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  1. Rick32 added a post in a topic The Ignorance Is Overwhelming.   

    That's harsh, but it seems to be a sticky situation. Hopefully, and I'm sure, the person didn't mean harm and just wanted to give you encouragement and hope, but it's very tricky on how to approach the situation. The person should have took a moment and remembered how sensitive the topic is before approaching you, sorry you had to experience it. But you make a good point, you would think a person that has experienced something would understand, but I guess it just depends on the individual. 
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  2. Rick32 added a post in a topic The Ignorance Is Overwhelming.   

    Yeah, being informed and educated on something is key. I totally agree. 
     I saw how people were defending him too, and that gave me hope. The reason behind his haircut kind of inspired me in a way, and to think that other celebrities and fans want to mimic his hairstyle too. It's awesome, and I'm also trying to accept myself. It's just difficult sometimes. So many thoughts that I don't know how to control. This is true. The comments are really harsh, and I guess it doesn't help when I relate to the person that is receiving the comments, but you're right. Every single person has their flaws and some can be concealed better than others. 

    Thanks for the feedback. 
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  3. Rick32 added a post in a topic The Ignorance Is Overwhelming.   

    Yeah it sucks.
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  4. Rick32 added a topic in Emotional and psychological effects of acne   

    The Ignorance Is Overwhelming.
    I want to begin with mentioning that my problems go far beyond my skin, but I can't help but notice the damage on the surface when I look in the mirror. Having said that, I try to alleviate my depression (in regards to skin problems) by viewing people's images online that have similar circumstances as my own. It temporarily relieves the sadness I feel knowing that I'm not alone, but again, it's a very short lived comfort. Anyway, the reason I mention viewing other's images is because I came across a person named Sonny Moore. He goes by the name of Skrillex. He's a well known D.J., according to what I read, and I noticed his skin is similar to mine, and it felt good knowing that someone with skin like my own could become hugely successful. But I noticed some of the comments that have been left by his fans, and I guess, it's my fault because I was hunting for these negative remarks because I knew that there had to be some negativity about his appearance, and lo and behold, I found some. They're of course the typical negative remarks, but what really grabbed my attention was the compete ignorance. How ignorant does a person have to be when they confuse acne scarring with cancer? I'm not trying to say that I'm removed from ignorance, but to me, the comments about Skrillex having cancer due to his scarring or is a heavy drug user and his scarring is the effect of it, is completely absurd. It makes me wonder what people think when they have to interact with me. Now I understand why people think I don't take showers, complete ignorance, but I also understand that a person has to experience something in order to completely comprehend the affects. I just needed to vent, thank you for listening.
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  5. Rick32 added a post in a topic How Can You Honestly Feel Good About Yourself When You Look Awful?   

    I hate looking on the bright side of things when it's dark. I hate how people think you're gross and don't shower because of acne. Fuck acne.
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  6. Rick32 added a post in a topic I Can't Take This Anymore   

    Fuck acne!!
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  7. Rick32 added a post in a topic Dont Know What To Think Anymore....   

    Yeah I get treated the exact same. People don't want to sit next to me and relatives avoid kissing me on the cheek, they kiss me on the shoulder or neck - which is just plain weird but at least they try to be nice. People avoid eye contact, and I do see people rub their faces a lot when they interact with me too. I always get made fun of, but at least you're strong and stay active in a society. I completely shut myself down and hide myself away, been hiding for years. Good luck on your new position and stay strong minded.
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  8. Rick32 added a post in a topic People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.   

    I don't know what to think anymore. I don't want to take your words with a grain of salt, but it seems that I have no choice but to do so, thank you though. I needed some sort of confidence right now and your words gave me just that. I'm just so confused. I'm at the point where I just want function around people without thinking so negative about myself or others. I hate judgment that is put on all of us, and I hate that we are our worst critics.

    I'm sorry for the rant, but thanks for taking the time to browse this thread and offering your feedback. You're a good person.
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  9. Rick32 added a post in a topic People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.   

    I'm not posting these thoughts right now to receive anyone's sympathy or empathy. I'm writing these thoughts at the moment to let people know that their words do mean a lot to another individual's state of mind.

    My dad has been admitted into the hospital because his health is deteriorating, and the doctors have given my family the worst possible scenario as a foreseeable outcome. Right now, my thoughts are completely numb, but while being in the hospital and having to interact with the medical staff, visiting relatives, and seeing other people in general, my thoughts get persuaded in the wrong direction because of my skin, and it takes my focus away from my father, but with this thread and people's encouragement, I have been able to remove my insecure thoughts and focus on the only thing that should matter in my mind right now.

    I just want to thank everyone on this website for giving me the confidence I need in this dreadful moment in my life. Thank you so much.
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  10. Rick32 added a post in a topic People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.   

    Thanks for your sincerity, and even though I hate to admit it, you're right. There's definitely something wrong with my mental state, and I excuse my mental health with simply labeling myself a coward. It relieves me from all responsibility of any mental disorders that I have (in my mind anyway, I guess a sort of coping mechanism). I like what you mentioned about being out in the real world. How do you overcome these stares and mutterings? I can never seem to let go of hearing words or seeing them avoiding eye contact. They stay in my mind and turn into mountains, and it never fails. How do you stay strong?

    I'm at the point where I just want to say "f*** it!" My skin isn't changing anytime soon, and I'll always have these physical characteristics, so why am I allowing the same thoughts to weigh me down? But it's strange because when I try to turn to this "who gives a f***" mentality, it seems my entire personality changes. It's like you have to be thick skinned, and this thick skin brings a persona of its own, but it's needed to simply function in this world, yet we have to stay as sane as possible; it's insane!
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  11. Rick32 added a post in a topic People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.   

    I really wish I could have all this mental support everyone has given in this thread while out in public interacting with people. I've tried giving my self-esteem sparks when needed, but I read into minute details when it comes to facial expressions and mannerisms, so my spark quickly fades. I'm really trying to control my thoughts, and I would like to think because of my past experiences, I'm better mentally than I was in my past, even though it doesn't translate on this thread, but I'm slowly progressing. Thank you. Thanks to everyone for your support and advice.
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  12. Rick32 added a post in a topic Do People Ever Take Off Their Prescription Eyeglasses While Talking To You?   

    That's pretty interesting. Will this one person survey be enough to remove my thoughts about glasses? Probably not but I really do appreciate the feedback, and I will mix this response into my thought process when I come across another eyeglass remover. I just wish I had the courage to ask why they remove their glasses when it happens, but I understand that it probably would be very awkward if I did. "Ahhh!" I hate having this on my skin.
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  13. Rick32 added a post in a topic People Get Disgusted When I'm Around.   

    You're right Oneluvlychik. I want to live an everyday life in public, but my thoughts always pull me back to the house, and I always make excuses for myself. I need to snap out of it, and I will. I think another problem I have is self-loathing. I have become a professional at it. It's just every time I hear someone mention my face, I completely break down, but that was in the past. Like you mentioned, I think I am ready to give life another chance. Thank you.
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  14. Rick32 added a comment on a blog entry Feeling So Alone   

    It sucks that you're feeling so down. I remember when you reached your hand out for me in the past, and I want to do the same. I wish there were a quick fix or something inspirational to say right now, but all I can do is understand where you're coming from. Acne really does take a toll on the mind. I'm sorry you had a bad day.
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