Fed Up and Stressed out

i have tried so many ance products including
-Proactiv
-Clean and clean (advanced acne solutions)
-Clean and Clear astringent
-Burts bees acne spot treatment/acne stick
-Dr. Jeffery Dover's Skin Effects
-Murad acne system
-Acne Free
-Biore deep cleansing pore cleaning strips
-Nature's Cure pills
-Zeno mini
-Differin, 0.1%-5%
-Queen Helene Grape Seed Extract peel mask, mint julep mask and Oatmean's and Honey Scrub
-Visine for red eyes
-neosporin
...etc.
as well as many home remedies
-potato strips
-lemon juice
-benzol peroxide
-tea tree oil
-milk and thyme mask
-bread dipped in milk mask
-cucumbers
-tomato
-oatmeal
-garlic
...etc
and even diets
-2 gallons of water a day
-no sweets
-no starches
-no dairy
-salad diet (no dressing only cucumbers and lettuce(white) and carrots)
it's just been exhausting i hate looking in the mirror in the morning and won't leave the house without make-up (the make up is physician's formula (all non-comedogenic) its exhausting and just makes me want to cry. Only one of my friends has ever seen me without make up. Most girls my age (17) hide from rain because of their hair but i hide because i don't want my make-up mask to run or God forbid wash off. I avoid pool parties and other wet activities that i once loved and have spent nights crying over things that i wish i could do but don't have the confidence for because of my acne. It is so difficult to get dermatologist appointments and i have been waiting for over a year for mine. My friends have all tried to help, even giving me their prescription acne medications but to no avail. I now appeal to the internet for any solutions to my acne fiasco that has not only effected my confidence but has also hindered my social life. Any helpful tips would be much appreciated.