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#5881 aanabill

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Posted 03 August 2013 - 12:55 PM

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout now!crazy.gif


Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??
http://www.acne.org/...-with-pictures/
 
huge pores
http://www.acne.org/...dwith-pictures/
 
indented scar
http://www.acne.org/...iswith-picture/
 
oils used for cooking
http://www.acne.org/...oilgood-or-bad/
 
inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores
http://www.acne.org/...twith-pictures/
 
my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)
http://www.acne.org/...food-allergies/
http://www.acne.org/...incare-routine/
 

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Posted 03 August 2013 - 02:46 PM

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout n

 

Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. :( I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.



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Posted 03 August 2013 - 03:28 PM

Right now I'm in the process of taking serious steps to treat my acne scars. It really results in mixed feelings as I'm euphoric that my life is about to drastically change while at the same time I feel like shit thinking about how pathethic it is that my life is so influenced by my skin. It's really a tough process..



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Posted 03 August 2013 - 06:55 PM

 

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout n

 

Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. sad.png I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.

Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone needs to indulge once in a while. Just forget about it, and eat healthy the day after to make up for it. As for homesickness, I  can relate. I haven't seen my family in almost 2 years and am too broke to afford a plane ticket to go visit them. Talking with your family on the phone or skype can help though. 


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Posted 03 August 2013 - 11:43 PM

 

 

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout n

 

Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. sad.png I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.

Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone needs to indulge once in a while. Just forget about it, and eat healthy the day after to make up for it. As for homesickness, I  can relate. I haven't seen my family in almost 2 years and am too broke to afford a plane ticket to go visit them. Talking with your family on the phone or skype can help though. 

...2 years? Oh dear... :( and i was cribbing about my 10 months. 



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Posted 04 August 2013 - 12:02 AM

 

 

 

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout n

 

Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. sad.png I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.

Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone needs to indulge once in a while. Just forget about it, and eat healthy the day after to make up for it. As for homesickness, I  can relate. I haven't seen my family in almost 2 years and am too broke to afford a plane ticket to go visit them. Talking with your family on the phone or skype can help though. 

...2 years? Oh dear... sad.png and i was cribbing about my 10 months. 

i dnt think u're a spoilt brat now.

i used to think that earlier at times.this just makes u seem more attached and more emotional than others ur age.i totally relate because thats just my story.

the exception being when and if am gone to hostel ,i just cant be away for so many mnths at a stretch so either my mum visits me or i come to her.

in the beginning it will be as often as once a mnth visit may be.lol!

then i'd fly here on bigger festivals and she'll come visit very 2-3 mnths.

thankfully its easier and cheaper to book flights these days from these online sites


Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??
http://www.acne.org/...-with-pictures/
 
huge pores
http://www.acne.org/...dwith-pictures/
 
indented scar
http://www.acne.org/...iswith-picture/
 
oils used for cooking
http://www.acne.org/...oilgood-or-bad/
 
inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores
http://www.acne.org/...twith-pictures/
 
my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)
http://www.acne.org/...food-allergies/
http://www.acne.org/...incare-routine/
 

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Posted 04 August 2013 - 12:06 AM

My skin is better this morning than it has been for a while. Apart from the cyst on my cheek, there is nothing else active. Got some hp on my neck but as the breakout there was quite small, it should fade quite quickly.

I`m feeling happier in myself than I did earlier in the week and it is ONLY because I perceive my skin and appearance to be a bit better. Your happiness should not be dependent on the state of your skin - you need to be able to like and accept yourself period! It is something I need to keep working on.


Edited by GUNNKE, 04 August 2013 - 12:12 AM.


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Posted 04 August 2013 - 12:14 AM

she

 

Well I was feeling more positive for most of the day. My skin is clearing up a bit with all the treatments I'm using and getting flatter and smoother everyday but it still looks absolutely horrific in the mirror because most of it is covered in really bad hyperpigmentation along with all the active stuff.

Unfortunately I made the mistake of watching a romantic film on the TV this evening and it reminded me how it's going to be totally impossible for anybody to ever love me with a face like mine. I'm destined to be alone my whole life. Now I'm sitting in my room crying in front of a computer like a pathetic little loser. When will this cycle of misery ever end?!!

Oh no sad.png That sounds like something I would do (romantic film and getting all depressed) - Sounds sad huh? tongue.png

 I know what you mean and I think the same things about myself - 'how could someone love me when I look the way I do'. I have to remind myself though that there is more to me than how I look, and there are loads of people out there who have acne and who are in happy relationships - so why wouldn't that happen for me some day? It's just a matter of meeting the right person - Which may not exactly be easy, but that doesn't mean it's impossible!

 

I get what you mean about your skin right now too - I'm dealing with the same thing. Slowly, everything is healing and my skin is getting smoother but it in no way looks clear because of all the hyperpigmentation I have! Quite frustrating... but hopefully something like AHA will help when I start to use it. Have you tried that or anything else for pigmentation before?



>My face decided to throw the fuck up today, I haven't changed a damn thing in months, I was a fool for believing it was over. Some people deserve to be put out of their misery.

FUCK.

What have you been doing for your skin? Maybe it's time to try another treatment?

Hope things improve for you soon! Hang in there!

Yeh, it was quite a good film but definitely a bad idea from a self-esteem perspective! You're right that there's definitely more to us than how we look, but to be honest I'm not too fond of my own personality in any case, or of anything about myself in fact! Sad but true. I don't really feel like I have anything going for me at all though I know this is probably a biased perspective. 

Hyperpigmentation is such a nightmare isn't it?! I should be happy that my skin is slowly clearing but the fact is because of the redness it doesn't actually look much better than it did anyway. I've tried lemon juice but that did absolutely nothing and I tried aloe vera but it just made me break out even more. I'm a bit dubious about trying AHA because 1. I think it would break me out and 2. I avoid anything that has an exfoliating effect because there is a history of psoriasis in my family and I don't want to bring that on on top of the acne! Do you know of anything else that helps with hyperpigmentation but doesn't exfoliate? 

 

Sunscreen helps! I'm seriously not kidding. Sunscreen really helps it to fade by not allowing it to get worse, you know? If you want to be thorough, layer chemical and physical sunscreens. 

 

So, I haven't worn foundation in a while. I keep figuring this out the hard way, but even mineral foundation just breaks me out. It's so gradual with most foundations that I don't notice it until I have to stop wearing it for some reason and my skin clears up some as a result. I'll wear eyeliner and mascara, though. It helps me feel more confident about the no foundation thing. 

 

Cool story you guys. Queen Elizabeth wore lead makeup to cover up her smallpox scars, even though they really weren't all that visible. She wore her inches of makeup even on her deathbed -- wouldn't be seen without it. Lead literally will burn the skin off of your face over time. And of course, you get lead poisoning. Interesting, huh? She had reason to be one of the most confident women ever (she reigned over England for 45 years.) Made me feel a little better about my insecurities. Less pathetic, lol. 

 

My hair is still falling out. I got an abnormal thyroid test and thought we had finally found the problem. Only to get the more detailed T3, T4, TSH tests normal the second time. So I have to re-take in a month. Meanwhile, my mane get's thinner and looks just awful. I don't know what to do with it. It looks awful in a thin braid, looks bad in a ponytail, and looks bad down. *sigh* whatever. 

 

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I really should exercise instead of Netflix binging in my spare time like I've been doing. 



My skin is better this morning than it has been for a while. Apart from the cyst on my cheek, there is nothing else active. Got some hp on my neck but as the breakout there was quite small, it should fade quite quickly.

I`m feeling happier in myself than I did earlier in the week and it is ONLY because I perceive my skin and appearance to be a bit better. It is something I need to keep working at. Your happiness should not be dependent on the state of your skin - you need to be able to like and accept yourself period!

 

It really helps if you find other things to tack your happiness onto. Something to strive for, something in which you hold potential. A long term challenge that occupies your mind and your passion. 



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Posted 04 August 2013 - 03:53 PM

feeling bad coz of this BAD BREAKOUT.....   if i connect the dark reddish spots, zits and the whole lot  with a sharpie i might come up with a constellation.....

 

ugh.....  i'm spiraling downward in my black hole again and again......   I LOOK & FEEL LIKE CRAP!!!!!

 

 

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Posted 05 August 2013 - 02:12 PM

 

 

 

 

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout n

 

Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. sad.png I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.

Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone needs to indulge once in a while. Just forget about it, and eat healthy the day after to make up for it. As for homesickness, I  can relate. I haven't seen my family in almost 2 years and am too broke to afford a plane ticket to go visit them. Talking with your family on the phone or skype can help though. 

...2 years? Oh dear... sad.png and i was cribbing about my 10 months. 

i dnt think u're a spoilt brat now.

i used to think that earlier at times.this just makes u seem more attached and more emotional than others ur age.i totally relate because thats just my story.

the exception being when and if am gone to hostel ,i just cant be away for so many mnths at a stretch so either my mum visits me or i come to her.

in the beginning it will be as often as once a mnth visit may be.lol!

then i'd fly here on bigger festivals and she'll come visit very 2-3 mnths.

thankfully its easier and cheaper to book flights these days from these online sites

I wanted to visit my cousin sisters on Raksha Bandhan,but i have my GMAT coaching.I can't even meet my parents this Diwali and Dussehra sad.png...Hopefully they would meet me ...Yes i get attached to people very easily.I'm naive,i'm gullible...People take advantage of me. haha ...this world is full of unreliable people.

 

And yes,fortunately flights have become cheaper.Earlier Delhi to Dehradun was 8,000.Now it's around 4,000.Or 3,000 if i'm lucky ;) .But it's hardly 260 kms. so Volvo bus is a good bet.But even then i get to see my parents once a year and that is during the summer vacations LOL. 


Edited by Perseverance92, 05 August 2013 - 02:17 PM.


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Posted 05 August 2013 - 02:29 PM

Feeling pretty low tonight. A few new spots have come up which doesn't help but it's more from a realisation that even though the treatments I've been on for the last month have drastically (and I mean drastically) improved my cystic acne to the point where I have no more cysts, the hyperpigmentation and general scarring means that I still look like a monster. Literally.

 

That topped off with all the active acne I still have, mostly round my forehead and jawline, is just making me wonder "what's the point?" Nothing ever seems to make it better. No matter how hard you try and how persistent you are it just never seems to give you a break. I know there are so many things worse than acne but quite honestly I would give pretty much all my worldly possessions and home comforts right now just for even a day of clear skin. I feel so sad, pathetic and powerless :(


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Morning: Lymecycline
 

Evening: Dianette + Epiduo

Diet: eliminated dairy

 

My Log: http://www.acne.org/messageboard/topic/331567-diary-of-a-three-pronged-attack-my-mission-to-get-clear-skin-and-avoid-roaccutane/#entry3369787 

 

Acne status: essentially clear and just waiting for hyperpigmentation to fade

 

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Posted 05 August 2013 - 03:30 PM

Just when I thought my skin was starting to look okay (only have one cyst on my right cheekbone), I`ve just had my nightly wash and discovered that I`ve got two or three small spots forming on my temples and one by the side of my nose. It`s not terrible but I still get that heart-sinking, panicky feeling and thoughts of being disgusting etc. When this happens, the urge to go and repeatedly examine myself in the mirror is very compulsive. Got to resist as it doesn`t do any good!

Reading the above paragraph back, it sounds like I`m totally mad! Thank you to everyone who reads this and doesn`t judge me - it`s appreciated.



Feeling pretty low tonight. A few new spots have come up which doesn't help but it's more from a realisation that even though the treatments I've been on for the last month have drastically (and I mean drastically) improved my cystic acne to the point where I have no more cysts, the hyperpigmentation and general scarring means that I still look like a monster. Literally.

 

That topped off with all the active acne I still have, mostly round my forehead and jawline, is just making me wonder "what's the point?" Nothing ever seems to make it better. No matter how hard you try and how persistent you are it just never seems to give you a break. I know there are so many things worse than acne but quite honestly I would give pretty much all my worldly possessions and home comforts right now just for even a day of clear skin. I feel so sad, pathetic and powerless sad.png

 

MoonlitRiver, I know how disheartening seeing new breakouts acne be - especially when you think things are starting to get better. What I would say is that if you are no longer getting cysts, you are making some progress even if it doesn`t feel like it. You may feel sad and powerless but you are certainly not pathetic. Try to keep persevering and don`t give up!


Edited by GUNNKE, 05 August 2013 - 03:33 PM.


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Posted 05 August 2013 - 03:42 PM

Just when I thought my skin was starting to look okay (only have one cyst on my right cheekbone), I`ve just had my nightly wash and discovered that I`ve got two or three small spots forming on my temples and one by the side of my nose. It`s not terrible but I still get that heart-sinking, panicky feeling and thoughts of being disgusting etc. When this happens, the urge to go and repeatedly examine myself in the mirror is very compulsive. Got to resist as it doesn`t do any good!

Reading the above paragraph back, it sounds like I`m totally mad! Thank you to everyone who reads this and doesn`t judge me - it`s appreciated.



Feeling pretty low tonight. A few new spots have come up which doesn't help but it's more from a realisation that even though the treatments I've been on for the last month have drastically (and I mean drastically) improved my cystic acne to the point where I have no more cysts, the hyperpigmentation and general scarring means that I still look like a monster. Literally.

 

That topped off with all the active acne I still have, mostly round my forehead and jawline, is just making me wonder "what's the point?" Nothing ever seems to make it better. No matter how hard you try and how persistent you are it just never seems to give you a break. I know there are so many things worse than acne but quite honestly I would give pretty much all my worldly possessions and home comforts right now just for even a day of clear skin. I feel so sad, pathetic and powerless sad.png

 

MoonlitRiver, I know how disheartening seeing new breakouts acne be - especially when you think things are starting to get better. What I would say is that if you are no longer getting cysts, you are making some progress even if it doesn`t feel like it. You may feel sad and powerless but you are certainly not pathetic. Try to keep persevering and don`t give up!

 

Thanks GUNNKE I really needed to hear that! Sounds like you and I are going through much the same thing at the minute. I can totally relate to the hear-sinking, panicky feeling you describe, and with the compulsive mirror checking, so you don't sound mad at all to me! :)

 

Urghh i feel so hopeless right now! You're right though, it is improving and I should be focussed on that, it's just so slow and frustrating and it's constantly taking backwards steps so that I don't believe it will ever actually get better :( But hey ho, that's life for you. I keep telling myself one day it will improve. Hasn't happened yet though! 


My Current Treatment Plan

 

Morning: Lymecycline
 

Evening: Dianette + Epiduo

Diet: eliminated dairy

 

My Log: http://www.acne.org/messageboard/topic/331567-diary-of-a-three-pronged-attack-my-mission-to-get-clear-skin-and-avoid-roaccutane/#entry3369787 

 

Acne status: essentially clear and just waiting for hyperpigmentation to fade

 

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Posted 05 August 2013 - 03:53 PM

Hey guys!
I've been using lactic acid products for 2 months now and it has totally changed my complexion. I used to whine a lot about how flaky, dry, but at the same oily my skin was and no moisturisers could help me cope with that. Lactic acid saved me ass! It completely balanced my face, it feels like baby skin again, so smooth and moist. Even the fine lines around my mouth disappeared. It never gets oily either, only at the time when all normal people get a layer of sweat on their faces - when it's really hot or when I'm exercising. But it's easy to wash off with simple water.
What I do: wash my face with lactic acid gel (it doesn't foam much), wait until my face dries and apply lactic acid cream. It doesn't get absorbed easily, takes 10 min until it does. But it really gets absorbed, you won't get the feeling you're scrubbing it off your face when you rub it a bit later (that happens with some moisturisers).
I'm using a Swedish product bought at a pharmacy, but maybe there are some similar ones available in other countries? 

Just really wanted to help those who have dry skin, try lactic acid cream instead of your moisturiser! 


What else has improved my health lately:

I started drinking crazily much water like 2 weeks ago. It goes up to 3-4 l a day, if I move a lot (and I do walk big distances everyday). One thing I noticed immediately - my lips, my chronically chapped painful cracking lips are finally soft!!!   

Writing food diary! I've been doing that patiently for a month now. Writing down every little thing I ate and at which time. Also, I write all kinds of stuff that may affect acne and health, like WC usage that day, stress, how much water I drank, if I got any breakout....
Food diary helped me realise that I break out from potatoes and rice, if I don't use WC for "serious business" for more than 1 day, and... going to sleep very late...     

While my improvement are mostly due to Diane35 + Androcur, I only noticed satisfying results when I added other things to aid it. So don't rely on just medications!

And drink water, omg!  
 


Diagnosed with PCOS/Insulin resistance

Currently clear from acne.

Meds:


- Yasmin birth control 
- Spironolactone 50 mg
 
Skincare:

- Paula's Choice

Supplements:

- Innate Response Glucose Tolerance Factor Chromium, for blood sugar balancing 
- Innate Response DysBio-GI, against candida

Extra:

- Peppermint tea 2 cups/day
- Licorice tea 1 cup/day

 


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Posted 06 August 2013 - 12:27 AM

 

 

 

 

 

One of my closest friend left our college for a semester abroad program to Dubai yesterday.They made it a whiskey night.He hugged me and said "For friendship's sake".I couldn't say no for obvious reasons.I ended up drinking 9 pegs.With a pathetic hangover i'm typing this.I'm going to have an even pathetic breakout now.Because i know it for a fact that alcohol sabotages my skin.How am i supposed to avoid such inevitable situations? sad.png

that was certainly not inevitable.

by now i feel u r a lil' too early to give in.always.

sweet!

alcohol!

always!

 

u need a good shout n

 

Well didi, you may look at it and say i'm weak from within.But sometimes you break.I didn't eat anything bad for 20 days.Then it became too much for me and i indulged. sad.png I can't help. Maybe i need a good shout.But more than that i need my mother. When i get up in the morning and the first person i see is my mother,on those days i feel strengthened from within.I become circumspect and can always judge right from wrong.I live a disciplined life.I don't know...I miss my parents too much when i'm in college.Don't see them for 10 months sometimes... Home sickness makes me reckless,undisciplined and unhappy.Again,you may read my post and it may reinforce your perception about me.Me being a spoilt brat who complaints a lot.But the fact that i have to stay away from my home for another 4 years,It gives me a burning feeling.

Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone needs to indulge once in a while. Just forget about it, and eat healthy the day after to make up for it. As for homesickness, I  can relate. I haven't seen my family in almost 2 years and am too broke to afford a plane ticket to go visit them. Talking with your family on the phone or skype can help though. 

...2 years? Oh dear... sad.png and i was cribbing about my 10 months. 

i dnt think u're a spoilt brat now.

i used to think that earlier at times.this just makes u seem more attached and more emotional than others ur age.i totally relate because thats just my story.

the exception being when and if am gone to hostel ,i just cant be away for so many mnths at a stretch so either my mum visits me or i come to her.

in the beginning it will be as often as once a mnth visit may be.lol!

then i'd fly here on bigger festivals and she'll come visit very 2-3 mnths.

thankfully its easier and cheaper to book flights these days from these online sites

I wanted to visit my cousin sisters on Raksha Bandhan,but i have my GMAT coaching.I can't even meet my parents this Diwali and Dussehra sad.png...Hopefully they would meet me ...Yes i get attached to people very easily.I'm naive,i'm gullible...People take advantage of me. haha ...this world is full of unreliable people.

 

And yes,fortunately flights have become cheaper.Earlier Delhi to Dehradun was 8,000.Now it's around 4,000.Or 3,000 if i'm lucky wink.png .But it's hardly 260 kms. so Volvo bus is a good bet.But even then i get to see my parents once a year and that is during the summer vacations LOL. 

if u r very close to ur sisters,then i understand its sad.but otherwise i dont think u should worry too much about raksha bandhan in this stage of life.

remember,these few years is gonna make or break u.

i keep saying that to myself.

i am more and most attached to my family(parents and few relatives) otherwise i have very very few frnds who i am okay not meeting often, really.in fact i havent met them in 1-2 or even 3 years.

but i NEED to see my mum very often and also talk to her several times a day(even if its for 2-5 minutes).

actually this is the 1st time am gonna ever stay away from my house.so it IS a big deal for ME too.

i am gonna come here in durga puja for a few days i suppose.

not diwali or laxmi puja though(which are celebrated big way in my house).but anyway!

like i told u..keep telling urself 'all this will show results someday.its all necessary'.

 

plus,i am gonna have such tight schedule..i will probably not have time to even miss people properly.

i will have to invest atleast12-13 hours in books everyday religiously plus take care of household stuff.

(i am lil' freaky freaky when it comes to cleaning,germ free everything and i'm also gonna make oats or sattu or cut fruits for myself instead of/ along with food served in the cafeteria.)

anyway,sorry i rambled.

i was actually trying to help ur issue.lol!

 

i dnt know.

i am just gonna be there,do whats needed.

and take small breaks and come here,talk to u guys and with my family here.

i suggest u do the same.

i am always there if u need someone to talk to lil' bro!;p

 

 

*edit*

i know that not meeting frnds for years sounds gross.but honestly i have close frnds among them and its all okay.

but my closest among them all is anyway a penpal who lives in the US.we exchange emails about 3-4 times a week now if not regularly.

its something very defeating for me - i feel very bad considering that everybody has this group of 'great' frnds or u know bestest buds while i dnt have any such group or anyone i talk discuss my daily life with.

but i am hopeful.and i am sure i will find frnds or atleast a frnd who's just what i need and i am just what he/she needs.=)

*fairy like feelings*


Edited by aanabill, 06 August 2013 - 12:39 AM.

Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??
http://www.acne.org/...-with-pictures/
 
huge pores
http://www.acne.org/...dwith-pictures/
 
indented scar
http://www.acne.org/...iswith-picture/
 
oils used for cooking
http://www.acne.org/...oilgood-or-bad/
 
inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores
http://www.acne.org/...twith-pictures/
 
my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)
http://www.acne.org/...food-allergies/
http://www.acne.org/...incare-routine/
 

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Posted 06 August 2013 - 01:31 AM

Hey guys!
I've been using lactic acid products for 2 months now and it has totally changed my complexion. I used to whine a lot about how flaky, dry, but at the same oily my skin was and no moisturisers could help me cope with that. Lactic acid saved me ass! It completely balanced my face, it feels like baby skin again, so smooth and moist. Even the fine lines around my mouth disappeared. It never gets oily either, only at the time when all normal people get a layer of sweat on their faces - when it's really hot or when I'm exercising. But it's easy to wash off with simple water.
What I do: wash my face with lactic acid gel (it doesn't foam much), wait until my face dries and apply lactic acid cream. It doesn't get absorbed easily, takes 10 min until it does. But it really gets absorbed, you won't get the feeling you're scrubbing it off your face when you rub it a bit later (that happens with some moisturisers).
I'm using a Swedish product bought at a pharmacy, but maybe there are some similar ones available in other countries? 

Just really wanted to help those who have dry skin, try lactic acid cream instead of your moisturiser! 


What else has improved my health lately:

I started drinking crazily much water like 2 weeks ago. It goes up to 3-4 l a day, if I move a lot (and I do walk big distances everyday). One thing I noticed immediately - my lips, my chronically chapped painful cracking lips are finally soft!!!   

Writing food diary! I've been doing that patiently for a month now. Writing down every little thing I ate and at which time. Also, I write all kinds of stuff that may affect acne and health, like WC usage that day, stress, how much water I drank, if I got any breakout....
Food diary helped me realise that I break out from potatoes and rice, if I don't use WC for "serious business" for more than 1 day, and... going to sleep very late...     

While my improvement are mostly due to Diane35 + Androcur, I only noticed satisfying results when I added other things to aid it. So don't rely on just medications!

And drink water, omg!  
 

Great to hear things are working out for you!

 

Lactic acid is a type of AHA isn't it? So I guess all types of AHA work in a similar way and are great for dry skin. I'm planning to add in AHA at the end of the week - really hoping it helps with my dryness! And if the product I have doesn't help much - I'll look for one that specifically says lactic acid and see how that goes. :)


Started The Acne.org Regimen 2nd July 2013

 


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Posted 06 August 2013 - 07:05 AM

yes,lactic acid is a aha.

those who prefer everything organic-natural , u could use yogurt (homemade,unsweetened of course)

for others dan's aha is great.

i've heard great reviews and opinions everywhere.


Itchy red raised skin - dermatitis??
http://www.acne.org/...-with-pictures/
 
huge pores
http://www.acne.org/...dwith-pictures/
 
indented scar
http://www.acne.org/...iswith-picture/
 
oils used for cooking
http://www.acne.org/...oilgood-or-bad/
 
inflamed whiteheads & clogged pores
http://www.acne.org/...twith-pictures/
 
my balanced diet chart and skincare routine(medications taken & products used now)
http://www.acne.org/...food-allergies/
http://www.acne.org/...incare-routine/
 

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Posted 06 August 2013 - 10:09 AM

Hey guys!
I've been using lactic acid products for 2 months now and it has totally changed my complexion. I used to whine a lot about how flaky, dry, but at the same oily my skin was and no moisturisers could help me cope with that. Lactic acid saved me ass! It completely balanced my face, it feels like baby skin again, so smooth and moist. Even the fine lines around my mouth disappeared. It never gets oily either, only at the time when all normal people get a layer of sweat on their faces - when it's really hot or when I'm exercising. But it's easy to wash off with simple water.
What I do: wash my face with lactic acid gel (it doesn't foam much), wait until my face dries and apply lactic acid cream. It doesn't get absorbed easily, takes 10 min until it does. But it really gets absorbed, you won't get the feeling you're scrubbing it off your face when you rub it a bit later (that happens with some moisturisers).
I'm using a Swedish product bought at a pharmacy, but maybe there are some similar ones available in other countries? 

Just really wanted to help those who have dry skin, try lactic acid cream instead of your moisturiser! 


What else has improved my health lately:

I started drinking crazily much water like 2 weeks ago. It goes up to 3-4 l a day, if I move a lot (and I do walk big distances everyday). One thing I noticed immediately - my lips, my chronically chapped painful cracking lips are finally soft!!!   

Writing food diary! I've been doing that patiently for a month now. Writing down every little thing I ate and at which time. Also, I write all kinds of stuff that may affect acne and health, like WC usage that day, stress, how much water I drank, if I got any breakout....
Food diary helped me realise that I break out from potatoes and rice, if I don't use WC for "serious business" for more than 1 day, and... going to sleep very late...     

While my improvement are mostly due to Diane35 + Androcur, I only noticed satisfying results when I added other things to aid it. So don't rely on just medications!

And drink water, omg!  
 

 

 

 

Yay! :) I'm so happy for you! What's WC?

 

Me: I ate a "regular" gluten-free cookie the other day... regular in the sense that it was processed, not organic and contained milk chocolate with soy in it... Probably the most "junk food" type thing I've eaten in years. NO BREAKOUTS!

 

That means my soy sensitivity, at least to small trace amounts, is apparently over now. I fixed myself somehow... It's so good to know that can happen. I wonder if I'm still gluten sensitive. Way too scared to try it right now as I'm doing so good and it was always my scariest sensitivity and the one that I know for sure was (at least, at the time) very real.

 

It's been over a month since I had any sort of pimple. I've reduced by benzoyl peroxide to 50 percent... 1/2 finger in the morning, 1/2 at night. It's going good. :)


Current Skin-Care Regimen (A work in progress):

 

Morning:

Gentle wash with DKR cleanser

Benzoyl Peroxide 2.5% (Following Dan's Regimen)

DKR Lotion + A squirt of Argan or Grapeseed oil (The  lotion alone wasn't hydrating enough)

Skin 79 Korean BB Cream (excellent stuff)

 

Evening:

Gentle Wash with DKR Cleanser

Benzoyl Peroxide 2.5% (Following Dan's Regimen)

DKR Lotion + A squirt of Argan or Grapeseed oil

 


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Posted 06 August 2013 - 01:15 PM

My skin is better than it has been since before my acne started about ten years ago! I've been on (ro)accutane for nearly two months and my acne is gone and my oiliness so much reduced that I don't even need to carry blotting sheets and powder around with me!!! (My oil problem was extreme.) I should be happy and I have been but today I feel a bit sad... If the cure was so simple and pain free why oh why didn't I try it sooner? For all those years I let acne ravage my face and I wasted so much time and money on treatments and skin care products. My indented scars aren't so bad and my red marks will fade eventually but I am impatient! I want them to be gone now. I guess that sounds ungrateful but I'm so sick of acne, the end is in sight which is great but I want it to be over now. Especially as I'm in a new relationship... I hate it so much when my makeup comes off :-( And the one side effect I do have with the roaccutane is dry lips... which also isn't great in a new relationship. I shouldn't complain, it is a small price to pay but I just want to be done. Sorry for being negative, positive message is accutane is amazing try it! Especially if you're losing hope... x


Post (Ro)accutane Regimen:          

 

Morning

Cleanse: Olay Essentials Refreshing Face Wash

Exfoliate: Paula's Choice Skin Perfecting 2% BHA Liquid Exfoliant

Treat red marks: Superfacialist Vitamin C Glow Boost Serum

Moisturise: Simple Kind to Skin Protecting Moisture Cream SPF 30

Lips: Nivea Lip Care Sun Protect SPF 30

Makeup base: Estee Lauder Matte Perfecting Primer, Yves Saint Laurent Teint Touche Eclat - BR10, Clinique Blended Face Powder - Invisible

 

Evening

Cleanse: Olay Essentials Refreshing Face Wash, Original Source Mint and Tea Tree Shower Gel

Exfoliate: Paula's Choice Skin Perfecting 8% AHA Gel Exfoliant

Treat red marks: Differin (0.1% Adapalene)

Moisturise: Simple Kind to Skin Replenising Rich Moisturiser

Lips: Aquaphor Soothing Skin Balm

 

100% acne free and stubborn red marks disappearing!


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Posted 06 August 2013 - 01:21 PM

My face is much the same as I posted last night but strangely, I don`t feel too bad about it.

 

Had another CBT session today. After last week`s session which was a disaster, the therapist was pleased that I am feeling much more positive. Got to keep a "thought" diary this week. This doesn`t mean everything that comes in to your head but specific thoughts - for example, "I am repulsive". Also got to record where I was/what I was doing when the thought occurred and highlight what I did/how I reacted as a consequence. Next week, I am going to go through the diary with the therapist and look at specific techniques that can be used to "challenge" the thoughts.

 

It`s not all been plain sailing but I`m glad that I started CBT now. However, it is not a magic cure and it does require you to put a lot of work and effort in away from the sessions. Long term, I think it will really help me though.






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