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I hate my skin, I hate myself, and I hate my life. Why does it never get any better?!

sad.png I hope you feel better soon! Sending hugs! comfort.gif

Aw thank you! Hugs are much needed right now. Hope you're doing okay at the moment.


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Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser
Maybelline Pure Liquid Mineral Foundation
Cetaphil Moisturising Lotion
Epiduo
Dianette 
Lymecycline 
Spironolactone 
Eliminated Dairy

Acne status: Still breaking out and desperately praying that the Spironolactone will eventually clear me.
 


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I'm feeling ok at the moment but the past few days have been absolutely terrible. I've had all this stress, worry and anxiety building up (some due to uni assignments) and I completely fell apart a few days ago. Bad anxiety / panic attacks, crying a lot, feeling sick, cold then hot, shaky, not able to eat, wasn't able to work on uni work (somehow got it together and got them in on time though).

Went and saw my doctor yesterday and he gave me the details of a psychologist who is supposedly very good with anxiety in particular. He wants me to go see him just for one or two sessions. I've been wanting to / thinking I should go see a psychologist for a while just to talk things out with someone but always been too scare to go. Still haven't made the appointment. Don't know if I will.

I hate my skin, I hate myself, and I hate my life. Why does it never get any better?!

Oh no :( sorry you're feeling like this - I just read in your thread of the improvements you've had in your skin! Remember that and how far your skin has come


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I'm feeling ok at the moment but the past few days have been absolutely terrible. I've had all this stress, worry and anxiety building up (some due to uni assignments) and I completely fell apart a few days ago. Bad anxiety / panic attacks, crying a lot, feeling sick, cold then hot, shaky, not able to eat, wasn't able to work on uni work (somehow got it together and got them in on time though).

Went and saw my doctor yesterday and he gave me the details of a psychologist who is supposedly very good with anxiety in particular. He wants me to go see him just for one or two sessions. I've been wanting to / thinking I should go see a psychologist for a while just to talk things out with someone but always been too scare to go. Still haven't made the appointment. Don't know if I will.

I hate my skin, I hate myself, and I hate my life. Why does it never get any better?!

Oh no sad.png sorry you're feeling like this - I just read in your thread of the improvements you've had in your skin! Remember that and how far your skin has come

Thanks Lilly. I'm trying to remind myself of the improvements but unfortunately, as seems to happen every time I post something positive about my skin, I'm now breaking out again!

I'm sorry to hear you're having such issues with anxiety. My GP recently referred me for CBT for social anxiety and depression. I've been putting off tackling these issues, particularly the social anxiety, for years because I was just too scared to talk to anyone who might be able to help me. Before this year I hadn't even been to a doctor since the age of 14. However, having hit complete meltdown stage I've now taken the plunge and have my first appointment in about two and a half weeks. I'm absolutely fricking terrified! But I would love it if I could actually tackle this problem once and for all because it's been eating away at my life for years. When you feel ready, I hope you can find the courage to book your psychologist appointment as well. The way I'm trying to look at it is that although I'm scared witless, I really have nothing to lose from trying it and potentially everything to gain, as even the slightest improvement of my social anxiety would feel pretty life changing for me. Maybe you can apply that logic to your situation too. :)


Current Treatment and Products

Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser
Maybelline Pure Liquid Mineral Foundation
Cetaphil Moisturising Lotion
Epiduo
Dianette 
Lymecycline 
Spironolactone 
Eliminated Dairy

Acne status: Still breaking out and desperately praying that the Spironolactone will eventually clear me.
 


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Every night i have the same fear... why is this pore swollen? Why is this area painful/itching? Is this area really a little higher than the rest of my skin or i am seeing things again? Tomorrow i am going to wake up with another painful ugly thing..

Now it's the last one, i don't really remember if that area was like this or tomorrow i am going to have something nodular.. many people are going to see me.. it's not painful or itching or red.. but tomorrow it could be. Just when i start to think that it could be over.. I am afraid. Or insane.


What clears my acne:

Spironolactone 100 mg + limiting dairy

indoxyl (duac) gel + aha + baby brush for comedones.

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Thanks Lilly. I'm trying to remind myself of the improvements but unfortunately, as seems to happen every time I post something positive about my skin, I'm now breaking out again!

I'm sorry to hear you're having such issues with anxiety. My GP recently referred me for CBT for social anxiety and depression. I've been putting off tackling these issues, particularly the social anxiety, for years because I was just too scared to talk to anyone who might be able to help me. Before this year I hadn't even been to a doctor since the age of 14. However, having hit complete meltdown stage I've now taken the plunge and have my first appointment in about two and a half weeks. I'm absolutely fricking terrified! But I would love it if I could actually tackle this problem once and for all because it's been eating away at my life for years. When you feel ready, I hope you can find the courage to book your psychologist appointment as well. The way I'm trying to look at it is that although I'm scared witless, I really have nothing to lose from trying it and potentially everything to gain, as even the slightest improvement of my social anxiety would feel pretty life changing for me. Maybe you can apply that logic to your situation too. smile.png

Yeah I know what you mean - seems to happen to me whenever I post something positive about my skin too rolleyes.gif

And thank you :) Sorry you've been dealing with similar things but it's nice in a way to know I'm not the only one (even though I wish no one had to deal with feeling like this).

I really hope your appointment goes well and helps you in someway! Hopefully I do find that courage to go book the appointment. It's hard though because I can't talk about myself or how I'm feeling when it's bad like that / face to face with someone without getting really emotional or teary for some reason. I'd hate to walk in and end up in tears hah - and I don't talk to anyone in 'real life' about things like that (like I often do / have done here in the past) so I don't know how I'd be able to open up to a stranger face-to-face...

But you're right - nothing to lose, everything to gain. I'll remember that.

Good luck with the appointment! :)


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Every night i have the same fear... why is this pore swollen? Why is this area painful/itching? Is this area really a little higher than the rest of my skin or i am seeing things again? Tomorrow i am going to wake up with another painful ugly thing..

Now it's the last one, i don't really remember if that area was like this or tomorrow i am going to have something nodular.. many people are going to see me.. it's not painful or itching or red.. but tomorrow it could be. Just when i start to think that it could be over.. I am afraid. Or insane.

I know it's freaking hard, but try not to be obsessed in that way, it's really unhealthy and you're only making it worse. I strongly believe that acne is aggravated by negative thoughts and emotions, so you're not doing yourself a favor by trembling over every painful spot. By panicking you won't be able to change the fact that a new pimple is growing, but by being calm and relaxed you could help it to shrink down. It sounds crazy, but it happened to me dozen of times. I came back from Brazil a week ago and there I didn't have a single tiny pimple over the whole time and growing cysts shrank down. I had my pms and ate a lot of different foods, so the only way I can explain the absence of acne is - positive emotions kept my hormones in tact. That's my tactics from now on (plus acne meds, ofc :P )

Just give yourself a break for some time. You can't change anything by crying and worrying - it will only make it worse, but maybe it will help if you'll be calm and positive? Your body is not able to improve when you're constantly making your body release stress hormones - they suppress your immune system, produce acne, increase blood pressure and sugar...

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Diagnosed with PCOS

Occasional acne + rolling scars

Meds:


- Yasmin birth control
- Spironolactone 37,5mg going 25mg
- Inositol powder 2 times/day before meal

Skincare:

- Hemp oil




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Yeah I know what you mean - seems to happen to me whenever I post something positive about my skin too rolleyes.gif

And thank you smile.png Sorry you've been dealing with similar things but it's nice in a way to know I'm not the only one (even though I wish no one had to deal with feeling like this).

I really hope your appointment goes well and helps you in someway! Hopefully I do find that courage to go book the appointment. It's hard though because I can't talk about myself or how I'm feeling when it's bad like that / face to face with someone without getting really emotional or teary for some reason. I'd hate to walk in and end up in tears hah - and I don't talk to anyone in 'real life' about things like that (like I often do / have done here in the past) so I don't know how I'd be able to open up to a stranger face-to-face...

But you're right - nothing to lose, everything to gain. I'll remember that.

Good luck with the appointment! smile.png

I really don't do talking to people about my problems in real life either and I'm practically incapable of talking to strangers about even the most mundane things so how I'm going to open up to someone I've never met before about my innermost feelings I really don't know. Another thing I try to remind myself is that counsellors/therapists/psychologists etc. have a wealth of professional experience and will definitely have dealt with people with severe anxiety issues before and hopefully know the best way to coax us out of our shells. I know what you mean about getting emotional and teary though because that's what happened the last time I saw my doctor and it was really embarrassing. Generally I'm just more worried about getting in there and being in such a panicky state that I can't even articulate my sentences properly! Hopefully it won't be too traumatic but I'm glad I still have a couple of weeks to go. Thanks for the luck. :)

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Current Treatment and Products

Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser
Maybelline Pure Liquid Mineral Foundation
Cetaphil Moisturising Lotion
Epiduo
Dianette 
Lymecycline 
Spironolactone 
Eliminated Dairy

Acne status: Still breaking out and desperately praying that the Spironolactone will eventually clear me.
 


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Yeah I know what you mean - seems to happen to me whenever I post something positive about my skin too rolleyes.gif

And thank you smile.png Sorry you've been dealing with similar things but it's nice in a way to know I'm not the only one (even though I wish no one had to deal with feeling like this).

I really hope your appointment goes well and helps you in someway! Hopefully I do find that courage to go book the appointment. It's hard though because I can't talk about myself or how I'm feeling when it's bad like that / face to face with someone without getting really emotional or teary for some reason. I'd hate to walk in and end up in tears hah - and I don't talk to anyone in 'real life' about things like that (like I often do / have done here in the past) so I don't know how I'd be able to open up to a stranger face-to-face...

But you're right - nothing to lose, everything to gain. I'll remember that.

Good luck with the appointment! smile.png

I really don't do talking to people about my problems in real life either and I'm practically incapable of talking to strangers about even the most mundane things so how I'm going to open up to someone I've never met before about my innermost feelings I really don't know. Another thing I try to remind myself is that counsellors/therapists/psychologists etc. have a wealth of professional experience and will definitely have dealt with people with severe anxiety issues before and hopefully know the best way to coax us out of our shells. I know what you mean about getting emotional and teary though because that's what happened the last time I saw my doctor and it was really embarrassing. Generally I'm just more worried about getting in there and being in such a panicky state that I can't even articulate my sentences properly! Hopefully it won't be too traumatic but I'm glad I still have a couple of weeks to go. Thanks for the luck. smile.png

Honestly sounds exactly like how I would be. I was fighting back tears in my doctors appointment the other day - that was embarrassing enough.

But I'm sure they're used to it - especially psychologists and they're trained in helping people with this sort of thing - so I guess it's not something to worry much about.

If you can, let me know how it goes :)

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I'm feeling very very sad right now. Crying every morning and every evening. I had acne a while back when I was
like 13 or 13 and everyone was making fun of me. Kids can be cruel I know. But back then I was confident and
I didn't care about my appearance at all I was just a happy person. But the teasing was so bad that even younger
kids were making fun of me. I heard: "Have you ever tried clearasil?" or "Sams". It was horrible and I went
to a different place when we had a break in school cause I was so sad about these things. But then it got even worse
my own dad told me: we have to work on your forehead. I remember what he said when we were playing badminton.
My two uncles were making fun of me, too. How did you get so many zits? I was living in my own world. I haven't had
many friends. A lot of sad moments but at least I got the internet to talk with people about my problems and
I was very interested in Webdesign at that point. When I went to highschool my acne has cleared after I used
every single product on the market. And I found out that none of those products does really help. It costs you
a lot of money and it's better to buy some stuff like zinc cream or benzol peroxide if you have very oily skin.
Okay after that my life was okay I felt a little more confident but not like my old self. I was using a lot of
creams to prevent breakouts. And the only thing I always said to myself was: I won't get acne again. I can'T take that
no more in life. I wish I would have stopped here with my life cause it was nearly a fairytale. Acne gone and my life
almost back.

In 2009 I got a little zit on my nose. I thought it was a zit and I went to a doctor here in our stupid town
and I talked to him that I want to remove it. He wanted to cut it out and promised me that the scar would be
less visible than the zit. I said: can we laser it? No, that would leave a bigger scar. Haha!
I got it cut out and it left a horrible scar. Like those monsters in the horror movie very very ugly.
And the funny thing is that the zit came back but at a different place. I got it lasered and it left no new scar.
So it was makable to remove those thing without any stitches it was just 1mm. And I wish I had nothing done to it.

The stupid thing is I trust the doctors. I thought he can do those things but my know-how was better and I wish
I would more hear to myself. Ok, and then I got thousand of procedures on my nose trying to get rid of that scar.
None did really help. At least I got a very good doctor in Münster. She made it less visible with ice. It looked better!
And I'm so glad that she helped me. After that I got it lasered again and it left an orange peel look on my nose. But the
doc denies it. At least he got his 250 €s for ruining my life :D

I got a red mark on my forehead. Not very visible for others but for me. I got it lasered, too. But I was so stupid and
I pulled of the skin after the treatment. Now theres a tiny hole. When I look into the mirror I just see those things.
And I know people are so mean and talk shit about you so I don'T want to give them something to talk about. All my life
I've heard how ugly I was and now I'm feeling very very bad. Even my parents don't understand me which is the most
horrible thing for me. My dad told me back then that my skin was bad and now he denies it. And he'S a strong christian. Haha
And he didn't even apologize for that. I got one wrinkle between my eye brows and that thing has always bothered me a lot
cause noone in my age does have that kind of wrinkle. I mean on my cheeks my skin looks good but my forehead looks like I've had
bad bad acne. It's funny when people now say that my skin looks good but I can't believe those liars.
However, this year I heard about a private doctor how does house visits and I wanted to loose my wrinkle. He did it with silicone
1000. A permanent filler. I was just going there to remove my little forehead dent but he saw my wrinkle, too. The first time
ever one person saw a thing like I saw it. He injected it and it was looking great. But I got a bruise right there right now.
I'm a long time healer and I don't know if its normal cause othere people say the bruise lasts for 4 days. And mine is still there
and light blue/ purple. I can't sleep because of that and sometimes I think about suicide. Cause I know some people will see it
like I do. Does anyone know how long a bruise can last? Hopefully it does fade away. The doc said to me that I see it different than
others. They can't see their own bruise but I see it worse than it is. But it is THERE. And I saw a little bump on my forehead two days ago
don't know if it's a normal zit. But it's on a different position than the bruise. A lot more above and on one side of the forehead. Please
guys pray for me that it does go away.

What I want you to know is...
If you go through hell and you go back to heaven. Please stay there and don't expect to much. Cause I went back to hell and this time I have the feeling
that it would stay this way. When my acne cleared I was happy but you get to obsessed with your look which is a bad bad thing. But I have had the feeling that
I could controll my skin a little bit more than in my teens.

I just hope my bruise does fade away and those other things doesn'T bother me anymore. Cause I don'T want to do more procedueres cause I hate the healing phase
and if the result is bad it was not worth all the pain emotionally.

What I don't understand is that people are lying to me today. They do not understand why I am so obsessed with my skin / acne. I told them the
story with the childhood teasing and all my mum said was: you didn't talk to me back than about it. YES, TRUE. But I was to scarred to tell my
mom that I was going through hell in school. I was ashamed of MYSELF. I know that's stupid but thats how I felt.
I can't believe my mum and dad anymore when it comes to my look. If people teased me then they don'T deserve my trust anymore.
The same with the people who bullied my as a child. One of them was bringing a pizza to our home when I was in high school and he
was acting so nice and my mum said: why dont you talk to him, he's so nice. I wish my mother would've known the background.
I can't trust my own family and all I can do right now is pray and hope that we all can have normal skin. We don't need perfect skin
but we should be able to look into the mirror without crying!!!!!!!!!!! And please don't compare yourself to others. When I see my brothers skin
I feel like trash. My mom told me he got zits, too. Yes, 1 or 2. My face was full of it and I got scars to prove it. HE DOESN'T. And she said
I'm responsable myself for it cause I used to many products. I think my family doesn'T care about my feelings. My skin is the only thing
that has improved and it went back to a horrible look. -.-

And she always said that its sad that i lost all my contacts and stuff and just spendet my time on the pc. I'm so glad that I've had these
hobbies back then cause what would have happend when I was doing things with my friends?

This year I learned the same lesson I've learned a few years ago. The only person who must go through it is yourself. Nobody does help you!
I could go to a psychologist but I can't do it this time. I think I need to have clear skin to live my life again. The only positive thing this year
is that I ended my apprenticeship successfully. I wasn't learning and often ignored school things but I knew in my heart that I'm intelligent and
can get it. And I got it. Ha! :D Mum was proud cause she thought I wasn't bringing this to an end. But she was wrong. And after that I was looking
for a job and couldn'T find one. And now she's still saying: get a job, get a job... like that's the only thing that matters. And I can'T live my life
cause I always are about what my mum thinks. It's horrible. I'm totally in her hands and I'm 25. Now I don't know if I should go away and live alone or not-
She sais that I'm a spoiled child and I can't handle money... But I know I can. But I don't know if I can do my own stuff AT THE MOMENT. Cause I have this bruise
and I'm in a deep whole. But at home it just gets badder. They always give me money, gave me a new car, bla bla bla. And they say I'm not THANKFUL! But I am
but when we go shopping and I say I want nothing she says: nothing is GOOD ENOUGH. And the truth is why should I spent money on crap if I just want a NORMAL face?

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Every night i have the same fear... why is this pore swollen? Why is this area painful/itching? Is this area really a little higher than the rest of my skin or i am seeing things again? Tomorrow i am going to wake up with another painful ugly thing..

Now it's the last one, i don't really remember if that area was like this or tomorrow i am going to have something nodular.. many people are going to see me.. it's not painful or itching or red.. but tomorrow it could be. Just when i start to think that it could be over.. I am afraid. Or insane.

I know it's freaking hard, but try not to be obsessed in that way, it's really unhealthy and you're only making it worse. I strongly believe that acne is aggravated by negative thoughts and emotions, so you're not doing yourself a favor by trembling over every painful spot. By panicking you won't be able to change the fact that a new pimple is growing, but by being calm and relaxed you could help it to shrink down. It sounds crazy, but it happened to me dozen of times. I came back from Brazil a week ago and there I didn't have a single tiny pimple over the whole time and growing cysts shrank down. I had my pms and ate a lot of different foods, so the only way I can explain the absence of acne is - positive emotions kept my hormones in tact. That's my tactics from now on (plus acne meds, ofc tongue.png )

Just give yourself a break for some time. You can't change anything by crying and worrying - it will only make it worse, but maybe it will help if you'll be calm and positive? Your body is not able to improve when you're constantly making your body release stress hormones - they suppress your immune system, produce acne, increase blood pressure and sugar...

You are right i also believe that stress makes it worse. I try to be positive, keep my mind busy and think that it's my imagination or that one more won't make that difference but then i think that every new one is a sign that spiro isn't working and that's when i feel hopeless. I am glad you were fine in Brazil!


What clears my acne:

Spironolactone 100 mg + limiting dairy

indoxyl (duac) gel + aha + baby brush for comedones.

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Every night i have the same fear... why is this pore swollen? Why is this area painful/itching? Is this area really a little higher than the rest of my skin or i am seeing things again? Tomorrow i am going to wake up with another painful ugly thing..

Now it's the last one, i don't really remember if that area was like this or tomorrow i am going to have something nodular.. many people are going to see me.. it's not painful or itching or red.. but tomorrow it could be. Just when i start to think that it could be over.. I am afraid. Or insane.

I know it's freaking hard, but try not to be obsessed in that way, it's really unhealthy and you're only making it worse. I strongly believe that acne is aggravated by negative thoughts and emotions, so you're not doing yourself a favor by trembling over every painful spot. By panicking you won't be able to change the fact that a new pimple is growing, but by being calm and relaxed you could help it to shrink down. It sounds crazy, but it happened to me dozen of times. I came back from Brazil a week ago and there I didn't have a single tiny pimple over the whole time and growing cysts shrank down. I had my pms and ate a lot of different foods, so the only way I can explain the absence of acne is - positive emotions kept my hormones in tact. That's my tactics from now on (plus acne meds, ofc tongue.png )

Just give yourself a break for some time. You can't change anything by crying and worrying - it will only make it worse, but maybe it will help if you'll be calm and positive? Your body is not able to improve when you're constantly making your body release stress hormones - they suppress your immune system, produce acne, increase blood pressure and sugar...

You are right i also believe that stress makes it worse. I try to be positive, keep my mind busy and think that it's my imagination or that one more won't make that difference but then i think that every new one is a sign that spiro isn't working and that's when i feel hopeless. I am glad you were fine in Brazil!

I read that after some time Spiro can start acting as an androgen, instead of blocking them, and it needs a certain amount of estrogen to start working again. Has your doctor mentioned something like that? Which bcp are you on right now?

Edited by Pianina

Diagnosed with PCOS

Occasional acne + rolling scars

Meds:


- Yasmin birth control
- Spironolactone 37,5mg going 25mg
- Inositol powder 2 times/day before meal

Skincare:

- Hemp oil




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Every night i have the same fear... why is this pore swollen? Why is this area painful/itching? Is this area really a little higher than the rest of my skin or i am seeing things again? Tomorrow i am going to wake up with another painful ugly thing..

Now it's the last one, i don't really remember if that area was like this or tomorrow i am going to have something nodular.. many people are going to see me.. it's not painful or itching or red.. but tomorrow it could be. Just when i start to think that it could be over.. I am afraid. Or insane.

I know it's freaking hard, but try not to be obsessed in that way, it's really unhealthy and you're only making it worse. I strongly believe that acne is aggravated by negative thoughts and emotions, so you're not doing yourself a favor by trembling over every painful spot. By panicking you won't be able to change the fact that a new pimple is growing, but by being calm and relaxed you could help it to shrink down. It sounds crazy, but it happened to me dozen of times. I came back from Brazil a week ago and there I didn't have a single tiny pimple over the whole time and growing cysts shrank down. I had my pms and ate a lot of different foods, so the only way I can explain the absence of acne is - positive emotions kept my hormones in tact. That's my tactics from now on (plus acne meds, ofc tongue.png )

Just give yourself a break for some time. You can't change anything by crying and worrying - it will only make it worse, but maybe it will help if you'll be calm and positive? Your body is not able to improve when you're constantly making your body release stress hormones - they suppress your immune system, produce acne, increase blood pressure and sugar...

You are right i also believe that stress makes it worse. I try to be positive, keep my mind busy and think that it's my imagination or that one more won't make that difference but then i think that every new one is a sign that spiro isn't working and that's when i feel hopeless. I am glad you were fine in Brazil!

I read that after some time Spiro can start acting as an androgen, instead of blocking them, and it needs a certain amount of estrogen to start working again. Has your doctor mentioned something like that? Which bcp are you on right now?

I was off spiro for 3-4 months, not that i had any problem, just a coinsidence and i ran out but didn't break out so i thought that i grew out of acne.. but obviously i didn't. I tried to avoid taking it again but no diet helped. In fact i lost much weight and when i took the same dosage as before it was too much. Now i am on half that dose and i think it's getting better (fingers crossed). I don't use bcp because i have migraines and family history of blood clots so spiro is my safest option.. that's why i am afraid of breakouts, if spiro doesn't work i will have to stop using hormonal treatment -the only effective- or use something life-threatening.. the gyn. didn't exclude this as an option but i would prefer not push my luck.

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What clears my acne:

Spironolactone 100 mg + limiting dairy

indoxyl (duac) gel + aha + baby brush for comedones.

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Day 12 on Spiro and my skin is still doing pretty good, no break outs so I'm actually feeling great about my skin, now to focus on some of the acne scars


MORNING

Wash face with Skinceuticals Simply Clean
Neutrogena Sensitive Skin Moisturizer
Take Minocycline 100mg (when needed)

NIGHT
Take Spironolactone 50 mg
Wash face with Skinceuticals Simply Clean
Apply Aczone 5%
Retin-A .1% (waits 20 to 30 mins before applying)


MAKEUP

Origins Silk Screen Powder in Light Spice from Macys

Dermablend Smooth Indulgence Foundation
Lancôme Blush in Shimmery Pink Pool
Origins Lipstick in Buttercup
BareMinerals Flawless Definition Mascara in Black
Sephora Contour Eye Pencil Water Proof in Black Lace


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One of my patients randomly complimented my skin today - it made me wonder if she still had all her marbles...

I'm feeling down about my skin. Sometimes, with a lot of make up it does look quite nice and glowy, but other times it is flaky and the makeup looks horrible and I can't predict when it will happen (I use chemical exfoliation every day...) I'm also very down about my red marks. I thought they were fading... They have faded a lot but I'm not seeing improvement any more. I don't want to get stuck like this :(

I feel like a bad person for being upset about this. I'm lucky I don't still have severe acne, I should be grateful that I don't have acne at all! Or something worse... I am very grateful, and I have it in perspective I think but it still upsets me.

I really appreciate this thread, it helps.

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Post Roaccutane (finished December 2013) Regimen: MorningSimple Refreshing Facial WashPaula's Choice 2% BHA and 8% AHA Gels

Finacea 15% Azelaic Acid

Medik8 C- tetra

La Roche Posay Hydraphase Eyes with hyaluronic acid

Eucerin UltraSensitive Soothing Care for Normal-Combination Skin

La Roche Posay Dry Touch SPF 50+Nivea Lip Care Sun Protect SPF 30MAC Studio Fix Fluid NW10, No7 Perfect Light Loose Powder - TranslucentEveningSimple Refreshing Facial WashDifferin 0.1% Adapalene La a Roche a Posay Lipikar Baume with Niacinamide <p>Vaseline100% acne free and left only with the faintest few red marks and shallow scarring. Products no longer used for acne prevention/treatment but for anti-ageing and hyper pigmentation (mostly just freckled now rather than post acne!)


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I was off spiro for 3-4 months, not that i had any problem, just a coinsidence and i ran out but didn't break out so i thought that i grew out of acne.. but obviously i didn't. I tried to avoid taking it again but no diet helped. In fact i lost much weight and when i took the same dosage as before it was too much. Now i am on half that dose and i think it's getting better (fingers crossed). I don't use bcp because i have migraines and family history of blood clots so spiro is my safest option.. that's why i am afraid of breakouts, if spiro doesn't work i will have to stop using hormonal treatment -the only effective- or use something life-threatening.. the gyn. didn't exclude this as an option but i would prefer not push my luck.

Yes, don't take bcp if you're not comfortable with the thought :) I read somewhere, that you have just started your second round of Spiro and panicked, because it didn't work as fast as the first time, is it true? If so - relax, these things take so much time to kick in and hormones are so unpredictable. Bcp worked for me only 4-5 months after. You just need to not attack your body with negative emotions, and be patient. I wouldn't dare to suggest that, but sun and solarium (5 min twice a week), always helps me with small inflamed pores (UV light is disinfecting) . But I can't recommend it, as many people could have it worse from it :(


Diagnosed with PCOS

Occasional acne + rolling scars

Meds:


- Yasmin birth control
- Spironolactone 37,5mg going 25mg
- Inositol powder 2 times/day before meal

Skincare:

- Hemp oil




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I was off spiro for 3-4 months, not that i had any problem, just a coinsidence and i ran out but didn't break out so i thought that i grew out of acne.. but obviously i didn't. I tried to avoid taking it again but no diet helped. In fact i lost much weight and when i took the same dosage as before it was too much. Now i am on half that dose and i think it's getting better (fingers crossed). I don't use bcp because i have migraines and family history of blood clots so spiro is my safest option.. that's why i am afraid of breakouts, if spiro doesn't work i will have to stop using hormonal treatment -the only effective- or use something life-threatening.. the gyn. didn't exclude this as an option but i would prefer not push my luck.

Yes, don't take bcp if you're not comfortable with the thought smile.png I read somewhere, that you have just started your second round of Spiro and panicked, because it didn't work as fast as the first time, is it true? If so - relax, these things take so much time to kick in and hormones are so unpredictable. Bcp worked for me only 4-5 months after. You just need to not attack your body with negative emotions, and be patient. I wouldn't dare to suggest that, but sun and solarium (5 min twice a week), always helps me with small inflamed pores (UV light is disinfecting) . But I can't recommend it, as many people could have it worse from it sad.png

That's exactly what happened. Before spiro every pimple i had would become a red mark on my face for months.. i usually had no more that three active pimples but with all these red marks i looked like i had 100. After 2 years of spiro all these red marks healed, i uploaded a photo of my skin taken just a few weeks before quitting it and it's just white, no red at all for the first time after my pre-adolescent years.. and then i started breaking out again and the red marks build up and they take so long to fade. Even if i stop breaking out today it will take months to return to what my skin was like. I am more relaxed now because i believe i finally have some results, i ate something with egg today and i used to avoid it because it's a common allergen, let's see what happens.

Usually my sun exposure is more than that-just waiting for the bus is enough. I haven't tried solarium, i don't know if i should because i have a mole i should remove but with all these problems i don't know when i will be ready for this.. i am considering to do a facial cleansing and apply a topical retinoid (i used topical isotretinoin before spiro and have some left) to unclog pores but i am afraid of a possible initial breakout.


What clears my acne:

Spironolactone 100 mg + limiting dairy

indoxyl (duac) gel + aha + baby brush for comedones.

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I'll have finished all my exams / assessment for this uni degree on Friday which is pretty exciting!

I've planned a short holiday at one of the beaches here with some friends from uni to relax and celebrate graduating (provided we all pass these last exams :P )

So I am looking forward to this trip but at the same time I'm a bit worried about it. The beach isn't the best idea for someone who worries about their skin - I can't exactly wear makeup if I want to go swimming in the pool or ocean and I've always had a little makeup on around my friends so I'm worried about them seeing me with completely bare skin in the apartment at night / in the mornings.

I don't wear a lot of makeup, so they know I've had skin issues and have PIH but they've never commented on it before and the little makeup I wear still helps to hide things a bit. It's a bit of a security blanket... I know I don't wear a lot of it so it doesn't make a massive difference - but I just can't go out without anything...

And my friends I'm going with really do have perfect skin and are beautiful girls. I just don't want to end up worrying over my skin all the time while on holiday. And don't want them to realise how much my skin gets to me

I am happy though that my skin has improved so much with the regimen - if I do have to go out without makeup, it will be a lot easier than if my skin was still like what it was before the regimen. My skin isn't perfect and I still deal with breakouts (always a couple of tiny actives but that's so much easier to deal with) so I still feel like I need makeup though. I'm not entirely confident in my own skin yet...

Maybe I should try not wearing makeup when at the beach... maybe that would help me with my confidence about my skin....

I don't know... I'll see what happens

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I'll have finished all my exams / assessment for this uni degree on Friday which is pretty exciting!

I've planned a short holiday at one of the beaches here with some friends from uni to relax and celebrate graduating (provided we all pass these last exams tongue.png )

So I am looking forward to this trip but at the same time I'm a bit worried about it. The beach isn't the best idea for someone who worries about their skin - I can't exactly wear makeup if I want to go swimming in the pool or ocean and I've always had a little makeup on around my friends so I'm worried about them seeing me with completely bare skin in the apartment at night / in the mornings.

I don't wear a lot of makeup, so they know I've had skin issues and have PIH but they've never commented on it before and the little makeup I wear still helps to hide things a bit. It's a bit of a security blanket... I know I don't wear a lot of it so it doesn't make a massive difference - but I just can't go out without anything...

And my friends I'm going with really do have perfect skin and are beautiful girls. I just don't want to end up worrying over my skin all the time while on holiday. And don't want them to realise how much my skin gets to me

I am happy though that my skin has improved so much with the regimen - if I do have to go out without makeup, it will be a lot easier than if my skin was still like what it was before the regimen. My skin isn't perfect and I still deal with breakouts (always a couple of tiny actives but that's so much easier to deal with) so I still feel like I need makeup though. I'm not entirely confident in my own skin yet...

Maybe I should try not wearing makeup when at the beach... maybe that would help me with my confidence about my skin....

I don't know... I'll see what happens

Oh, I totally understand this! First of all, congratulations on your degree! So exciting!

Secondly, the beach sounds good and I'm glad your skin has improved with the regimen! Maybe for on the way to the beach, you can put a little cover up on and then when you get there, use some face wipes to get it off and sunscreen right after! It's hard to go out without makeup-- but most people are decent and nice and won't comment on any imperfections you have. Just wear big sunglasses!! :D Or, if it helps, keep *some* of your makeup on! If it gradually fades from the ocean water, no one will even notice.

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Thoroughly horrible. My skin is still breaking out at the age of 40. It`s not just that though, my life is well and truly rubbish right now. I`m single, have hardly any friends and no social life to speak of. What`s more, this evening I have had some really sad news that has just made my mood a whole lot worse. Sorry for the extreme negativity. I hope you are all doing better than me right now.

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I'll have finished all my exams / assessment for this uni degree on Friday which is pretty exciting!

I've planned a short holiday at one of the beaches here with some friends from uni to relax and celebrate graduating (provided we all pass these last exams :P )

So I am looking forward to this trip but at the same time I'm a bit worried about it. The beach isn't the best idea for someone who worries about their skin - I can't exactly wear makeup if I want to go swimming in the pool or ocean and I've always had a little makeup on around my friends so I'm worried about them seeing me with completely bare skin in the apartment at night / in the mornings.

I don't wear a lot of makeup, so they know I've had skin issues and have PIH but they've never commented on it before and the little makeup I wear still helps to hide things a bit. It's a bit of a security blanket... I know I don't wear a lot of it so it doesn't make a massive difference - but I just can't go out without anything...

And my friends I'm going with really do have perfect skin and are beautiful girls. I just don't want to end up worrying over my skin all the time while on holiday. And don't want them to realise how much my skin gets to me

I am happy though that my skin has improved so much with the regimen - if I do have to go out without makeup, it will be a lot easier than if my skin was still like what it was before the regimen. My skin isn't perfect and I still deal with breakouts (always a couple of tiny actives but that's so much easier to deal with) so I still feel like I need makeup though. I'm not entirely confident in my own skin yet...

Maybe I should try not wearing makeup when at the beach... maybe that would help me with my confidence about my skin....

I don't know... I'll see what happens

i think there are sunscreens with color but i have never tried them. I believe it's worth the try to see if it helps but i have no idea about durability in water..

What clears my acne:

Spironolactone 100 mg + limiting dairy

indoxyl (duac) gel + aha + baby brush for comedones.

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So sorry your going thru a rough time right now but just know your not alone...im 43 and still get break outs!!!! I'm on my 2nd week of Spiro so I'm hoping this will fix the hormonal acne I've dealing with the past few years. Hope things get better for you! If you ever need someone to talk to I'm more than happy to hear from you :)

Thoroughly horrible. My skin is still breaking out at the age of 40. It`s not just that though, my life is well and truly rubbish right now. I`m single, have hardly any friends and no social life to speak of. What`s more, this evening I have had some really sad news that has just made my mood a whole lot worse. Sorry for the extreme negativity. I hope you are all doing better than me right now.

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MORNING

Wash face with Skinceuticals Simply Clean
Neutrogena Sensitive Skin Moisturizer
Take Minocycline 100mg (when needed)

NIGHT
Take Spironolactone 50 mg
Wash face with Skinceuticals Simply Clean
Apply Aczone 5%
Retin-A .1% (waits 20 to 30 mins before applying)


MAKEUP

Origins Silk Screen Powder in Light Spice from Macys

Dermablend Smooth Indulgence Foundation
Lancôme Blush in Shimmery Pink Pool
Origins Lipstick in Buttercup
BareMinerals Flawless Definition Mascara in Black
Sephora Contour Eye Pencil Water Proof in Black Lace


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So sorry your going thru a rough time right now but just know your not alone...im 43 and still get break outs!!!! I'm on my 2nd week of Spiro so I'm hoping this will fix the hormonal acne I've dealing with the past few years. Hope things get better for you! If you ever need someone to talk to I'm more than happy to hear from you smile.png

Thoroughly horrible. My skin is still breaking out at the age of 40. It`s not just that though, my life is well and truly rubbish right now. I`m single, have hardly any friends and no social life to speak of. What`s more, this evening I have had some really sad news that has just made my mood a whole lot worse. Sorry for the extreme negativity. I hope you are all doing better than me right now.

Thank you so much PinkBunny for your kind words. I truly sympathise with you for still having breakouts into your 40`s, I know how frustrating that is. Really hope that the Spiro works to clear up the hormonal acne. It`s not just my skin, I have a whole load of other issues right now and having heard some really sad news earlier tonight, I`m in a complete state at the moment. Thank you for the offer to talk - the same applies to you if you ever feel the need to.smile.png

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I've been thinking about a really nasty thing that someone said in another thread about me ALL DAY today. I've been in a terrible and sad mood, which hasn't happened in such a long time. I went for a run in the woods, but it didn't help that much even though it's so beautiful outside.

My skin isn't bad anymore, but the picture that I posted showed it at its worst. I felt so bad at the time and I remember feeling so hopeless. I was so afraid anyone would see me without makeup on then. I'm happy that my skin is drastically improved, but that doesn't take away the fact that I still know the pain of having acne and how much it affects morale and confidence.

I just can't believe some people are so mean. I can't believe I cried because of something someone said over the INTERNET.....:(

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i think there are sunscreens with color but i have never tried them. I believe it's worth the try to see if it helps but i have no idea about durability in water..

You're right - there are tinted sunscreens - I didn't even think of that! :P

When I've used them in the past, the tint doesn't hide anything for me - but it's worth a try for sure.

Oh, I totally understand this! First of all, congratulations on your degree! So exciting!

Secondly, the beach sounds good and I'm glad your skin has improved with the regimen! Maybe for on the way to the beach, you can put a little cover up on and then when you get there, use some face wipes to get it off and sunscreen right after! It's hard to go out without makeup-- but most people are decent and nice and won't comment on any imperfections you have. Just wear big sunglasses!! biggrin.png Or, if it helps, keep *some* of your makeup on! If it gradually fades from the ocean water, no one will even notice.

Thank you! :)

Sunglasses are a good idea actually :P And I need to go get a big hat for the sun anyway - so I might just do that and that might make me feel comfortable enough then without makeup. I'm going to try not to care about my skin for that time and just try and have a good time

Besides, - It would probably look more ridiculous wearing more makeup at the beach than it would to wear none and have imperfections show, if that makes any sense.

Thoroughly horrible. My skin is still breaking out at the age of 40. It`s not just that though, my life is well and truly rubbish right now. I`m single, have hardly any friends and no social life to speak of. What`s more, this evening I have had some really sad news that has just made my mood a whole lot worse. Sorry for the extreme negativity. I hope you are all doing better than me right now.

Sorry to hear of the rough time you're having Gunnke. Hope things are looking up for you again soon!

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What are microcysts?


What clears my acne:

Spironolactone 100 mg + limiting dairy

indoxyl (duac) gel + aha + baby brush for comedones.

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