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I got a rash from using tea tree oil again. I'm not sure why I keep doing that. I just love the smell and it reminds me of a time when I was clear. I just developed an allergy, I guess. So sad.

I hate the rash though because I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow, and I'll have to stare at it.

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I got a rash from using tea tree oil again. I'm not sure why I keep doing that. I just love the smell and it reminds me of a time when I was clear. I just developed an allergy, I guess. So sad.

I hate the rash though because I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow, and I'll have to stare at it.

That's annoying :( Do you use it full strength / undiluted? Could that be why you're getting a rash from it or does it happen even if diluted?

Either way, hope it clears soon!

(And yeah I hate going to have my hair cut because of having to sit in front of a mirror for ages) :P

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I feel a cyst coming on!! It hasn't turned red yet but I feel the slight bump already. Hate when this happens! Oh well, I really shouldn't complain because it is just the one cyst.

I need to remind myself to carry around some AHA for spot treating when I'm out and about my day.

Other than that....as is well. I hope you guys are having a great day.

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I got a rash from using tea tree oil again. I'm not sure why I keep doing that. I just love the smell and it reminds me of a time when I was clear. I just developed an allergy, I guess. So sad.

I hate the rash though because I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow, and I'll have to stare at it.

That's annoying sad.png Do you use it full strength / undiluted? Could that be why you're getting a rash from it or does it happen even if diluted?

Either way, hope it clears soon!

(And yeah I hate going to have my hair cut because of having to sit in front of a mirror for ages) tongue.png

A couple months ago, I used it undiluted because that's what I did in the past. That's the first rash I got from it.

So this time, I put water in a small spray bottle and put 2-3 drops of tea tree oil in it and shook it around. Then I put it on a cotton pad and swiped it over my face pretty quickly. I still got a rash. sad.png Ah! It's so sad to me. lol. I'm looking for other ways to kill bacteria on my face as I'm allergic to bp too. I'm finding that epsom salts are doing a lovely job at that! But I've only been using them for about a week now.

I spent all yesterday with no makeup on and hydrocortisone cream smeared all over my face. Today, I'm only a little itchy and rash has gone down significantly! biggrin.png Thanks for your sympathies! I was a sad sight yesterday.

Anyway, off to get my pixie cut! tongue.png wee!

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Haven`t posted on here in a while. I finished CBT a couple of weeks ago and I`ve been feeling much better about myself and up to two or three days ago, my skin had been really clear. However totally out of the blue, in the past three days I have started to break out on the sides of my neck and jawline and even have one or two spots on my chest and forearms of all places. I`ve absolutely no idea how this has happened. I always thought coffee was a trigger but I haven`t had coffee or a cappuccino for two weeks. I`m forty now and although there is a genetic link as both my mum and gran suffered from acne, I really thought that at my age I would have outgrown it by now. I`ve put up with this for getting on for three decades and it is even more frustrating these days because I do get clear periods. They never last though and maybe I have just got to accept that my fate in life was to always have acne and breakouts. I`m really trying to remain positive and rational about the situation but it is hard not to feel ugly when all the evidence that you see in the mirror suggests that you are.

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Haven`t posted on here in a while. I finished CBT a couple of weeks ago and I`ve been feeling much better about myself and up to two or three days ago, my skin had been really clear. However totally out of the blue, in the past three days I have started to break out on the sides of my neck and jawline and even have one or two spots on my chest and forearms of all places. I`ve absolutely no idea how this has happened. I always thought coffee was a trigger but I haven`t had coffee or a cappuccino for two weeks. I`m forty now and although there is a genetic link as both my mum and gran suffered from acne, I really thought that at my age I would have outgrown it by now. I`ve put up with this for getting on for three decades and it is even more frustrating these days because I do get clear periods. They never last though and maybe I have just got to accept that my fate in life was to always have acne and breakouts. I`m really trying to remain positive and rational about the situation but it is hard not to feel ugly when all the evidence that you see in the mirror suggests that you are.

Sorry to here that you're struggling a bit. You've made a lot of progress w/ your CBT. Even though you are done w/ your sessions, try to put your lessons to good use.

I know what you mean about just trying to accept yourself and your condition, but its so friggin hard to accept.

I am gonna be going back to therapy starting next month. I need help to dig myself outta this hole.

So lately all the topicals Ive been using for my skin, ones Ive been using for years, have been burning the hell outta me. So I called the derm and got right in. So on top of acne, I now have seborrheic dermatitis. My face feels pretty irritated. I was prescribed some lotion for the SD, and Klaron, which worked wonderfully in the past but kinda lost its effectiveness. Im not too hopeful for this regimen :(

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Haven`t posted on here in a while. I finished CBT a couple of weeks ago and I`ve been feeling much better about myself and up to two or three days ago, my skin had been really clear. However totally out of the blue, in the past three days I have started to break out on the sides of my neck and jawline and even have one or two spots on my chest and forearms of all places. I`ve absolutely no idea how this has happened. I always thought coffee was a trigger but I haven`t had coffee or a cappuccino for two weeks. I`m forty now and although there is a genetic link as both my mum and gran suffered from acne, I really thought that at my age I would have outgrown it by now. I`ve put up with this for getting on for three decades and it is even more frustrating these days because I do get clear periods. They never last though and maybe I have just got to accept that my fate in life was to always have acne and breakouts. I`m really trying to remain positive and rational about the situation but it is hard not to feel ugly when all the evidence that you see in the mirror suggests that you are.

Sorry to here that you're struggling a bit. You've made a lot of progress w/ your CBT. Even though you are done w/ your sessions, try to put your lessons to good use.

I know what you mean about just trying to accept yourself and your condition, but its so friggin hard to accept.

I am gonna be going back to therapy starting next month. I need help to dig myself outta this hole.

So lately all the topicals Ive been using for my skin, ones Ive been using for years, have been burning the hell outta me. So I called the derm and got right in. So on top of acne, I now have seborrheic dermatitis. My face feels pretty irritated. I was prescribed some lotion for the SD, and Klaron, which worked wonderfully in the past but kinda lost its effectiveness. Im not too hopeful for this regimen sad.png

Thanks for positive comments goodz19. I will try to put what I learnt during CBT into practice even if it is quite hard to do that right now.

By the way, well done on making the decision to go back to therapy. It takes a lot of courage to admit that you need help and I definitely admire you for deciding to give therapy another go. I really hope it works out for you this time.

I`m really sorry to hear about the seborrheic dermatitis. You did the right thing by going to the derm though and I hope that what you have been prescribed does work for you even if you are not too hopeful.

All the best, keep hanging in there. :)

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Haven`t posted on here in a while. I finished CBT a couple of weeks ago and I`ve been feeling much better about myself and up to two or three days ago, my skin had been really clear. However totally out of the blue, in the past three days I have started to break out on the sides of my neck and jawline and even have one or two spots on my chest and forearms of all places. I`ve absolutely no idea how this has happened. I always thought coffee was a trigger but I haven`t had coffee or a cappuccino for two weeks. I`m forty now and although there is a genetic link as both my mum and gran suffered from acne, I really thought that at my age I would have outgrown it by now. I`ve put up with this for getting on for three decades and it is even more frustrating these days because I do get clear periods. They never last though and maybe I have just got to accept that my fate in life was to always have acne and breakouts. I`m really trying to remain positive and rational about the situation but it is hard not to feel ugly when all the evidence that you see in the mirror suggests that you are.

Sorry to hear you're feeling down. You've made so much progress though, it would be a shame to backtrack now. If you have the dreaded "acne-prone" skin most of us have, you just need to keep it under control as best as you can and not beat yourself up about it. If you feel worse every time you look in the mirror, then avoid mirrors for a while. That's what I've been doing - I try not to scrutinize every flaw and only look closely when I have makeup on because that gives me the illusion of normal skin. Sometimes you might be doing all the right things and avoiding the triggers, and you still breakout. That's acne, it's unpredictable sometimes. This month I saw my face heal very quickly and scars seem less prominent, but I still couldn't get past my mid-cycle breakout. Instead of worrying about it, I just ignored it and pretended my skin looked alright and it helped me get through it. I just kept myself busy and didn't stare at the mirror, and it went away. I'm also taking vitamin D and getting daily sunshine, so that's definitely helping me beat depression. I see people with bad skin every day at my workplace, and most of them seem happy and in relationships, so they must be doing something right.

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Haven`t posted on here in a while. I finished CBT a couple of weeks ago and I`ve been feeling much better about myself and up to two or three days ago, my skin had been really clear. However totally out of the blue, in the past three days I have started to break out on the sides of my neck and jawline and even have one or two spots on my chest and forearms of all places. I`ve absolutely no idea how this has happened. I always thought coffee was a trigger but I haven`t had coffee or a cappuccino for two weeks. I`m forty now and although there is a genetic link as both my mum and gran suffered from acne, I really thought that at my age I would have outgrown it by now. I`ve put up with this for getting on for three decades and it is even more frustrating these days because I do get clear periods. They never last though and maybe I have just got to accept that my fate in life was to always have acne and breakouts. I`m really trying to remain positive and rational about the situation but it is hard not to feel ugly when all the evidence that you see in the mirror suggests that you are.

Sorry to hear you're feeling down. You've made so much progress though, it would be a shame to backtrack now. If you have the dreaded "acne-prone" skin most of us have, you just need to keep it under control as best as you can and not beat yourself up about it. If you feel worse every time you look in the mirror, then avoid mirrors for a while. That's what I've been doing - I try not to scrutinize every flaw and only look closely when I have makeup on because that gives me the illusion of normal skin. Sometimes you might be doing all the right things and avoiding the triggers, and you still breakout. That's acne, it's unpredictable sometimes. This month I saw my face heal very quickly and scars seem less prominent, but I still couldn't get past my mid-cycle breakout. Instead of worrying about it, I just ignored it and pretended my skin looked alright and it helped me get through it. I just kept myself busy and didn't stare at the mirror, and it went away. I'm also taking vitamin D and getting daily sunshine, so that's definitely helping me beat depression. I see people with bad skin every day at my workplace, and most of them seem happy and in relationships, so they must be doing something right.

Thank you so much for the advice and support Wishclean. Mirror checking is something that I have worked really hard to cut down on through CBT. Admittedly, I indulged in a bit of mirror checking earlier this evening but I`ve avoided them for the rest of evening. Mirror checking is self-defeating as you just end up scrutinising every flaw and blemish and ultimately, that just leads into a downward spiral of negative and destructive thoughts. As I said before, it is so frustrating but the rational part of me knows that whilst I am currently broken out, it is in no way as bad as the acne that I used to have and it can and hopefully will clear in a week or two. If you are acne prone or have underlying genetic factors, sadly there is very little that you can do to sometimes avoid breaking out. You seem to have a very positive and reasoned outlook with regard to your own skin issues so kudos to you for that. :)

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Hey everyone I'm new to acne.org but I'm loving all the information and this website overall. So a little about myself I'm 23 and my whole life and never suffered from acne but when I turned 21 I had a serious breakout for like a couple months but it cleared then two months ago it went from little breaks out to moderate/severe acne (mainly little bumps everywhere) and lots of redness I am more self conscious than ever, my self esteem is so low, I feel ugly now because I felt my face was one of my good qualities even though that sounds conceited. I am a full time nursing student so I have to go to class and work with patients mon-fri which I dread because I feel like everyone is just staring at my acne and not into my eyes and on weekend I stay home to let my skin breathe and so I can hide from the world because I feel so ugly. So basically everyday I just hate my face, my skin, I hate looking in the mirror nowadays. Can anyone relate? I'm so depressed over this I don't know how to cope if I can chose to never go out I would. Thanks for listening have a blessed day.

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Skin was looking really good. Yesterday I decided to wash with soap for the first time in a while. Then today I decided to use Head & Shoulders on my face. No clue why I did either of those things. Looking horrible right now, feeling worse for being such an idiot.

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Hey everyone I'm new to acne.org but I'm loving all the information and this website overall. So a little about myself I'm 23 and my whole life and never suffered from acne but when I turned 21 I had a serious breakout for like a couple months but it cleared then two months ago it went from little breaks out to moderate/severe acne (mainly little bumps everywhere) and lots of redness I am more self conscious than ever, my self esteem is so low, I feel ugly now because I felt my face was one of my good qualities even though that sounds conceited. I am a full time nursing student so I have to go to class and work with patients mon-fri which I dread because I feel like everyone is just staring at my acne and not into my eyes and on weekend I stay home to let my skin breathe and so I can hide from the world because I feel so ugly. So basically everyday I just hate my face, my skin, I hate looking in the mirror nowadays. Can anyone relate? I'm so depressed over this I don't know how to cope if I can chose to never go out I would. Thanks for listening have a blessed day.

Welcome. Many, many people here are going thru the same feelings you are, myself included. For some positive reinforcement, Id suggest scrolling thru a few pages of this part of the forum; you'll be able to find lots of helpful hints to try to deal w/ what you are going thru. Hopefully, some will work for you. Good luck!

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I have so much hate for my skin today! Even with an absolute tonne of make-up on I still look and feel utterly disgusting and there's literally nothing I can do about it. Why did Mother Nature decide to curse us all with this horrible skin problem anyway?! What purpose does it serve? I don't feel like I'm learning anything constructive from the experience whatsoever. All it does is make me hate myself even more than I would do anyway.

Apologies for the rant. I really hope all of you out there are having a more positive feeling day than me!

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Hey everyone I'm new to acne.org but I'm loving all the information and this website overall. So a little about myself I'm 23 and my whole life and never suffered from acne but when I turned 21 I had a serious breakout for like a couple months but it cleared then two months ago it went from little breaks out to moderate/severe acne (mainly little bumps everywhere) and lots of redness I am more self conscious than ever, my self esteem is so low, I feel ugly now because I felt my face was one of my good qualities even though that sounds conceited. I am a full time nursing student so I have to go to class and work with patients mon-fri which I dread because I feel like everyone is just staring at my acne and not into my eyes and on weekend I stay home to let my skin breathe and so I can hide from the world because I feel so ugly. So basically everyday I just hate my face, my skin, I hate looking in the mirror nowadays. Can anyone relate? I'm so depressed over this I don't know how to cope if I can chose to never go out I would. Thanks for listening have a blessed day.

Hello! I'm 23 as well, but I've had acne since around 14. You're definitely not alone in how you feel, and we can all relate to you completely. This is the best thread to just let your feelings out about your acne. :) I actually quite like my face, like you like yours. And yes, acne can ruin the way you feel about it. But this thread, and other threads, have helped me look at my features rather than my acne. I'm feeling a lot better about myself, even during a breakout. I hope acne.org can help you, too :)

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Today wasn't a great skin day - really bad flaky skin around my mouth that just got worse when I smiled, spoke or ate... I have a few breakouts but it's the dry skin that has been annoying me.

But today was great because I was offered a job! :D I've been searching for work for a really long time so it's so great to have something now!

Hope you're all doing well.

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Kind of scared. Compared with where I was a month ago, I'm much better. But I'm in my first month off birth control, and I'm afraid I can tell my skin is going to react badly. The cyst on my jaw is either draining as pustules (is this even possible?) or I'm just getting new ones right nearby.. anyway, now it's hurting like mad.

School is stressing me out right now, and I've taken the step to drop a couple of classes so that I'm not too overworked. Now I need to get a job, but I'm afraid my confidence is too low. Yesterday, even though I hated myself for it, I was having a really hard time looking someone in the eye because of the lighting in the room and I thought I looked terrible. And most job interviews take place in horribly lit locations. Aghh!!!!

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Today wasn't a great skin day - really bad flaky skin around my mouth that just got worse when I smiled, spoke or ate... I have a few breakouts but it's the dry skin that has been annoying me.

But today was great because I was offered a job! biggrin.png I've been searching for work for a really long time so it's so great to have something now!

Hope you're all doing well.

That's great news about your job Lilly, well done!! :) That must be quite a relief. I hope the dryness improves for you soon because I know how frustrating that can be.

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Clarisonic is working really well at getting all the makeup and dead skin off; it lets me wear makeup so that I can cover up those scars! I just wish my hair still wasn't falling out... :/

Hey everyone I'm new to acne.org but I'm loving all the information and this website overall. So a little about myself I'm 23 and my whole life and never suffered from acne but when I turned 21 I had a serious breakout for like a couple months but it cleared then two months ago it went from little breaks out to moderate/severe acne (mainly little bumps everywhere) and lots of redness I am more self conscious than ever, my self esteem is so low, I feel ugly now because I felt my face was one of my good qualities even though that sounds conceited. I am a full time nursing student so I have to go to class and work with patients mon-fri which I dread because I feel like everyone is just staring at my acne and not into my eyes and on weekend I stay home to let my skin breathe and so I can hide from the world because I feel so ugly. So basically everyday I just hate my face, my skin, I hate looking in the mirror nowadays. Can anyone relate? I'm so depressed over this I don't know how to cope if I can chose to never go out I would. Thanks for listening have a blessed day.

Welcome! I'm 21 and I've had acne since the age of 13, on and off. We all understand how you feel. My cheeks used to be the favorite part of my face, because they were cute and just made my face. I got cystic acne there when I was 19, which cleared up after going to the dermatologist. After that, I started struggling with non-cystic acne that ironically, scarred my cheeks a lot worse than my cystic acne. So, those pretty little cheeks that made me look youthfully radiant are gone :( Acne is a really hard disease to cope with, because your face is what you present to people. I think few people with acne don't feel self conscious about it. It's also so hard to feel like you can't control your own appearance, that you are literally incapable of showing your best face to the world.

Do try to focus on the other good things in your life/your assets. And, don't let acne stop you from living your life -- have fun on the weekends -- it will help reduce stress and help you cope with your acne, I promise! We've all sat at home because of our skin, and it's tough, but you just can't do that. When you see how much your friends enjoy being around you, it will boost your confidence.

In some ways, acne is a blessing. You learn to define yourself by things other than your appearance. You learn to ground your confidence in really substantial things. That's what I've learned from my acne. You'll have bad days, but we'll be here to support you!

Also, have you been to the dermatologist? Honestly, without Tazorac, my cystic acne would still be blooming. That stuff was painful. The derm can help and Dan's regimen is really effective for non-cystic acne!

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feeling ehh about my skin. And I might start training as a backup cashier for the retail store I work at. I'm not nervous right now, but I might feel insecure about my skin once I'm on the register :(

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Today wasn't a great skin day - really bad flaky skin around my mouth that just got worse when I smiled, spoke or ate... I have a few breakouts but it's the dry skin that has been annoying me.

But today was great because I was offered a job! biggrin.png I've been searching for work for a really long time so it's so great to have something now!

Hope you're all doing well.

congratulations lily!

i'm happy for you.i'll pray this good luck stays with you forever & you feel great skin wise as well.

cheers!

Clarisonic is working really well at getting all the makeup and dead skin off; it lets me wear makeup so that I can cover up those scars! I just wish my hair still wasn't falling out... :/

Hey everyone I'm new to acne.org but I'm loving all the information and this website overall. So a little about myself I'm 23 and my whole life and never suffered from acne but when I turned 21 I had a serious breakout for like a couple months but it cleared then two months ago it went from little breaks out to moderate/severe acne (mainly little bumps everywhere) and lots of redness I am more self conscious than ever, my self esteem is so low, I feel ugly now because I felt my face was one of my good qualities even though that sounds conceited. I am a full time nursing student so I have to go to class and work with patients mon-fri which I dread because I feel like everyone is just staring at my acne and not into my eyes and on weekend I stay home to let my skin breathe and so I can hide from the world because I feel so ugly. So basically everyday I just hate my face, my skin, I hate looking in the mirror nowadays. Can anyone relate? I'm so depressed over this I don't know how to cope if I can chose to never go out I would. Thanks for listening have a blessed day.

Welcome! I'm 21 and I've had acne since the age of 13, on and off. We all understand how you feel. My cheeks used to be the favorite part of my face, because they were cute and just made my face. I got cystic acne there when I was 19, which cleared up after going to the dermatologist. After that, I started struggling with non-cystic acne that ironically, scarred my cheeks a lot worse than my cystic acne. So, those pretty little cheeks that made me look youthfully radiant are gone sad.png Acne is a really hard disease to cope with, because your face is what you present to people. I think few people with acne don't feel self conscious about it. It's also so hard to feel like you can't control your own appearance, that you are literally incapable of showing your best face to the world.

Do try to focus on the other good things in your life/your assets. And, don't let acne stop you from living your life -- have fun on the weekends -- it will help reduce stress and help you cope with your acne, I promise! We've all sat at home because of our skin, and it's tough, but you just can't do that. When you see how much your friends enjoy being around you, it will boost your confidence.

In some ways, acne is a blessing. You learn to define yourself by things other than your appearance. You learn to ground your confidence in really substantial things. That's what I've learned from my acne. You'll have bad days, but we'll be here to support you!

Also, have you been to the dermatologist? Honestly, without Tazorac, my cystic acne would still be blooming. That stuff was painful. The derm can help and Dan's regimen is really effective for non-cystic acne!

are you trying anything for your hair-fall?

did you figure out what the main cause is? hormonal? (i remember reading somewhere that the results you got were normal, but i'm sorry i've not been regular here so i've lost track!)

i am having bad hair-fall too(for a few weeks now) & i consulted my mum's homeopathic doctor.

he's suggested me a lotion(hair tonic) that helps, i'm unsure since i can't try one right now.(schedule!)

you can try mintop (5%), and see if that helps.

it doesn't stop hairfall for everyone but definitely helps grow new ones faster.

i'll talk to that doc once again for myself & put up if i find any help.

hope you find some solution soon!

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I feel like a totally different person...
Only now I understood what terrible mood swings I had on Diane35 that I even turned to psychiatry to get some treatment. But everything suddenly changed this month when I switched to Yasmin...I am amazed. Suddenly I'm able to walk around without feeling that overwhelming emptiness, no need to cry for any small reason or write stupid messages to my boyfriend, who is overseas for 2 months now. However Diane35 cleared me up amazingly (though not entirely), so if it's gonna go as good on Yasmin + no mood swings, it will awesome.
Still healing from a small IB from the new pills, but otherwise - only active right now.

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I feel like a totally different person...

Only now I understood what terrible mood swings I had on Diane35 that I even turned to psychiatry to get some treatment. But everything suddenly changed this month when I switched to Yasmin...I am amazed. Suddenly I'm able to walk around without feeling that overwhelming emptiness, no need to cry for any small reason or write stupid messages to my boyfriend, who is overseas for 2 months now. However Diane35 cleared me up amazingly (though not entirely), so if it's gonna go as good on Yasmin + no mood swings, it will awesome.

Still healing from a small IB from the new pills, but otherwise - only active right now.

Oh gosh! I know the feeling! Switching from the MIrena IUD to Beyaz has lifted some sort of fog from my brain, I don't sit around sulking anymore, I don't get randomly angry and cry, and I don't notice every little sound that used to bother me. Reading your post made me smile because I know what a relief it is to finally feel like yourself. I'm happy that your IB is healing :D My semi-initial breakout from Beyaz is healing and I'm finally able to start working on my red marks.

I hope Yasmin keeps you clear like Diane35!

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Not doing good today. Yesterday my skin was looking pretty good but this morning I have woken to find three new massive pimples on my forehead. The worst part is I know they will leave bad HIP that will take weeks and weeks to fade :/

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Haven't felt this good about my skin in years. I haven't been wearing foundation for the past week, only a little concealer here and there. And my skin has just looked great! The oil level has definitely decreased and I can tell the Spiro is working. Unfortunately, I still get blackheads, which turn into zits after a couple of weeks. Case in point, one blackhead on my check turned into a zit yesterday and today I was able to pop it. Kinda bummed cause my skin was looking so clear, but oh well, it's only one zit.

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Today I'm feeling pretty good, but the weird thing is that everytime I post about feeling good, something bad happens.

I'm a bit nervous about my upcoming appointment with the neurologist. My doctor can't figure out why I get numbness in my hands and feet almost every night, and after ruling out diabetes, b12 deficiency, and metal toxicity, an MRI scan is the only thing that's left to figure out why this has been going on for months now. I wish I could afford to do it sooner, but I had to go through all the other tests and insurance bureaucracy before they could refer me to a specialist. So it's inevitable, I have to go and do this scan to see what is wrong. The doctor casually mentioned MS, which is the scariest possibility, or thrombosis (my reason for never going back on bcp), or a dislocated disk in my spine. I'm hoping it's something fixable. Ironically, I was supposed to be seen as soon as possible, but I guess even if it's an "urgent" matter they still made me wait another 2 weeks until I can actually be seen. I hate the wait.

On top of that, I'm doing a full panel of hormonal testing again, this time saliva, to get more accurate insights on my hormonal fluctuations each week of my cycle. I'm so sick of doctors and testing, but it's the only way to figure out a regimen that's right for my body. I guess all the years of putting crap in my body and not caring about my health are finally catching up with me, and I don't think my healthy lifestyle changes will undo all that now. Wish me luck :/

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