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Why am I such a fucking bitch?

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VENTING VENTING VENTING

So anyways, I'm tired of the person I have become. I feel like its uncontrollable when I know it is. Today at our volleyball game, I was pissed off that we had lost and of course something wonderful leaves my mouth "When I'm going for the ball and called it, people just had to go for it too." Of course the girl I was talking about knew it, but me being the fucking bitch I am it didnt even phase me as being mean. While I'm not playing the 3rd string, my coach lectures me about how horrible it was to say that. Agh I wanted to die. It was a huge wakeup call because in an instant I knew what a bitch I had become. My self-consciousness and self-centered ways caused by acne was none other than the reason for my inappropriate acting out.

Of course now I feel horrible, and apologized to one of the girls that thought I was talking about her and told her that I didn't mean it and I was just frusterated.

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Ugh I'm like that too. My mom asks me a simple question and I lash out at her for no reason because I have so much bult up anger inside. I just take out everything on my family... it's like a release.

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I've always been ranting about how people are self-centered bishes

but a few days ago I realized that I pretty much was one too.

wow wtf big wake up call :c

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Don't be too hard on yourself. Do you think it was just competitiveness? While playing any kind of sport, I tend to be rude. I can make someone feel horrible, and I don't even mean to. It's just the way I am. As long as your teammates understand your side, then it shouldn't be a problem. That was a very good idea for you to apologize. I think you will be okay.

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i doubt acne is the problem that caused you 'to act out' . dont feel sorry for something you mean. i've done those type of things before but im fully aware of what im saying and who i said it towards and i dont regret it and blame it on my acne issues.


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nah it happens to me too. a lot of times i look in the mirror and just feel horrible about how my face looks. i just sit there wishing it was better, then when my dad asks me to do something like pick up my clothes or do a chore, i just lash at him too.. its really not fair and now i kinda understand why i do it. acne..its really controlling my life right now :/


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yea i know i do that too but only with family and stuff. i mean what kaley said she did sounded more like a mean girl type thing lol its hard to explain haha i know we've all probably done it what [dishnwish] said but what kaley said is different because i know i've done that too like. for example, the other day the lunch lady told me i had to get my lunch at the 'no I.D' line and i was like 'yea i KNOW' like in a b**tchy way because i wasn't even in line ,just waiting for my friend haha my friend was like 'your such a b*tch' but that lady gets me mad along with all the other lunch ladies cus they always say the same thing to everyone and no i didnt think about my acne just said it cus it felt right lol


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Ugh I'm like that too. My mom asks me a simple question and I lash out at her for no reason because I have so much bult up anger inside. I just take out everything on my family... it's like a release.

I'm exactly the same and then I feel bad after

It sucks..

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Ugh I'm like that too. My mom asks me a simple question and I lash out at her for no reason because I have so much bult up anger inside. I just take out everything on my family... it's like a release.

I'm exactly the same and then I feel bad after

It sucks..

Me too :cry: it usually happens when i am not happy about my skin. When i feel my skin looks nice i am the happiest person in the world jumping and hopping all over the place. Look at my faaaace Look at my faaaace :whistle:

I agree with girlface15 there is a difference. i still think it was frustration, but i think instead of frustration towards skin it was frustration towards the result of the game AKA you lost :shifty:

It sucks how my frustration is taken out on the people closest (?) to me.


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I do it too. While it's important to remember that's you're human and you're going to make mistakes like that, it's also important to remember that you have to treat others with respect, and that if you don't you'll end up losing their respect. I applaud you for having the sense and courtesy to apologize to the person you behaved badly toward, and as long as you remember how cruddy it made you feel to be that kind of person in the future, you'll have better luck keeping yourself in check.

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I would like to think I only become a bitch when ppl are rude to me 1st... but idk...

Don't beat yourself up - if you realize it, then you should be able to change it, right?


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I really need help as well. I've just realized that I'm really a horrible person.. I'll say things to people that are just awful, and not even realize it until they get mad. I really don't want to be a bitch anymore, it makes me feel so helpless when I realize what I'm doing...

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VENTING VENTING VENTING

So anyways, I'm tired of the person I have become. I feel like its uncontrollable when I know it is. Today at our volleyball game, I was pissed off that we had lost and of course something wonderful leaves my mouth "When I'm going for the ball and called it, people just had to go for it too." Of course the girl I was talking about knew it, but me being the fucking bitch I am it didnt even phase me as being mean. While I'm not playing the 3rd string, my coach lectures me about how horrible it was to say that. Agh I wanted to die. It was a huge wakeup call because in an instant I knew what a bitch I had become. My self-consciousness and self-centered ways caused by acne was none other than the reason for my inappropriate acting out.

Of course now I feel horrible, and apologized to one of the girls that thought I was talking about her and told her that I didn't mean it and I was just frusterated.

I wouldn't mind support. (:

Some advice.

This wasn't caused by your acne. The way you reacted to acne caused this.

The good thing is you have admitted to yourself that you don't like the way you are. That is the first step.

The only quetion now is what are going to do to change for the better? Make the changes that will make you happy and choose not to react to acne. You need to accept that acne may be with you a very long time. So either continue the way you are or choose not to react to it and be a better person.


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Aw I was really excited about Kaley being here then I realized this topic was 3 years old...


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I find it funny that Kaley thought this was being a bitch. I know people who have days ten time worse than this and they're still awesome people.


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I find it funny that Kaley thought this was being a bitch. I know people who have days ten time worse than this and they're still awesome people.

So when people say things "ten times worse" you're still not the least bit bothered by it? That's odd.

I completely understand how Kaley felt bad about having said that, albeit in hindsight.

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I find it funny that Kaley thought this was being a bitch. I know people who have days ten time worse than this and they're still awesome people.

So when people say things "ten times worse" you're still not the least bit bothered by it? That's odd.

I completely understand how Kaley felt bad about having said that, albeit in hindsight.

Nope, not at all. Everybody has off days. I'd hardly call anyone a 'fucking bitch' because they made one slightly off comment that didn't even insult or curse about someone. And hell, if she did call the ball maybe they shoulda just let her get on with it :)

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Currently clear of acne with the occasional hormonal breakout. Check out my routines and progress updates here:
http://www.acne.org/...g-and-duac-gel/

Treat yourself as you treat others.


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I find it funny that Kaley thought this was being a bitch. I know people who have days ten time worse than this and they're still awesome people.

So when people say things "ten times worse" you're still not the least bit bothered by it? That's odd.

I completely understand how Kaley felt bad about having said that, albeit in hindsight.

Nope, not at all. Everybody has off days. I'd hardly call anyone a 'fucking bitch' because they made one slightly off comment that didn't even insult or curse about someone. And hell, if she did call the ball maybe they shoulda just let her get on with it smile.png

Could you give an example of something ten times worse? I'm curious. eusa_think.gif

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I find it funny that Kaley thought this was being a bitch. I know people who have days ten time worse than this and they're still awesome people.

So when people say things "ten times worse" you're still not the least bit bothered by it? That's odd.

I completely understand how Kaley felt bad about having said that, albeit in hindsight.

Nope, not at all. Everybody has off days. I'd hardly call anyone a 'fucking bitch' because they made one slightly off comment that didn't even insult or curse about someone. And hell, if she did call the ball maybe they shoulda just let her get on with it smile.png

Could you give an example of something ten times worse? I'm curious. eusa_think.gif

Nevermind, I get what you're saying, so... =]

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I lash out at family all the time and they are the sweetest most kind and loving people ever :/ I've said over and over dont get me a single thing for Christmas because I don't deserve anything :( thanks acne :)

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