall break and I'm afraid to go back to school. I'd give anything to look like a normal human being again.
I feel the same as you do. I considered myself ugly untill 2 years ago, when spiro cleared me completely. Well it was the first time in my life i could feel some confidence. And six months ago these b@stards-sorry but this is really the way i feel- discontinued it. There is no generic here, just the original aldactone. However i didn't break out at first.. so when it became available again the stupid idea crossed my mind: that perhaps my skin just decided to be normal. Then it started breaking out with dairy and i was even more stupid to think that it's alright, i will just exclude milk. It worked at first.. then the same with nuts, then something else.. and here i am now, with all this pain again, all the red marks that took months or years to disappear are here again. I started again spiro, it's been a month now and guess what... i don't think it's working like the first time! I break out every other day even though i try to eat as healthy as i can when the first time i would eat ice cream or chocolate and the next day there was nothing or maybe one pimple but tiny. What was i thinking? It's me, i know me, i will never be normal at anything. I wonder how and why i was so lucky (or rather unlucky) not to have some serious lethal problem as a fetus or infant.
My Msc started today and i went without make up, i tried to hide as much as possible and thankfully noone asked what happend to my skin. I hope your schoolmates will be discreet as well. We will find the way..
By the way does somebody know if AHA 10% is suitable for active acne and unclogging pores?