Well today I'm feeling quite optimistic.
My acne has definitely calmed down; I'm about a month into the Regimen, and the pimples are beginning to dry out thanks to the medication. There are still three annoying red pimples on my nose (though one of them is starting to dry out), which constantly worry me since I am starting eighth grade in about a week. I'm afraid of going to school with acne on my face, but it can't be helped; I started the Regimen too late into summer to expect clear skin for back to school. However, I know if I give my skin some time, the pimples on my nose will go away either with the medication or on its own.
As for the rest of my face, there are about two pimples on my forehead (which I cover with my bangs) and three pimples around my chin. There is plenty of hyper-pigmentation around my mouth region as well; I'm hoping they will go away eventually. If that doesn't happen, then I'm afraid I'm going to have to start wearing makeup to cover it up. I personally believe I am too young to wear heavy makeup, so I'm going to think of that as a last resort- just in case the medicine doesn't work out.
For now, all I can do is just wait for the Regimen to work its magic and keep on living my life. I don't really mind waiting. Although acne is definitely a low blow to my self-esteem, I won't let my life revolve around my acne. I need to focus on my school work if I want to go to early college next year, so I can't let myself get worried sick over my skin problems anymore. I'm not going to let me acne destroy me like it did before. Instead, I am just going to try to fix the problem in a calm, reasonable way. If it works, then I will be extremely happy and confident, but if it doesn't... Well I'm just going to have to get over it and move on. My skin isn't perfect, I'm just going to have to accept that and learn to love myself as I am.
Sorry for the long reply, but I really need to vent how I feel. I really want more people to understand that you shouldn't let your skin control your life. So what if you have acne? That doesn't decide who you are or what you can do. Go out, have fun, make friends. Don't limit yourself simply because your skin is not flawless. If you keep hiding from the real world, years from now, when you're old and can't do the things you want to do anymore, you'll think to yourself, "Why didn't I live it up when I was young? Oh yeah... It was because I had acne... I wish I would have just ignored that and done something with my life... But instead I just sat in my room alone all day..."
Please don't live like that. Don't have any regrets; do what you want to do, say what you want to say, never let acne control your life, what you do, the people you see, or who you are. You are you, you are beautiful, and you deserve happiness, so if you lock yourself up from the world because you don't feel beautiful enough... Screw the world! Get out there anyway! You don't know how much you're missing! One thing's for sure, you'll be a lot happier if you stop focusing on your skin and just have fun. You are your worst critic, so stop focusing on your flaws and see your true beauty.