Realizing I dont come on here much anymore. My life is pretty much the best it has been in a very long time. I just signed a lease for my own apartment in NYC. Im so incredible excited and blessed. I feel like a normal person again. No, my skin is not perfect. I get pimples every now and then, but you know, so does the majority of the population. I would seriously say every other person I see on the subway or in person in NYC, has acne/pimples/zits/red marks/scars. Its life! I had a humungous cyst on my cheek, super super super noticeable, and I still went to work, and acted like it didnt effect me, because people dont care! They may notice it, but who cares!
My point to this is that I just urge every one of you to push through all the insecurities you have about your skin, and live your life, and move forward. I remember someone on here saying you really have 2 choices when it comes to dealing with acne. You can hide and be miserable and be stagnant in life, and "wait" to do things and move forward in life because of the quality of your skin, or you can just say FUCK IT. Im not going to let my skin define me. I am much more than what the skin on my face looks like. I have seen some gorgeous girls and some good looking guys with bad skin, and it doesnt change their attractiveness, in my opinion. SOme people, as we all know, are shallow and will judge you based on your skin. But is that someone you want in your life? FUCK NO!
You're always going to be self conscious about something. Whether its your skin, your weight, your height, your nose, whatever it may be. There will always be something you nit pick about yourself that you dont like. Acne sucks, no doubt. Its sucks BIG TIME. But dont let it control your life anymore. Ive been guilty of this for the past 6 months or so. Within the past 2 months, ive started to feel comfortable in my own skin, and im liking who I am becoming
Back on here after a couple weeks of having pretty much perfect skin. The other day at work, I noticed a purplish flat bump on my cheek. I immediately freaked out. It's now day 3, and its big, red, and it hurts. Its an under the skin pimple/cyst. It's the first one in my entire life that I have ever had. So it's obviously super noticeable, because the rest of skin is virtually clear. It's amazing how this has completely crushed me, mentally. The only thing that is helping me is a girl, my sister, who had perfect flawless baby skin, and she told me she's had these cystic pimples before on her forehead and chin, and she just goes about her day and laughs it off. She calls it a Zelda. Hah. I've been using a neosporin ointment, but tonight after reading numerous things about tea tree oil drying out these things, I applied it. Well see what happens. It's not something that can be popped. It has no head. It's just super red and hard.
I know this is caused by stress, and I can thank for lame ass aunt for that. She's kicking me out of her apartment because she made some stupid promise to my cousin, her son, that he could have his room to himself when he gets home from college winter break. It's a long story, but this lady has 0 logic, and is fucked up in the head. So I can thank her for this.
The good news is, is that I'm finally getting my own apartment. My parents are gonna help me out because they know how expensive it is here in NYC ($900 for a studio) which is just one big room with a kitchen and a bathroom. Not even considered a 1 bedroom. So that's a big thing that's keeping me going, and not letting something like this control me, which it has the last few days.
Damn. You guys are all doing good, and my skin hasn't been looking good the past few days. I literally have not changed anything. It's been dry, red, and I've had a few new pimples pop up. No clue what's going on!
Sit down and have a mature conversation with your parents, and explain how acne has ruined your high school life, which is really has. Do you have to be 18 to sign up for it yourself? If not, go to the derm and get it yourself.
Milk could be a big contributor to your skin issues. I, personally, would cut out all dairy. Substitute it with green protein. There are plenty of green protein powders that people use. You could also look into hemp protein and egg protein. I would seriously highly consider removing all diary from your diet and seeing how that impacts you, in a positive way.
I'm sorry man. My main suggestion would be to cut out ALL dairy. No more milk, cheese, cottage cheese, and worst of all, your protein shakes. Most likely they are whey protein, which is derived from milk. I'm not a believer in dermatologists, but you seem to have a lot of issues going on, so you may want to look into that. My heart goes out to you. Good luck with whatever you go with.
Not acne related, but I dont know what to do regarding my jobs.
I was working part time at a dog shop in the city, and I really liked it and people I worked with. The pay is not great, and its not full time.
I got a full time job at a natural foods store that is cool, but I dont like it as much as the dog shop. Its a lot busier and hectic and causes some anxiety in a way. Its full time like I said, and I get a 25% discount on everything there but everything is so damn expensive that i wont even buy anything, other than juices from the juice bar.
The store is very disorganized. Im yet to be told what im making (pay wise) which should have been the first thing I was told. Both jobs are temporary because im planning on moving in 6 months, so my goal was to make as much money as possible in that amount of time, and then move. So im just stuck because it would make sense in my situation to take the job that offers more hours, better pay, but I dont enjoy as much vs the job that has less hours, less pay, but i enjoy better. Not sure what to do.
I already told the owner at the dog shop that i got a full time job and that I can work 2 days a week for her, but she didnt think that was going to work. Im bummed, because I did like working there more. Ugh. Not sure what to do.
Started my new full time job today at the natural foods store. Cool group of people. All the employees are around my age. Im going to have to leave my wallet at home every time I go into work, because Im gonna spend all my money on stuff there. They have a full juice bar with a professional juicer and they serve all sorts of juices. They have every type of healthy organic food you could think of. Its like heaven for me haha.