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  1. One Month

    FEAR ME! Yes! I quit benzoyl peroxide cold turkey.. One day I just .. STOPPED.  OK. Well, I am at 1 month. I thought my acne was bad while on the REGIMEN. HOLY COW. This last month has been awful. I've broke out on my forehead and on my chin; places I've NEVER EVER got acne before. Not on my nose, however...strange. Not to exclude my cheeks and the sides of my face. During this last month I've had to prepare myself for college which means being out in public and showing them my ugly mug. I'm no stranger to a red bumpy face, I've had acne for the last 7 years. I've gone to junior high and high school with it, but never to such an intense degree. I'm super embarrassed and super ashamed. That does not stop me from continuing on, however. I've realized with great clarity that having acne is not just a physical thing, but very much an internal ... thing. Your perception on looks and who judges yo - yadadada i won't get into that who care.s  Let me just say first off that I've been taking the acne.org regimen for about 6 months? I think. Maybe 7 and a half. It cleared up my skin by the very end, but my skin was TERRIBLE. As in, very very dry and irritated and looked like the desert dunes. You heard it here, folks. Benzoyl peroxide also causes aging. At least it does for me. My laugh marks (and that fine line beneath your eye that runes down to your cheek) are more defined and very noticeable. I look about 25 (I'm 19). Before the regimen, I will also add, I was on EXPOSED SKIN CARE (which is an overpriced overrated acne over the counter treatment). AND BEFORE THAT, I was on proactive.   Back on route. So my skin was acne free when I stopped. It came back with vengeance in a week and a half. It happened over night. BAM. 4 white heads on my cheeks. The dream was dead. A few days later my forehead and chin started breaking out. I knew by then I was in for a deal of hurt.  From then on till now I've had about 35 different pimples come and go. All of them were white heads, never the BIG DADDY. Those are the pimples that have been charging their power level for weeks deep beneath your skin. A GIANT bump that sits there on your face for a long time. None of those thankfully. When I lay in bed at night I can feel the pimples on my forehead pound. Whenever I accidentally brush my face with my hand, my acne stings for a few moments. Horrible, I'm sure this is hell. I'm also sure that I will be experiencing this for a very long time... I want to see this to the end. I want to be able to come back here, a year later or 2 years later and finally write - HEY GUYS I'M FREE! Or will I write; hey guys. I still have acne and it sucks... I've gotten those little sebum things on my face almost everyday, so I have to use some facial cleanser. I've decided my weapon of choice...Cetaphil daily cleanser. It's okay. I've been using it for about a week and it's whatever. Sad it doesn't help my acne at all, but also grateful it doesn't cause breakouts. Just cleans pretty well. A personal reason why I quit was because one weekend I traveled to Vancouver. It was a bright sunny day out and I took a small boat to travel with these other people. I sat across from a young woman and she had this pretty white dress on and a matching bonnet. Then I saw her skin. I've never seen a condition like that before..She was covered in these large red bumps. Not just her face, but all over her body; her legs, her arms, and her face. They looked very painful. I didn't want to stare, so I kept my eyes glued to the water. But, I did sneak one quick look at her facial features. She was smiling at something I didn't see. 'She is very brave,' was all I thought of during the boat trip. She was out trying to enjoying herself despite how she looked. That really hit me hard because I knew if I had her skin, I wouldn't be out on a boat with a lot of people on a bright sunny hot day. I would be in my room, yes yup. With the light off. I realized then that that was true beauty. She was incredibly beautiful, she outshined everyone I saw that day. So, I admire her and I also want to be beautiful in that way. I'm going to go rogue on this regimen and try to let my skin heal itself.  I'll write in a month, maybe show some before and after photos. For sure I will come back, that is a promise. TL;DR : FACE BROKE OUT HORRIBLY - SURPRISE!