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  • Birthday 07/17/1991

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  • Gender Female
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  • Interests Fitness, good food, reading blogs, spiritualism, learning, self-medicating.

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  1. Whilst you acne is extremely mild, if it is affecting your self esteem and stuff I'd say go for it. Some people need a second or even third round of Accutane. The trial and error thing can be tedious but I guess it is totally upto you, have you tried diet changes?
  2. Week 4.

    Thank you father Jim.
  3. Circles.

    Circles, I'm going round in circles. I said to my mum today that I hate life, I hate my life life (right now anyway). This year has really been the worst. It started off well with meeting my boyfriend but a snowball effect of bad shit has accumulated. It started with me getting ill in January, I still have a cough from that. Then I hurt my foot in February which put me out the fitness game, still haven't exercised since. My skin started getting shit again. My house got broken into and my bag, passport, money etc got stolen. I saw a dermatologist with high hopes and Isotrex has fucked my skin right up.. anxiety ensued and I've lost 10lbs and hate leaving the house. My exams are next week and actually uni has been the most stressful thing ever this year. My bf really doesn't want to be with me, I can tell, I think he's actually trying to push me away now when before perhaps I subconsciously was pushing him away when ALL I wanted was support, I just wanted a hug and to be told that I'm beautiful and he loves me know matter what, that I'm perfect in his eyes.. but I didn't get that. So I don't believe that. On top of all that shit I've hurt my neck and upper back. Literally cannot get a break right now. Why does life hate me right now? What have I done? I'm exhausted. My little head is exhausted and I hate that I feel guilty for anything I eat. I just want to be happy but I don't know how. 4 month ago I was so much happier until all this carp happened. I'm sorry if you are getting fed up of me going on and on but I haven't anyone who understands the "emotional" side of acne. No one in MY life has this as bad as me. This blog is my only outlet.
  4. Acne that just lingers?

    When I get ones like that I try to provoke it to come to a head by steaming my face or simply putting a got cotton pad on to it followed by tea tea tree oil
  5. Week 4.

    So start of week 4 with isotrex. Dr those of you that don't know it's a retinoid (accutane active ingredient with 95% ethanol btw) Literally my face is a mess and I'm thinking about just stopping the gel. I wish I hadn't started it. My skin was 70% clear with Differin so I feel maybe I should have stayed with Differin! I honestly don't know what to do guys. This is awful and it's truly hurting my self esteem. I'm trying to hold on but I just , I'm losing it. The pics added are not of great quality. I just want to try and show the texture BUT my full face is blotchy and red looking like my chin there. Like everywhere.
  6. What do I do

    Have you thought about maybe considering trying the acne.org regimen? What kind of acne would you say you have? Has your doctor prescribed you any treatments?
  7. At a loss. End of week 3

    So heading into week 4 with isotrex and my skin is a state, maybe it could be worse but it's really bad. Its s challenging and I feel I can't look at people . because I look so different to what I looked like 3 weeks ago. My face is oily, bumpy, scabby because I picked (stupid) everywhere is bumpy. It looks rash. Is this what purging does? Will it or can it really get better? My mental state is gone, like I'm so distraught. I do not want to see my boyfriend like this because he hasn't seen me with bad skin, the odd few blemishes but.not this. So I keep thinking about just ending it because he deserves so much better.
  8. Using a retinoid for 3 weeks, not put it anywhere on my neck and I have been getting increasing amounts of these bumps on my neck? Is this a normal reaction? Like is just purging eveything?
  9. A note.

    This is just a post, a note, about my feelings. I have to get them out. Im sick of writing in a diary that I know no-one will read. However, even with this I don't know who will want to read it. Im literally spilling everything out here so I apologise in advance. I am falling a part. That's how I feel right now, its not just skin related there are other things going on too. My bit toes are sore (possible arthritis) and now my lower back is sore. I work in a food factory which is tiresome and the early hours kill my happiness, but also standing for 8 hours after 7 years is affecting my body. I had a passion for fitness but I haven't actually exercisied for literally 3 months. That's partly due to soreness but also because I have been busy with uni, but more recently I don't want to face people. I don't want to face people because of skin right now. It is not great. It is far from good, or even okay. Its shit. I could have huge huge cysts though but I don't I have a million bumps all over my face. This is affecting me in many fucking ways, my self esteem is the lowest its been in a long time and I cant eat. I cant stomach it. Im not eating like I used to anyway because I feel so guilty all the time. I do not know where to go from here, I dont have a clear skin regimen because I am sick of wasting money on product after products. And this Isotrex retinoid is just not sitting well with me, I don't know if the reaction Im having is normal or not. More recently I am also losing my boyfriend, I feel anyway. I am draining him, I know it. I think he is struggling with how to deal with me, I only met him 4 months ago and I do love him, and he loves me. But Im losing him because of my depression. That hurts and makes me feel selfish. Im selfish because Im trying to "fix" me. I think I look very ugly right now, and I cant even look my boyfriend properlyin the eyes, because I feel ashamed. Ashamed of my face. Yeah, so that;s me. A 24 year old woman who dislikes herself so much, and crys at almost anything. Ive lost who I was 4 months ago..Ive lost hope.
  10. Feeling so bad

    DeLovely it's actually Isotrex I'm on so it's not tretinoin but Iso - tretinoin so the active ingredient found in accutane. However by all means it's still a retinoid. I'm seriously just at a loss tbh. I'm not breaking out in cysts or anything it's literally all these tiny tiny bumps/pimples EVREYWHERE. I'm feeling so fucking shit and do not know what to do, I'm truly scared of my mind and am pushing everyone away including my boyfriend.
  11. Honestly I don't think I can. Like it's emotionally draining me and making me feel like shit right now. How bad was your breakout?
  12. Never heard of Isotin. I'm using isotrex and is 0.05 isotretenoin too. I'm purging like crazy. :'(
  13. What's going on?

    Okay so I know im purging and shit. Which is ridiculous. But I've recently noticed these tiny rash like pimples all around my neck area, literally all around it and at the backs of my ears (as if where a scarf would lie). They aren't itchy just rough textured. what the heck are these? I use a bha cleanser in the morning and pretty much just a micellar water in the evenings and I do tend to wash that area with those but I don't normally have issues like this.
  14. Literally I can't stop crying. I'm feeling sorry for myself and whatever and I just can't stop it. I look super ugly right now. My skin had NOT looked this bad in so fucking long. I'm catching people's eyes look at my full face and I can only guess what they are thinking. I don't know if I'm having a bad reaction to isotrex or that it's just literally making every pore on my fucking fave sprout into a bump, red mark, spot or full blown whitehead. It's disgusting. I haven't got many people to talk to at home, I feel like I'm a pain and I'm just going round in circles. I literally see no glimmer of light/hope in my situation right now with this.
  15. Should i get dan's moisturiser or not?

    I use it and I like it. I use it every morning mixed with some sweet almond oil.
  16. So I use BP in the mornings and off nights of retinoids, was just wondering if my skin would freak out from switching from a 10% BP (I know, I know that its not great to use this strength) to Dans BP? Any experience on this?
  17. start of week 2 - isotrex

    Nightmare. Fucking nightmare. my face is very bad right now. I can't take the courage to actually upload photos of it, I'm that embarassed about it and feel extremely depressed. i have lots of 'baby' white heads in many area and like raised blackheads all round my forhead and chin/mouth area, tiny ones! Also my red marks are worse. I'm totally purging and it's killing me. Is it normal to purge so soon? Like a had two large white heads crop up on my chin after my first night using this. I'm just a little disheartened I guess and because there isn't much info on this isotrex I don't have much to go by except maybe relate it to accutane breakouts? Since it has isotretinoin in it?
  18. 11 Years of Ance

    I really feel you right now. I've unfortunately had acne for about 14 years now, all different forms, shapes and sizes. As you said it is relentless and very hard to treat. I guess there is option of accutane, have you considered that?
  19. Feeling so bad

    Thanks. Sorry to hear your going through a similar situation :( what do you think caused the breakout? I think having acne is truly a test of self confidence and mental management as well as possibly learning acceptance. But it's such a hard path and I don't like this path I'm sort of pushing people away that are trying to help me and make me feel better, especially my boyfriend who I love completely and he loves me regardless of my skin... but he hasn't seen my skin bad before and right now is the worst it's been since I met him so I'm chosing to not see him :/ which I know is crazy.
  20. I literally feel like shit right now. Went to my first derm appointment like 2 weeks ago and he gave me a gel called Isotrex - this is 0.05% Isotretinoin. So I'm heading into my second week and my skin is a MESS. I was on Differin for about 30 weeks before this and my skin hasn't looked this bad in a long time. I feel genuinely so ugly right now, and I do not want to go outside. I have a lot of exams this month and more things on to do with uni so I know I am stressed, also my period is due like in 4 days so I guess all the combination of these things isn't very good for my skin. I'm just riddled with anxiety right now, I cant eat right and just keep crying. Like I feel so sad :/ I hate being in a self pity bubble but its what it is right now and I cant seem to shake it off because every time I see my reflection I just want to hide (for lack of a better word).
  21. Really just needing some encouragement, wondered if anyone on here is using Isotrex right now or has done?
  22. Acne exclusively above mouth

    yeah no she isn't using toothpaste on her skin. okay maybe that's no solely the problem then, but it may not help matters. Yeah possibly, it might be worth your time looking into a new birth control? Unless your totally happy with yours currently. Do you use any topical medications? So benzoyl peroxide etc. or even medicated face washes with salicylic acid? Those willbe good steps to follow along with looking into your digestive issues.
  23. Acne exclusively above mouth

    Your still on birth control yeah? That are I would say is pretty much a "hormonal" breakout area. How long would it take for the spots to heal and clear before they come back again? Might sound funny but do you have a boyfriend with facial hair? My boyfriend has ALOT of facial hair and ever since I started dating him I started to breakout exactly there in the same spot.
  24. Dealing with Setbacks?

    That's why it's a good idea to take pictures periodically of your face during treatments so you can look back at the very beginning and think, "I know I have a breakout right now, but it's still so much better than it was" alternatively ask someone else who knows you well about what they think of your skin right now? Ask them if THEY feel it's worse than it was before starting, or if they feel it is definitely still on the road to recovery albeit the minor breakout. Most probably they will tell you that it's so much better and now your just breaking out like 'normal' people do