How ya feelin' about your acne today?

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I'm on my 5th day of Beyaz birth control and I'm a total pain in the butt to be around. My mood is swinging all over the place!

My face has developed about 4 new cheek zits and 3 new jawline zits and 1 new forehead zit! Since when do I break out on my forehead? Or cheeks anymore?

Really just sad and at a loss. I know it's only been 5 days. Hormone treatment has to work because it's my last resort besides Accutane. I'm not sure I can be on Accutane in the military.

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Feeling a bit low again today :/

Have a couple of new spots on my forehead which Is already a mess. I also have to go out with family for lunch, which I would normally enjoy, but I am feeling particularly self conscious about my skin today. Just have to suck it up and try and enjoy myself I think.

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I'm not feeling too bad about my skin today because it has definitely improved a lot over the past week or so even though it's still far from perfect. I have a stubborn cyst that is still refusing to go down and have been getting a few new spots mainly on my forehead and one inside my ear - how is that even possible by the way?!! But overall I think it's still improving so it's just a case of keep pushing forward with it! :)

Hmmm... anyone think that the sticky part of a post-it note could break you out at all? :P I guess I'll find out tomorrow... In my psyc class today we did this task which involved out tutor sticking a post-it on out forehead... very weird, and honestly, I panicked a bit - I don't like things touching my face or being close to people I don't know where they'll clearly see the state of my skin / how oily it is (it was fairly oily today)... but the task was over and done with pretty quickly - thank goodness :P

Ah Lilly that's such a nightmare! I also hate anything touching my skin and things being sprung on me like that makes me panic a bit too. But I actually had to do something very similar with a post-it note for a game at a party last year back when I was on the Regimen and you'll be pleased to know that it didn't cause me to break out at all in the following days. Hopefully that means you'll be fine as well! :)

Haha that's so weird - I didn't expect someone to relate to this situation so specifically :P But good to know it didn't cause a breakout for you. I'm already breaking out a bit more these past few days (not terribly but still...) so hopefully this post-it situation won't add to it

Glad to hear things are improving for you!! :)

I have this too; I hate things touching my skin. I flinch when aunts and uncles touch my cheek and worry about the comedogenicity of icing. And I've worried about the sticky note bit too! It was for a game we had to play in class. Hell, I worry about the effect the wind from an open car window has on my face.

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I have been able to keep new acne from forming but my skin texture and old marks look awful. Unfortunately, I think it's the switch to high pressure, hot shower water that has caused both of these things. So it's a trade off - good texture with acne, or bad texture without?

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I have this too; I hate things touching my skin. I flinch when aunts and uncles touch my cheek and worry about the comedogenicity of icing. And I've worried about the sticky note bit too! It was for a game we had to play in class. Hell, I worry about the effect the wind from an open car window has on my face.

Glad to hear I'm not the only one with this issue. I have an absolute fit if anyone tries to touch my face and instinctively draw away which I know people don't understand at all. And I also worry about the wind! Mainly because of a mixture of it carrying dirt and car fumes and because I'm paranoid it might upset my make-up either on its own or by blowing my hair into my face. Such a sorry state to exist in haha!

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I feel awful today. Once again, my mother and I had an argument. The doctor, who found nothing wrong with my hormone lab tests requested that I make a follow up appointment. I was thinking out loud when I remarked that this was still on my to-do list. My mom responded, "I don't know why they asked you to, but yup they said to make another appointment" And I replied, "Well, it's probably because they haven't figured out why my hair is falling out yet." and she said, "my hair falls out too; it's normal." SMH. Why would you say that??? That's such gaslighting. If a normal amount of hair were falling out, I wouldn't be going to the doctor. By saying, "it's normal," she's implying that I'm some sort of hypochondriac, that she doesn't understand my concern about the illness. There are all kinds of implications there. So I started talking loudly (not yelling) telling her that I hated it when she did this. She's a doctor, and she should understand that if I'm concerned about something like this, it is not okay to tell me it's normal. Well, she exploded at me and yelled at me to shut up. I told her to go to hell. The thing is, this is how she responds to all illnesses of mine. When I broke my orbital bone (underneath my eye), her first response was that I was exaggerating, that I was a drama queen. It wasn't until I started puking that she took me to the hospital. And I'm sick of it. She threatens to hit me if I don't shut up. Abusive ****. So, then I went for passive aggressive anger, and made a mess on the table. (spilled some rice). She didn't take well to that. Threatened to stop giving me any money if I didn't clean it up. Said it over and over again. I told her to stop saying it ; I heard her. Totally planned on cleaning it up. Told her to go to hell again. She said she wasn't giving me a dime. I exploded at her again and told her I didn't need her or her money. I'm 21; I'll get a loan to pay for med school if I have to. I'm packing everything now, so that I don't need to come back for a few months. I'll stay at college. Which sucks, because I won't get to see my brothers. At this point, though, i just want to escape from this goddam family.

I know this has very little to do with acne... but. I don't know. I just really needed to vent. I'm a good person, I swear. I care about others so much it hurts sometimes. But...my family just makes me want to curl in a ball and cry.

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I feel awful today. Once again, my mother and I had an argument. The doctor, who found nothing wrong with my hormone lab tests requested that I make a follow up appointment. I was thinking out loud when I remarked that this was still on my to-do list. My mom responded, "I don't know why they asked you to, but yup they said to make another appointment" And I replied, "Well, it's probably because they haven't figured out why my hair is falling out yet." and she said, "my hair falls out too; it's normal." SMH. Why would you say that??? That's such gaslighting. If a normal amount of hair were falling out, I wouldn't be going to the doctor. By saying, "it's normal," she's implying that I'm some sort of hypochondriac, that she doesn't understand my concern about the illness. There are all kinds of implications there. So I started talking loudly (not yelling) telling her that I hated it when she did this. She's a doctor, and she should understand that if I'm concerned about something like this, it is not okay to tell me it's normal. Well, she exploded at me and yelled at me to shut up. I told her to go to hell. The thing is, this is how she responds to all illnesses of mine. When I broke my orbital bone (underneath my eye), her first response was that I was exaggerating, that I was a drama queen. It wasn't until I started puking that she took me to the hospital. And I'm sick of it. She threatens to hit me if I don't shut up. Abusive ****. So, then I went for passive aggressive anger, and made a mess on the table. (spilled some rice). She didn't take well to that. Threatened to stop giving me any money if I didn't clean it up. Said it over and over again. I told her to stop saying it ; I heard her. Totally planned on cleaning it up. Told her to go to hell again. She said she wasn't giving me a dime. I exploded at her again and told her I didn't need her or her money. I'm 21; I'll get a loan to pay for med school if I have to. I'm packing everything now, so that I don't need to come back for a few months. I'll stay at college. Which sucks, because I won't get to see my brothers. At this point, though, i just want to escape from this goddam family.

I know this has very little to do with acne... but. I don't know. I just really needed to vent. I'm a good person, I swear. I care about others so much it hurts sometimes. But...my family just makes me want to curl in a ball and cry.

It's terrible when the people who you expect to care the most do the complete opposite. I can relate to the pain. It's even more hurtful that it's your mother-- who obviously you care about and admire or else you wouldn't be pursuing a similar career-- is so unsupportive and not understanding.

This was just a fight that you had-- I think having time away from her will hopefully cause her to realize that her response to your illness was a little inconsiderate. Hopefully your family ties aren't broken from this and it will heal after a while. She will most likely still help you pay for school. She probably just felt afraid and annoyed that you were telling her how a doctor is "supposed" to be, when she has a lot of experience at it. She's probably nervous for you because she cares so much about you and has high expectations. Everything both of you said was due to the high levels of emotion in the room. You probably both need each other very much.

I say this stuff because I am also following in my mother's footsteps to a very honorable career, and she has blown up once or twice about it. Your mother is probably very proud of you, but maybe distance will help your relationship until you are attending medical school or your residency.

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i feel awesome. Glad to be back to the forum after all these months. I finally got my skin back and my confidence as well. For all the girls who are curious how I cleared my acne please visit my log

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Got a terrible initial breakout from switching bcp... From Diane35 to Yasmin... I was already 6 months on bcp and there's still ib?? Sucks...

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I feel awful today. Once again, my mother and I had an argument. The doctor, who found nothing wrong with my hormone lab tests requested that I make a follow up appointment. I was thinking out loud when I remarked that this was still on my to-do list. My mom responded, "I don't know why they asked you to, but yup they said to make another appointment" And I replied, "Well, it's probably because they haven't figured out why my hair is falling out yet." and she said, "my hair falls out too; it's normal." SMH. Why would you say that??? That's such gaslighting. If a normal amount of hair were falling out, I wouldn't be going to the doctor. By saying, "it's normal," she's implying that I'm some sort of hypochondriac, that she doesn't understand my concern about the illness. There are all kinds of implications there. So I started talking loudly (not yelling) telling her that I hated it when she did this. She's a doctor, and she should understand that if I'm concerned about something like this, it is not okay to tell me it's normal. Well, she exploded at me and yelled at me to shut up. I told her to go to hell. The thing is, this is how she responds to all illnesses of mine. When I broke my orbital bone (underneath my eye), her first response was that I was exaggerating, that I was a drama queen. It wasn't until I started puking that she took me to the hospital. And I'm sick of it. She threatens to hit me if I don't shut up. Abusive ****. So, then I went for passive aggressive anger, and made a mess on the table. (spilled some rice). She didn't take well to that. Threatened to stop giving me any money if I didn't clean it up. Said it over and over again. I told her to stop saying it ; I heard her. Totally planned on cleaning it up. Told her to go to hell again. She said she wasn't giving me a dime. I exploded at her again and told her I didn't need her or her money. I'm 21; I'll get a loan to pay for med school if I have to. I'm packing everything now, so that I don't need to come back for a few months. I'll stay at college. Which sucks, because I won't get to see my brothers. At this point, though, i just want to escape from this goddam family.

I know this has very little to do with acne... but. I don't know. I just really needed to vent. I'm a good person, I swear. I care about others so much it hurts sometimes. But...my family just makes me want to curl in a ball and cry.

Skinnie, i've been there many times over. It's hard when family doesnt get us. I'm beginning to think its a generational thing but either way, it's wasted enegy to get baited into an argument with anyone. If you need to leave, leave. I found that when i am away from my mom, our relationship flourishes. When we are together, get ready for the fourth of July. You are going to make a phenomenal doctor and you will pave your own way through this world. You may find that you have to do it alone for the time being but stay strong sistah as anythings possible.

Loving the fact that my acne is controlled but hating the fact that my skin tone is shit (thanks BP....not!). But seriously, i am grateful that my acne has subsided to the point that i can live my life. I have reconnected with old friends, got reenergized for my career and i am determined to open myself up to the possibility of meeting new people for friendship and possibly a relationship. I am also trying to get back on the healthy track and take care of myself physically and emotionally.

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Got a terrible initial breakout from switching bcp... From Diane35 to Yasmin... I was already 6 months on bcp and there's still ib?? Sucks...

I recently switched from the Mirena IUD to Beyaz and had quite the initial breakout. I know how you feel...ugh. Mine only lasted about a week and half, though! I hope yours is short, as well!! :D Did you switch because your doctor made you?

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Feeling good about my skin lately. I have two tiny spots but more or less I have been clear for about 5 months now. Slowly feeling more confident and I've also decided to get a little bit healthier by going back to the gym. I've also cut back on work a bit so I can get more time to myself because work was stressing me out a lot.

I hope you guys are feeling great and if you aren't...then do something to make yourself feel great. :)

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My new job is kicking my ass. I have almost no time to myself....I have to actually force myself to relax these days! I haven't even felt motivated to work out, which is unusual for me. Next week, I'm getting my life back no matter what. I feel like all I do is work, work, work. huh.png

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I am feeling really good about my skin right now. The Spiro is definitely working, I think. I have no zits right now, just a few small red marks that can be covered up with a dot of concealer. My skin is less oily too. :)

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Skinnie, i've been there many times over. It's hard when family doesnt get us. I'm beginning to think its a generational thing but either way, it's wasted enegy to get baited into an argument with anyone. If you need to leave, leave. I found that when i am away from my mom, our relationship flourishes. When we are together, get ready for the fourth of July. You are going to make a phenomenal doctor and you will pave your own way through this world. You may find that you have to do it alone for the time being but stay strong sistah as anythings possible.

Loving the fact that my acne is controlled but hating the fact that my skin tone is shit (thanks BP....not!). But seriously, i am grateful that my acne has subsided to the point that i can live my life. I have reconnected with old friends, got reenergized for my career and i am determined to open myself up to the possibility of meeting new people for friendship and possibly a relationship. I am also trying to get back on the healthy track and take care of myself physically and emotionally.

Thanks so much for the support! It really means a lot that people on this board care (even when you post things not acne related.) My mother and I are like that too; when we're apart, we're so close.

Have you considered a Clarisonic? That's really helping with my skin tone. If you buy from Ulta, it's really easy to return. I think they have a 30 day policy. And get the softer brush heads; they're gentler. I didn't even think about buying a clarisonic until a friend of mine suggested it. I thought it would be harsh on the skin, but it's actually not harsh at all!

Your skin tone is probably bad because bp dries out your skin, creating a layer of dead flakes. If you get rid of that top layer, it makes your skin look newer and brighter.

It's terrible when the people who you expect to care the most do the complete opposite. I can relate to the pain. It's even more hurtful that it's your mother-- who obviously you care about and admire or else you wouldn't be pursuing a similar career-- is so unsupportive and not understanding.

This was just a fight that you had-- I think having time away from her will hopefully cause her to realize that her response to your illness was a little inconsiderate. Hopefully your family ties aren't broken from this and it will heal after a while. She will most likely still help you pay for school. She probably just felt afraid and annoyed that you were telling her how a doctor is "supposed" to be, when she has a lot of experience at it. She's probably nervous for you because she cares so much about you and has high expectations. Everything both of you said was due to the high levels of emotion in the room. You probably both need each other very much.

I say this stuff because I am also following in my mother's footsteps to a very honorable career, and she has blown up once or twice about it. Your mother is probably very proud of you, but maybe distance will help your relationship until you are attending medical school or your residency.

I don't think she's going to realize that it was inconsiderate (I've been waiting years for that day), because she simply doesn't think my symptoms, illnesses, or concerns are legitimate. I don't know why. Perhaps she's in denial? However, you're right. Everything will probably be just fine and she'll help me pay--we've had worse arguments. Sometimes, I wish I could just understand her. I don't, though. I understand the other people who are close to me (friends, brother, dad) more than I understand her. I've tried, but I just don't get it.

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I feel awful today. Once again, my mother and I had an argument. The doctor, who found nothing wrong with my hormone lab tests requested that I make a follow up appointment. I was thinking out loud when I remarked that this was still on my to-do list. My mom responded, "I don't know why they asked you to, but yup they said to make another appointment" And I replied, "Well, it's probably because they haven't figured out why my hair is falling out yet." and she said, "my hair falls out too; it's normal." SMH. Why would you say that??? That's such gaslighting. If a normal amount of hair were falling out, I wouldn't be going to the doctor. By saying, "it's normal," she's implying that I'm some sort of hypochondriac, that she doesn't understand my concern about the illness. There are all kinds of implications there. So I started talking loudly (not yelling) telling her that I hated it when she did this. She's a doctor, and she should understand that if I'm concerned about something like this, it is not okay to tell me it's normal. Well, she exploded at me and yelled at me to shut up. I told her to go to hell. The thing is, this is how she responds to all illnesses of mine. When I broke my orbital bone (underneath my eye), her first response was that I was exaggerating, that I was a drama queen. It wasn't until I started puking that she took me to the hospital. And I'm sick of it. She threatens to hit me if I don't shut up. Abusive ****. So, then I went for passive aggressive anger, and made a mess on the table. (spilled some rice). She didn't take well to that. Threatened to stop giving me any money if I didn't clean it up. Said it over and over again. I told her to stop saying it ; I heard her. Totally planned on cleaning it up. Told her to go to hell again. She said she wasn't giving me a dime. I exploded at her again and told her I didn't need her or her money. I'm 21; I'll get a loan to pay for med school if I have to. I'm packing everything now, so that I don't need to come back for a few months. I'll stay at college. Which sucks, because I won't get to see my brothers. At this point, though, i just want to escape from this goddam family.

I know this has very little to do with acne... but. I don't know. I just really needed to vent. I'm a good person, I swear. I care about others so much it hurts sometimes. But...my family just makes me want to curl in a ball and cry.

Sorry to hear things are rough between you and your mom.

I know what it's like when family can't / don't understand your situation or worries about your skin etc - I remember years ago asking my mum if I could go to a dermatologist about my skin but her reply was about how expensive it is and that the waiting list is long. Things like that make me feel like she doesn't care about me. Which I know isn't true - in other ways it's obvious that she does care about me. But she just can't see how something like acne could effect me like it has - I don't know if she even realises how lucky she was/is to have grown up with clear skin and to still have clear skin.

Have you tried just sitting down with your mom and having a conversation about this - how you feel and how what she says / does in certain situations makes you feel etc? This way, you'll both end up understanding each other.

Just start the conversation when there's time (not just after / during a fight) and say something like 'I'm not trying to upset you or start an argument, -I just need to say this and get all my thoughts out now. So please just wait until I've finished before you say anything' - or something like that - so it doesn't turn into an argument if she doesn't agree with something you're saying.

This would be difficult for me to do, so I can understand if you don't think it'll work - but I thought I'd suggest it because it might be worth a try. You never know, it could make your relationship a bit smoother and you'd be able to stay and see your brothers or feel more comfortable going back home more often to see them if you do go live at college anyway.

I hope things get better between you and your mom soon!

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I am feeling scared. I have no one to talk to about it, and I feel that the state of my face is effecting how people like me, or find me attractive. My friends are starting to make fun of me more and more for my acne. I don't even know how bad it actually is due to the fact that everyone I know has perfect skin. I am looking to try The Regimen, but I have no idea as to what products I should use, as I live in Australia and I can't get the official products shipped.

I am mostly writing this just to get thoughts out of my head, and well, typed somewhere.

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Got a terrible initial breakout from switching bcp... From Diane35 to Yasmin... I was already 6 months on bcp and there's still ib?? Sucks...

I recently switched from the Mirena IUD to Beyaz and had quite the initial breakout. I know how you feel...ugh. Mine only lasted about a week and half, though! I hope yours is short, as well!! biggrin.png Did you switch because your doctor made you?

Ah, how annoying... I have never heard about the ones you're taking, what do they contain? Is it anything similar to Diane/Yasmin?

Yeah, my doctor thought it's not good to stay on Diane for too long. She also suggested me to get off bcp after 6 more months on Yasmin, which is freaking crazy :D I would break out like hell, what is she thinking :D

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Skin colour is ridiculous, super PIH.. but it is smooth and flat and feels like my skin again so I'm actually pretty happy right now! smile.png

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Got a terrible initial breakout from switching bcp... From Diane35 to Yasmin... I was already 6 months on bcp and there's still ib?? Sucks...

I recently switched from the Mirena IUD to Beyaz and had quite the initial breakout. I know how you feel...ugh. Mine only lasted about a week and half, though! I hope yours is short, as well!! biggrin.png Did you switch because your doctor made you?

Ah, how annoying... I have never heard about the ones you're taking, what do they contain? Is it anything similar to Diane/Yasmin?

Yeah, my doctor thought it's not good to stay on Diane for too long. She also suggested me to get off bcp after 6 more months on Yasmin, which is freaking crazy biggrin.png I would break out like hell, what is she thinking biggrin.png

Mirena IUD (intrauterine device) is a purely progesterone implant in the uterus. It freaked my body out and I think it was causing some of the really bad hormonal acne that I was experiencing!

Beyaz is super similar to Yasmin. It's got the same stuff in it, but Yasmin has a little more estrogen than Beyaz. My doctor recommended it because it's supposed to stabilize hormones and not allow you to fluctuate so much during the month. I'm really hoping it will help with my acne, but she told me to wait 3 months. We'll see. And I cannot even imagine what would happen if I had to be off of birth control for 6 months! I think my body would just give up and explode. haha.

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Trying the Dr. Clark liver cleanse today. Why not, right?

http://www.drclark.net/en/cleanses/advanced/liver-cleanse-page/liver-cleanse-recipe

Well that was a total scam. Missed a birthday dinner (it was spontaneous not planned so I didn't know before I committed to the fast) and a day of work, had diarrhea all night and day, for nothing. Worried that it did harm too. I know it did no good, but it would suck if it did harm.

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Breakout. Not a big one (touch wood), but, still, a breakout.

I just want to stay home and wait a couple of days it'll become better, but I cannot.

I've got two huge sticking plasters. It's so big they are in relief haha! I look disgusting.

I want to hide underground everytime people can look at my chin and my right cheek.

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I saw a photo of myself from 1 year ago and I almost cried. What a difference a year makes. Sometimes I think I'm cursed or jinxed because my life did a complete 180 in the course of only a few months and everything is upside down. Sometimes I think that whenever I'm happy, the jealousy of some people (which I try hard to keep out of my life but it's almost impossible) takes my happiness away. I know it's crazy, but it's happened so many times that I just don't know what to think anymore. Trying to stay positive...

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