Glad you are feeling much better about yourself, a shame you are leaving the site now though, have really appreciated all your support with regards to telling my husband what I'm going through with acne. Best of luck for the future lovely lady
Another incident just occurred to me, I offered to do my sisters make up for their night out and they sneered and said something along the lines of 'erm, no cos look at how you put yours on, I don't want mine looking like that'. They were referring to my 'over done, cakey, orangey foundation' used to desperately hide my acne but with no avail.
Was really hurtful because how I put my own make up on is not representative of how I would do someone elses - I am actually really artistic and extremely good at applying eye make up and retro liquid eyeliner on myself and other people.
Again, fed up of being so stigmatised over having acne, people should realise how much words hurt. Well, knowing my sisters and how they generally treat me, that was obviously their intention They said countless other remarks about my skin over the years too. One would look at me with such hatred and snarl 'spotty bitch' at me, they would constantly make it clear that they were considered far superior to me due to not having spots.
Feeling much better today and yesterday, skin has calmed down a little. I wore my MAC foundation last night to go to a dinner party and for the first time in ages felt quite good about my skin, it seemed to make me look like a barely had any acne or marks Might have to wear that one more often instead of my usual Max Factor foundation which looks more natural but doesn't cover a whole lot!
Still missing my husband who is away doing army stuff for another 2 weeks, but I will get through it.
Lack of sleep doesn't cause acne, however a late night seems to really show in my face and make acne seem worse. That's another perk of being acne free, those who are can get away with burning the candle at both ends and still look great.
My newest outbreak is worse than I thought, in the bathroom mirror last night before my shower I counted over 40 blemishes on my cheeks/jaw - of those, at least 15 are very active. WTF happened? Just when you think your skin is calming down, BAM! Although it's weird cos only a couple of them are raised, the rest are just a bleeding mess where I keep scratching my face, perhaps that's made it worse but I can't resist, especially when they start to feel crispy.
My wonderful supportive husband went away yesterday and will be gone for 3 weeks due to army stuff, missing him loads.
Sorry you're feeling so bad today. Please don't ever feel that your acne or scars are your fault, you are gorgeous and you have been doing everything you can to help yourself. Unfortunately when it comes to acne, it seems if it wants to find a way to be there, it will be there. Sometimes it feels like there's no cure, and it's so frustrating when you're doing all the right things. I learnt this the hard way, relapsed after Accutane although at least my skin is a lot better than pre-Accutane.
I confess, I have been photoshopping some of my close up Facebook pics, it's addictive when you see what you'd look like without all the lumps and bumps. Plus I've been so badly bullied over my acne, I would not want my school friends (or anyone) to know that I still have it. Feel like I am a bit deceiving but then it seems everyone's photos on there are at least Instagramed, so who knows what else others do to theirs?
Had a pretty bad jawline outbreak these last two days, the spots really itch!
Have been feeling happier that my husband now knows all about how I've struggled with my skin, he still insists that acne lasting two decades is normal and common - wondering if he realises just how persistent mine has been? I tell him I feel disfigured - he just doesn't see it. What a lovely man, I love him so much. It is much more relaxing knowing I don't have to hide my skin from him, not that I'm ready to start tying my hair back when he's around! Not hiding your acne is one thing, but showing it off is another, haha!
Feeling really depressed and lonely now though, hubby has had to go away today for army training for three weeks, will miss him loads. We live on a little island, not much going on here and still in the 'getting to know new people and fit in' stage, slowed significantly by my skin insecurities. I feel moderately comfortable going to see people with my husband sometimes, but not sure how I will cope without him - don't really know people well enough to arrange to see them on my own yet, and I have a fear of rejection. I know I am lacking in confidence due to my skin amongst other things, it is a shame.
Yes my hubby is lovely and I feel blessed to have him in my life
Your man sounds wonderful too, and very supportive.
It must be hard for them to understand the condition though if they've never had it, although my husband said he suffered pretty bad back and shoulder acne when he was younger but it was for a fairly brief period.
Yes it was emotional, and such a relief! Has also deepened our relationship
Oh and he made me feel even better by telling me it is not diet related - he knows that it is a genetic/hormonal thing and knows I can't help it. One of the things I always get paranoid about is the fact that others may be looking at my skin assuming that I'm eating crap (when nothing could be further from the truth) due to being so badly bullied about this in the past by people in my circle, he was shocked as he assumed anyone over the age of about 10 knows the cause of acne is not poor diet! Well he told me not to worry as most people he hangs out with are smart enough to realise this and won't pick on me. I'm not totally convinced of this as in my experience (and people's stories on here) it seems that the general public still seem to believe the myths about acne and make us feel ashamed for having it.
Feeling much happier - I TOLD MY HUSBAND ABOUT MY ACNE ON FRIDAY!!!
For those of you who don't know, I had hidden my acne condition from him since we met as I was so ashamed, but couldn't hide it much longer and so glad we had the talk. It was difficult for me to open up to him, but his reaction was the best I could have ever hoped for!
He said that having acne is perfectly normal and natural, also very common. He said it does not reduce my attractiveness level neither is it a turn off for him! He doesn't think it's a big deal and doesn't bother him at all, he doesn't think I need skin resurfacing but will support me if I choose to go down that road (which I still want to).
What a relief though! Now when I'm in a bad mood due to my skin, or feel uncomfortable in social situations I can tell him exactly what's on my mind
I have a feeling he knows what it is...feel so humiliated and full of shame. Can't talk for at least another 6 hours as he's at work. Plus I want to make sure it's dark when we have the conversation so he can't scrutinise my skin. This is sooooo uncomfortable for me, wish I could run away somewhere. After sitting in silence last night for ages whilst I tried to tell him, I got really nasty due to my frustration and upset, he retaliated by saying I have been deceitful for hiding this problem from him. Urgh, I do my best to hide it (by avoiding talking/covering it with make up) because I am so ashamed.
Feel like a complete emotional mess, and extremely angry at myself. I sat down with my husband last night with the intention of telling him my acne story, but no words would come out. We sat for literally HOURS and I started to cry and lash out at him in frustration of not being able to articulate, he then retaliated and said I have been deceitful about whatever this problem is. Just all so draining, and feel that I avoided telling him everything last night because I wasn't getting a good vibe from him, when I tell him I need sympathy plus understanding - I feel that maybe he will tell me it's nothing