I just wanted to post that I feel your pain & I promise you I understand what you're going through! I'm going to be 100% honest , your scars are not as bad as you think. I have seen people on this forum with way worse scars , I am one of them. You look like you have a really good skin tone , be happy for that ! Also , I had subcision in 2013 , it helped a little bit. It left bumps , but they went away on their own with time. I think the more you mess with them/think about them the more you freak yourself out about them. Just keep your skincare routine simple and keep putting aloe on ! Aloe heals great !