So I haven't posted on here for a good while. Im 24 now and when I was 19 I started to develop severe acne that progressed from mild. Iv'e pretty much lost all that I can think of in my life and then some because of it all - jobs, friends, relationships, family - my future. I did get my skin to a manageable point about 2 years ago on Dan Kern's regime and have been using his products the past 2 years however they slowly started to lose their effect and my skin just tolerated it more and more.
These past 2 months my skin is the worst it's ever been. Deep, red, painful cysts, whiteheads, papules, you name it. It disgusts me to even look at myself. And you know the hardest thing? I don't even know why it keeps getting worse and worse. Im getting clusters of acne on top of current acne, my skin is so red it's embarrassing. My diet is probably the healthiest it's even been, organic everything, no sugar, grains, dairy, gluten, anything. I take powerful supplements, all the ones that get recommended however nothing seems to budge it, or even make a slight difference - especially just lately.
Now I have to admit I just recently started to use a tinted moisturiser and a mens foundation that I think could be causing me to have more severe breakouts but the cache 22 is that I cant leave the house if I havent applied it to hide my shame. My skin regime is pretty crap too since Im too scared to even try new stuff. The only thing i use is dans cleanser and moisturiser, i dont like BP anymore since it dries out my skin too much and plus my acne has become somewhat immune to it.
Ive got no future, friends, family bonds, ive got nothing. It's rid me of everything. Acne needs to be taken way more seriously than it is, it's a killer. It breaks you down and tortures you. There must be a reason why every person I know, who I see in the street doesn't have severe acne like me - what's wrong with me internally to be doing this? Heavy metals?
Im a loner, a recluse. I want to travel and get away but im stuck, because of how severe my acne is. I just don't know what to do anymore - i have tried everything apart from accutane.
I am severely depressed and Im not ashamed to admit it.