One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations?
that was certainly not inevitable.
by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.
u need a good shout n
Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.
Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone needs to indulge once in a while. Just forget about it, and eat healthy the day after to make up for it. As for homesickness, I can relate. I haven't seen my family in almost 2 years and am too broke to afford a plane ticket to go visit them. Talking with your family on the phone or skype can help though.
...2 years? Oh dear... and i was cribbing about my 10 months.
i dnt think u're a spoilt brat now.
i used to think that earlier at times.this just makes u seem more attached and more emotional than others ur age.i totally relate because thats just my story.
the exception being when and if am gone to hostel ,i just cant be away for so many mnths at a stretch so either my mum visits me or i come to her.
in the beginning it will be as often as once a mnth visit may be.lol!
then i'd fly here on bigger festivals and she'll come visit very 2-3 mnths.
thankfully its easier and cheaper to book flights these days from these online sites
I wanted to visit my cousin sisters on Raksha Bandhan,but i have my GMAT coaching.I can't even meet my parents this Diwali and Dussehra ...Hopefully they would meet me ...Yes i get attached to people very easily.I'm naive,i'm gullible...People take advantage of me. haha ...this world is full of unreliable people.
And yes,fortunately flights have become cheaper.Earlier Delhi to Dehradun was 8,000.Now it's around 4,000.Or 3,000 if i'm lucky .But it's hardly 260 kms. so Volvo bus is a good bet.But even then i get to see my parents once a year and that is during the summer vacations LOL.
if u r very close to ur sisters,then i understand its sad.but otherwise i dont think u should worry too much about raksha bandhan in this stage of life.
remember,these few years is gonna make or break u.
i keep saying that to myself.
i am more and most attached to my family(parents and few relatives) otherwise i have very very few frnds who i am okay not meeting often, really.in fact i havent met them in 1-2 or even 3 years.
but i NEED to see my mum very often and also talk to her several times a day(even if its for 2-5 minutes).
actually this is the 1st time am gonna ever stay away from my house.so it IS a big deal for ME too.
i am gonna come here in durga puja for a few days i suppose.
not diwali or laxmi puja though(which are celebrated big way in my house).but anyway!
like i told u..keep telling urself 'all this will show results someday.its all necessary'.
plus,i am gonna have such tight schedule..i will probably not have time to even miss people properly.
i will have to invest atleast12-13 hours in books everyday religiously plus take care of household stuff.
(i am lil' freaky freaky when it comes to cleaning,germ free everything and i'm also gonna make oats or sattu or cut fruits for myself instead of/ along with food served in the cafeteria.)
anyway,sorry i rambled.
i was actually trying to help ur issue.lol!
i dnt know.
i am just gonna be there,do whats needed.
and take small breaks and come here,talk to u guys and with my family here.
i suggest u do the same.
i am always there if u need someone to talk to lil' bro!;p
i know that not meeting frnds for years sounds gross.but honestly i have close frnds among them and its all okay.
but my closest among them all is anyway a penpal who lives in the US.we exchange emails about 3-4 times a week now if not regularly.
its something very defeating for me - i feel very bad considering that everybody has this group of 'great' frnds or u know bestest buds while i dnt have any such group or anyone i talk discuss my daily life with.
but i am hopeful.and i am sure i will find frnds or atleast a frnd who's just what i need and i am just what he/she needs.=)
*fairy like feelings*
Edited by aanabill, 06 August 2013 - 12:39 AM.