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Right now, even those adorable little Labrador pups would be affraid of my chin.

They would see me, then vomit, then feel sick and dizzy, and finally pass out. Poor things.

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Right now, even those adorable little Labrador pups would be affraid of my chin.

They would see me, then vomit, then feel sick and dizzy, and finally pass out. Poor things.

Know how you feel - I have the same thoughts about the right side of my neck, it is disgusting.

I have had a complete meltdown tonight, I was so repulsed by what I saw in the mirror I spat at my reflection and smashed the mirror.

I think I am losing my fucking mind.

By the way ladies and gents, boys and girls, don`t ever try CBT. It doesn`t work.

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So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

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Right now, even those adorable little Labrador pups would be affraid of my chin.

They would see me, then vomit, then feel sick and dizzy, and finally pass out. Poor things.

Know how you feel - I have the same thoughts about the right side of my neck, it is disgusting.

I have had a complete meltdown tonight, I was so repulsed by what I saw in the mirror I spat at my reflection and smashed the mirror.

I think I am losing my fucking mind.

By the way ladies and gents, boys and girls, don`t ever try CBT. It doesn`t work.

I've definitely been there, man. Sorry you're having a rough time right now. I can remember just a few months ago I was standing in front of a mirror just quaking with rage and I wanted to fuckin' slam my fists into the wall, that's how upsetting it can be. I hope that things begin to improve for you soon.

Update for me: Skin is doing really well thanks to The Regimen. Focusing heavily on finding a job right now, heard back from an old job of mine that I'm eligible for rehire so I applied for a few positions on the company website, hope to hear back soon.

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Terrible. I haven't been able to afford my cod liver oil and won't be able to so my breakouts are worse than ever. BP and Tazorac do nothing. Plus my ridiculous dermatologist won't let me start Accutane until the end of summer because she doesn't trust that a 25 year old man will stay out of the sun...

At least there is finally a hope in sight though.

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Ending my 5th month of accutane 40 mg, still no improvement, it got me flared up on the left chin. Guess I'll just let everything go and accept that nothing can help me , only the time. Have to remain strong and patient.

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I'm back from vacation. I went to Puerto Rico for 11 days and had a great time with the family. I've been thinking about my future and that I want to start socializing , making friends etc.when I return back home. I am going on meetup.com and attend some vegan events. Hopefully this will help me shed my shyness gradually. I have decided to make a few changes in life.. like stop gaming and read more often,etc

In terms of acne, I am 100% clear, but still have ugly scars which makes me feel very ugly!

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I feel very down today. It looks like 2 of my acnes will turn into scars + that I read here about people that have bad things to say about derma rolling (something I have recently started to do). Life is very hard at the moment.

dnt worry dear.theer's LOADS of people who have seen great results with dermarolling.i mean LOADS here.

so dnt just go for the posts which reports no results.

good luck mate.

I feel very down today. It looks like 2 of my acnes will turn into scars + that I read here about people that have bad things to say about derma rolling (something I have recently started to do). Life is very hard at the moment.

dnt worry dear.theer's LOADS of people who have seen great results with dermarolling.i mean LOADS here.

so dnt just go for the posts which reports no results.

good luck mate.

Thank you so much for the kind words :)

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Not feeling the greatest. The zit next to my nose is now all crusty and dry, presumably because I picked at it last night and damaged the skin, so I guess it'll like scab over or something. The bump is still there, and it still hurts when I press down. I don't think it really went down in size....so frustrating. I wish I could just lance it with a needle and pop all the gunk out of it. It's so tempting when a zit is as painful as this one. I tried icing it a few hours ago but I honestly don't know if it did much. Uuuugh, god it is so annoying....I really hope I don't have to go to a derm for a cortisone shot, because I've never had to do that before.

Maybe by tomorrow it'll feel a little better...it honestly doesn't look that bad though. It's just red, but it's not hideous or anything. And the rest of my skin is clear, so I'm thankful for that.

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Woke up and one of my whiteheads has turned into a 3-headed beast! Haven't had one of those for a while...yuck.

Really need to find something that works. I'm 20, I just finished college and need to feel like a confident adult...

oh!i so understand that that tiny bump or whitehead turning into a big monster overnight!

i dread that.am sure everyone does.

that is one reason i get worried about tiny ones also,for u never know when they come up to u as a big armed enemy!

i am suppose to be going out tomorrow.not for a date or anything.

but there's a chance that i meet(just see that is!) the guy i have a crush on.and i admit i am freaking a lil'.

more so cause its been a few days since i had these small(not tiny) bumps (with and without heads) on my cheek and forehead and also on places i was clear before for sometime.

phew!

i never show sign of frustration and /or lack of confidence or bad mood outside though!

its all in my house!

There's no need to freak out dee . You're the bengal tigress! hehe Maul him ! tongue.png

>Feeling like shit today. My chin is a disaster.

Perseverance92, your idea sounds good to me: let's move together into a farm with sheeps and dolfins that will not judge us.

Good idea mate haha! I'd prefer an adorable Labrador Those little Labrador pups ...they never judge you smile.png

thanks darling!

*hugs*

i am sure if i had a brother,he'd say the same!

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Bad.

I've got to go outside, people will see me. I freak out.

My face is red because of Epiduo, my chin sucks, and I've popped a pimple on my right cheek. I shouldn't have done that, it looks worse.

So, I feel hot and sexy.

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Right now, even those adorable little Labrador pups would be affraid of my chin.

They would see me, then vomit, then feel sick and dizzy, and finally pass out. Poor things.

Oh yeh? and what about those hideous big bumps on my cheekbones? The pups would probably throw up and have seizures looking at them.

So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

Ye'h

So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

lol don't be a sadist!

My cheekbones... They are so gullible! My cheeks seem to be immune of acne! (touch wood).But my cheekbones always get appalling acne.They get big swollen red bumps which soon become cystic and then they scar. I HATE IT.

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Today I've woken up with no active acne, yay! I know it won't last 5 minutes though...

Has anyone here from the UK bought Dan's AHA+ on it's own? If so, how much did it come up to? :)

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i just wish that i could peel off the first layer of skin on my face which would then unveil a new layer of soft, supple, blemish-free, normal skin that i have been longing for many years now.

I Just got a breakout of like 10 pimples on my face. I was feeling good about myself before this happened since my skin seemed to be healing from previous breakouts but now i know these new breakouts and the marks that come along with it will take a long time to heal SIGH...

To be honest. I feel like wanting to kill myself, but i cant do it. It just makes me so angry and i wish that one day pimples would never come to my face again. It angers me so much :( Why does acne have to exist? Why did it have to choose me and all of the other fellow sufferers who are going through the same pain as me? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY >:(

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I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...
Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.
Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

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I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

That's really scary. :( Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

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Know how you feel - I have the same thoughts about the right side of my neck, it is disgusting.

The right side must be evil. My pimples seem to love the right side. I look like double-face. Or Janus.

I overdosed some Atarax pills

That sounds so sad. You're not alone to feel like crap. Let's go to the farm, we'll play piano with puppies singing.

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I can take anything and everything.From the most callous comments to disgustingly snide remarks.I am tough from within.I can even tolerate the indifference of my best buddies.But i get shattered when my own parents behave indifferently towards my acne and my problems in general.I am their ownly son and hence the center of all their attention.Despite that they sometimes break me apart with their shockingly apathetic behavior.

Today my mother casually said "You never clean your face these days.That's why you get acne.I erupted right there and then.I shouted at her and told her that i'm very particular about my hygiene and it's just that any face wash i apply on my face breaks me out because of my sensitive skin.What she said next was a shocker.She asked me to clean my face with an ordinary soap! ... DISGUSTING. WHEN PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ACNE WHY DO THEY ADVISE? And she's a Gynecologist.

My father ... I told him about how my acne is getting worse.He said "Empty mind is a devil's workshop". SHOCKING. He said "You'll have acne till your hormones are over active.Live peacefully or make your life hell. Your choice".

And he's a neurologist.

They've treated almost half of my city and made lives better.But when it comes to their own son,their own blood...INDIFFERENCE.DISINTEREST.I FEEL LIKE CRYING AND BANGING MY HEAD ON A WALL UNTIL I BLEED TO DEATH.Perhaps then they will realize how wrong they were.PERHAPS AFTER THEY CARRY THE CINERARY URN,THEY'D REDEEM! THEY'D WALK ON THE ROAD TO ATONEMENT...

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I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

That's really scary. sad.png Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

It finally seems to show some results on my acne. Very slight, but noticeable for me. But the depression is getting the best of me... I have mindlessly stared at a tv screen today from 10 o'clock until now (almost 17) and cried until my eyes got dry. For no particular reason. And my mouth is still dry, head still hurting after the Atarax overdose, how stupid... We had some really nice atmosphere with my bf few days ago, now he's cold and shocked over how sudden my mood took a turn.

I guess bcp itself wasn't the cause this time, because i didn't have such side effects during the first 3 months, but this time I added Androcur which represses androgens and can easily cause severe depression. I guess that's what has happened...

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So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

The way I`m going right now Mandarine, I will definitely be moving into a farm if this carries on - but not the sort with animals.

Still really depressed with my skin. I have broken out all over the right side of my neck, jawline and sideburn area and it appears to be spreading to the left side as well now. Even noticed a couple of spots behind my ears - how did that happen?

I really do not know what to do about CBT. The theory behind CBT is to do things to challenge the negative thoughts and perceptions about yourself. I have tried to follow to the letter exercises and tasks that I have agreed with my therapist. I have cut down looking in the mirror to 2-3 times max per day and I have also deliberately been putting myself into social situations where my blemishes and perceived imperfections are on display in order that I can gauge the reaction of others.

The experiments have been going really well. I do know that people are really not that concerned or do not notice your perceived acne/flaws. Also avoiding the mirror does help you not to obsess or focus as much on your appearance.

The problem is that unfortunately for me, I still have a tendency to breakout now and again and when this happens, no amount of positive thinking can break the downward cycle that I descend into where I just think that I am a vile, repulsive monster.

Last night I had a complete meltdown - it just feels that I am never ever just going to have what I consider relatively normal skin and if I`m honest, if this is how it is going to be forever more, I don`t think I can take it any longer. The alternative is to just hide away and become a recluse but I`ve been there and done that and it is no way to live.

I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

That's really scary. sad.png Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

It finally seems to show some results on my acne. Very slight, but noticeable for me. But the depression is getting the best of me... I have mindlessly stared at a tv screen today from 10 o'clock until now (almost 17) and cried until my eyes got dry. For no particular reason. And my mouth is still dry, head still hurting after the Atarax overdose, how stupid... We had some really nice atmosphere with my bf few days ago, now he's cold and shocked over how sudden my mood took a turn.

I guess bcp itself wasn't the cause this time, because i didn't have such side effects during the first 3 months, but this time I added Androcur which represses androgens and can easily cause severe depression. I guess that's what has happened...

I feel that I am also descending into a depression - I am not at work today and I have just sat at home all day today not able to read, watch TV or do anything, everything seems pointless right now. I do know that no matter how crap I feel, I`m going to have to do something tomorrow to break this cycle otherwise I am just going to descend deeper and deeper. Luckily (or not) for me my parents are visiting from the North of England (Lincolnshire) tomorrow so maybe it might just be the impetus I need to sort myself out - we`ll see.

I hope things sort out for you soon Pianina - if it means dropping Diane or Androcur for the time being then so be it.In the great scheme of things, depression is a more serious and debillitating condition than acne.

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I saw myself on video today, and I'm completely clear, but... I look so awkward and ugly. I feel like no one could ever find me physically attractive. I never thought I was unattractive when I talked and moved and laughed. But, I am... My front teeth are different lengths, my eyes get all squinty, my smile is too big, and my face stretches weirdly when I talk/smile :*(

I got a 36 on my MCAT though!!! And I thought I did awfully! A 36 with my GPA and extensive shadowing, volunteering, and campus involvement (I didn't do it for the resume, though. I've filled my life with my passions, and hopefully, it will show...) is good enough to get an interview in any medical school in the country!

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I have those same kind of body dysmorphia thoughts when I see myself. I think I'm pretty if I'm posed JUST right...but if I see myself on video where I talk or move around I'm just like ugh...wtf is wrong with me. I am not a human being...

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I have those same kind of body dysmorphia thoughts when I see myself. I think I'm pretty if I'm posed JUST right...but if I see myself on video where I talk or move around I'm just like ugh...wtf is wrong with me. I am not a human being...

:( This is going in a documentary... It makes me wanna cry. Especially because there's this guy who I like who is in charge of the camera...It's horrifying to think that this is the way I look. My mother is pretty, my dad is handsome, all my aunts and uncles are good looking. My cousins are gorgeous. Why me?!

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I saw myself on video today, and I'm completely clear, but... I look so awkward and ugly. I feel like no one could ever find me physically attractive. I never thought I was unattractive when I talked and moved and laughed. But, I am... My front teeth are different lengths, my eyes get all squinty, my smile is too big, and my face stretches weirdly when I talk/smile :*(

I got a 36 on my MCAT though!!! And I thought I did awfully! A 36 with my GPA and extensive shadowing, volunteering, and campus involvement (I didn't do it for the resume, though. I've filled my life with my passions, and hopefully, it will show...) is good enough to get an interview in any medical school in the country!

story of my life. i remember the first time i saw myself on video, I felt like I was seeing a creature from another planet. I can't compare myself to other human beings because I feel so inferior and when people treat me nicely I am reluctant to accept their kindness and I feel like they have ulterior motives. I don't know what my point is but your post struck a nerve. At least you are smart you have that going for you.

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I have those same kind of body dysmorphia thoughts when I see myself. I think I'm pretty if I'm posed JUST right...but if I see myself on video where I talk or move around I'm just like ugh...wtf is wrong with me. I am not a human being...

sad.png This is going in a documentary... It makes me wanna cry. Especially because there's this guy who I like who is in charge of the camera...It's horrifying to think that this is the way I look. My mother is pretty, my dad is handsome, all my aunts and uncles are good looking. My cousins are gorgeous. Why me?!

u have something that millions can not have.

u get that?

u r gorgeous to me.

i already like u.=)

cheers!and best of luck for ur interview!

I can take anything and everything.From the most callous comments to disgustingly snide remarks.I am tough from within.I can even tolerate the indifference of my best buddies.But i get shattered when my own parents behave indifferently towards my acne and my problems in general.I am their ownly son and hence the center of all their attention.Despite that they sometimes break me apart with their shockingly apathetic behavior.

Today my mother casually said "You never clean your face these days.That's why you get acne.I erupted right there and then.I shouted at her and told her that i'm very particular about my hygiene and it's just that any face wash i apply on my face breaks me out because of my sensitive skin.What she said next was a shocker.She asked me to clean my face with an ordinary soap! ... DISGUSTING. WHEN PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ACNE WHY DO THEY ADVISE? And she's a Gynecologist.

My father ... I told him about how my acne is getting worse.He said "Empty mind is a devil's workshop". SHOCKING. He said "You'll have acne till your hormones are over active.Live peacefully or make your life hell. Your choice".

And he's a neurologist.

They've treated almost half of my city and made lives better.But when it comes to their own son,their own blood...INDIFFERENCE.DISINTEREST.I FEEL LIKE CRYING AND BANGING MY HEAD ON A WALL UNTIL I BLEED TO DEATH.Perhaps then they will realize how wrong they were.PERHAPS AFTER THEY CARRY THE CINERARY URN,THEY'D REDEEM! THEY'D WALK ON THE ROAD TO ATONEMENT...

darling let me know if u need a ear!

alright and just get the fact that what they r saying is what most people say.

its got nothing to do with their professions,so dont bring that in.

i think 'most' parents react same way except for those who are really aware of acne and the aspects or is a nutritionist or a good derma.

so dnt fret over it.

get hopping!

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