Well I was feeling more positive for most of the day. My skin is clearing up a bit with all the treatments I'm using and getting flatter and smoother everyday but it still looks absolutely horrific in the mirror because most of it is covered in really bad hyperpigmentation along with all the active stuff.
Unfortunately I made the mistake of watching a romantic film on the TV this evening and it reminded me how it's going to be totally impossible for anybody to ever love me with a face like mine. I'm destined to be alone my whole life. Now I'm sitting in my room crying in front of a computer like a pathetic little loser. When will this cycle of misery ever end?!!
Aw, I'm the same way. My skin is slowly clearing but BP has left so many marks on my face, it's ridiculous. I've stopped wearing makeup every day, too. Some days are really challenging. Just remember that you're not alone, and you're beautiful You can pull through. When you get the results you want you'll be so glad you did! It just takes time and patience.
Glad to hear your skin is clearing but yeh the BP does seem to make red marks last longer unfortunately. I suppose at least it's easier to cover up than active acne, though unfortunately I've still got a load of that as well at the moment. Good job on not wearing make-up every day! I literally cannot leave the house without foundation and haven't done so in 8 years. I feel self-conscious even with it on because of all the bumps and redness that can't be covered up properly so can't even contemplate going out bare faced. I'd love to be able to some day though, just to feel the wind and rain on my skin!
Thanks for the support I always think I will be glad when I get the results but unfortunately that day has never yet come for me. Pretty much lost hope that that will ever change but am going to keep trying treatments anyway! There must be something out there that can clear my skin!
Oh man, I have to wear makeup on the weekends because of my performance-based job, and I can't STAND how active acne looks underneath foundation. It's the worst. I could spend hours just looking at those nude-colored bumps in the light with disgust. If there's ever an opportunity, I remove whiteheads to help flatten my skin a bit.
You'll definitely find something Have you tried the Regimen? I was super skeptical but it's the best treatment I've done so far, and I've tried so many things. Also, it sounds weird, especially since you've struggled for so long, but many people do grow out of acne. I've heard of it happening pretty late, too, like anywhere from mid-20s to early-mid 30s. I'm not sure how old you are haha. But acne isn't for life. I know that doesn't help much...when my dermatologist told me it was just a human condition and was curable it didn't change the fact that I was really upset and embarrassed. But basically, you'll find something <3 just stay positive, attitude is a really important part of healing your acne.